For ME, this forum has been a real linch-pin in my recovery to date. Maybe it's the anonymity, or the ability to be rigorously honest, or just the daily access while at work. In any case, it's been a cornerstone to MY recovery and the constant connectivity to other recovering alcoholics (although they don't post as mucy as I would like) maintains the freshness of my disease. Constant awareness of others with the same problems is sort of like 12th Step work, I think. At least, I think enough of this medium to believe it's important to some people working on their recovery.
Lucky for them, I don't have ALL their e-mails, 'cause I'd spam them with gratitude...
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Merry Christmas
Yes,
I find this forum very helpful! As you said It keeps me from feeling that I'm not alone in my disease, and is a reminder that it is only in remission. I find the I will not drink today & I'm grateful today the most helpful as it shows me why I shouldn't drink & keeps me out of my pity party.
When I first came here in Feb. I started a thread titled choice or disease. At the time I was confused. But, because of people sharing their ESH I now understand that it's both. Once you realize that it's a mental obsession & an allergic reaction within the body you have a choice to take action. Acceptance is the key & I have to stay in it often as I'm 33 days sober today.
I wish I had more to write and offer you SKG. I do feel a bit selfish, sometimes just reading. I feel a bit inadequate compared to you & some others here. You have made it well known that your college educated, modeled and have had many excellent careers. I'm happy for your sucess in life and building up many sober days. I would also like to congradulate you on your daughter graduating from college. It takes hard work & determination. I'm so happy for you and your family that you were able to celebrate her success sober.
It has taken me many realizations to reach this point in my life. And this ARG site does help. I've had some really busy days and felt more stressed during the Holidays. So, if my daughter isn't home I go in her room jump on her lap top as she has lightning speed broadband & just installed 2 gig ram & read on the PP board. That board is very active and there is so much ESH. Tim from PP board posted on Zac's x-mas thinking thread about how were all the same, in regards to addiction. After reading I'm so much more relaxed & usually feel very grateful, or get a good laugh.
Wishing you a wonderful sober day!
I find this forum very helpful! As you said It keeps me from feeling that I'm not alone in my disease, and is a reminder that it is only in remission. I find the I will not drink today & I'm grateful today the most helpful as it shows me why I shouldn't drink & keeps me out of my pity party.
When I first came here in Feb. I started a thread titled choice or disease. At the time I was confused. But, because of people sharing their ESH I now understand that it's both. Once you realize that it's a mental obsession & an allergic reaction within the body you have a choice to take action. Acceptance is the key & I have to stay in it often as I'm 33 days sober today.
I wish I had more to write and offer you SKG. I do feel a bit selfish, sometimes just reading. I feel a bit inadequate compared to you & some others here. You have made it well known that your college educated, modeled and have had many excellent careers. I'm happy for your sucess in life and building up many sober days. I would also like to congradulate you on your daughter graduating from college. It takes hard work & determination. I'm so happy for you and your family that you were able to celebrate her success sober.
It has taken me many realizations to reach this point in my life. And this ARG site does help. I've had some really busy days and felt more stressed during the Holidays. So, if my daughter isn't home I go in her room jump on her lap top as she has lightning speed broadband & just installed 2 gig ram & read on the PP board. That board is very active and there is so much ESH. Tim from PP board posted on Zac's x-mas thinking thread about how were all the same, in regards to addiction. After reading I'm so much more relaxed & usually feel very grateful, or get a good laugh.
Wishing you a wonderful sober day!
Please keep sharing and coming back. I blathered on about my past life and hollow tasks because I wanted to make it known that, in spite of everything I tried to fill my life with accomplishments and accolades, I STILL had to finally 'fess up to being an alcoholic. It's only in working this program that I've found true serenity and happiness. This disease could give a tinker's damn about socio-economic background, education, religion, race, sex or politic. It's beat ANYONE down, and it sure did it to me. The only way I stay sober is if YOU share your stories of Experience, Strength and Hope. Seriously.
Besides, you're one of the first individuals I met here! C'mon. Help another alcoholic out...
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I am what I am. A grateful, recovering alcoholic who's managed to not screw up my presence here on this board enough not to be invited back. And for the folks here to tolerate my yabberings because I'm staying sober. For that, I'm very very grateful.
Besides, you're one of the first individuals I met here! C'mon. Help another alcoholic out...
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I am what I am. A grateful, recovering alcoholic who's managed to not screw up my presence here on this board enough not to be invited back. And for the folks here to tolerate my yabberings because I'm staying sober. For that, I'm very very grateful.
This site to me was a God send...I was in the midst of withdrawls from vicodin, looking to see what the hell I was going through, surfing the web when I stumbled across ARG. I started reading and lurking for quite awhile and got to know people and about this disease. I am Stacey and I am an alcoholic and an addict and it took what it took to get me where I am today. I am so very grateful for this recovery website and all the beautiful spirits I have met on-line. I have some truly amazing friends that I've met here and I will continue to give back what was to freely given to me.
God bless everyone....
Enjoy your holidays and tell those around you just how much they mean to you as all any of us have is today...
Smooches,
Stacey
God bless everyone....
Enjoy your holidays and tell those around you just how much they mean to you as all any of us have is today...
Smooches,
Stacey
Yep, this place is amazing. Good thread skg!!
For me, whatever is going on and should I feel the need to share, then I can come on here and feel safe. Sometimes I have said things that I find embarassing but it was liberating saying them. Better out than in and all that!!
Depressed, frustrated, excited, indifferent, whatever, it is all allowed to just be on here and I think that is a godsend to alot of folk.
For me, whatever is going on and should I feel the need to share, then I can come on here and feel safe. Sometimes I have said things that I find embarassing but it was liberating saying them. Better out than in and all that!!
Depressed, frustrated, excited, indifferent, whatever, it is all allowed to just be on here and I think that is a godsend to alot of folk.
I found this site while surfing the web looking for information on antabuse. I was convinced that I could not stop drinking without some kind of drug. Turns out that antabuse is not available in Canada, but this board has certainly helped. It was (and still is) so nice to be able to say something and have people understand what you said and how you feel. When I had hit my bottom, I felt so bad about myself that I didn't even eat my lunch in the staff room, but I always felt comfortable posting. Yes this site definately has helped! and still is.....
one day at a time, Cookster
one day at a time, Cookster
honesty and shame - I find it interesting that some say how hard they find it to be honest even on an annoymous message board - I actually feel this way myself a lot - which I think goesto show how screwed up my self-esteem is - because honestly none of you really know who I am.
Well one or two people know my real name and email me as friends, but they know that stuff anyway.
Getting honest with myselfand others is I know a key for me and if I can do that in a sustained and meaningful way then I know that I will then have a real chance at long term sobriety.
Well one or two people know my real name and email me as friends, but they know that stuff anyway.
Getting honest with myselfand others is I know a key for me and if I can do that in a sustained and meaningful way then I know that I will then have a real chance at long term sobriety.
Yeah, getting honest is a biggie. I was far too paranoid at first to even consider being real about who I am. Weird stuff really. That one in about six billion chance that someone might see the name Ester and know who I was was crippling!! How ridiculous and utterly self absorbed!! I couldn't give a toss now!! Hello anyone who knows who I am! Ha ha!!
Hey Cookster, we are your antabuse!
Hey Cookster, we are your antabuse!
Ok Ester,
You made me laugh out loud this morning. Not about you don't care if someone sees your real name even though that is what I call magnificent recovery progress.
The part about we are Cooksters antabuse. Ha Ha I'm still laughing. Your so funny!
When I get a chance my daughter has google earth on her lap top, so I'm going to take a trip to Birmingham, England to visit you.
I got run. Have a great sober day, Chris
You made me laugh out loud this morning. Not about you don't care if someone sees your real name even though that is what I call magnificent recovery progress.
The part about we are Cooksters antabuse. Ha Ha I'm still laughing. Your so funny!
When I get a chance my daughter has google earth on her lap top, so I'm going to take a trip to Birmingham, England to visit you.
I got run. Have a great sober day, Chris
Ha ha, brilliant!! Laughter is fantastic!!
I live in Erdington, Birmingham. I'll wave!
I live in Erdington, Birmingham. I'll wave!
Hi gang, dunno what I woulda done without u allto spur me on. I stumbled across this site too, tho i was in my totally desparate haze when I felt surrender, maybe it was my H.P working already? almost 5 months sober now and so so chuffed and made up. I'm working it and its working for me so far so good, gotta regular meeting and meeting new friends thru the fellowship....thanks to u all
Fi x
Fi x
Flojo! Congrats on the progress!
"Chuffed." I LOVE that word. chuffed. You know that real thick fur around a dog's neck that you can grab onto and it's thick and soft and grippable? If chuff were a noun, that's what I think of it as...
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Was worried about you...
"Chuffed." I LOVE that word. chuffed. You know that real thick fur around a dog's neck that you can grab onto and it's thick and soft and grippable? If chuff were a noun, that's what I think of it as...
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Was worried about you...
For Me this forum has been a journey into myself through others posts and when i first of all joined (thanks Ginge) i posted in the view of trying to post the ultimate post and then i got honest and just started posting E.S.H.
The anonimity is in f2f only because i know everyones pain and jubilation because i am living it myself and since posting on this site and reading all your posts i have and are making changes in my life that need to be made because i was only decieving myself with parts of my recovery that i was living to suit me and my addictive thinking.
Keep posting and especially over xmas and new year when you are at home because it does get quiet when everyone is away from there work computors and i think of you all constantly in my day as i see things that remind me of you all.
Light and love Zac
The anonimity is in f2f only because i know everyones pain and jubilation because i am living it myself and since posting on this site and reading all your posts i have and are making changes in my life that need to be made because i was only decieving myself with parts of my recovery that i was living to suit me and my addictive thinking.
Keep posting and especially over xmas and new year when you are at home because it does get quiet when everyone is away from there work computors and i think of you all constantly in my day as i see things that remind me of you all.
Light and love Zac
Has ARG helped? Immeasurably...Merry merry to all of you on the alcohol board - we got some good folks here, real supportive. Hope you are all as happy as all get out over the holidays.
Peace and Happiness~MomNMore
Peace and Happiness~MomNMore
