Hi Everyone. I am new to the board. I just sent my first post last Friday.
Thanks to everyone who sent me a warm welcome and words of encouragement. All of that meant so much to me. This is such a tense time for me and just knowing that there are others who either have or are going through the same things as me is extremely comforting.
In case you didn't read my post, I am a 33 year old stay at home Mom to precious 3 yr old. I have been struggling with my addiction to hydro for a little over a year and a half. I have everything anyone could every want...except for high self esteem.
In my first post, I stated that I want to end this nightmare and be free of these evil little pills. The reason I did not post anything on Saturday or Sunday is because I completely blew it and did not scale back on my intake. I still took 15 pills each of those days. YUCK! Late Saturday I went up to my husband (who is aware of my problem) and just completely broke down. I begged him to help me stop this once and for all. I sobbed uncontrollably and I know my husband felt I was at the bottom.
So here's the bottom line. This Thursday morning I will be entering the Waismann Institute in So. California (I live in California). I will be going through their rapid detox program. After my stay at the hospital, I will then enter a recovery retreat for a few days.
I am absolutely petrified of the withdrawls I would endure if I went off cold turkey by myself. I know I would live through it however, the Waismann method seems to make it a lot easier and not as brutal. I just want this all to end and now I see a bright light at the end of tunnel.
I am very scared right now. I just hope everything goes well. I promise to post about my experience when I get back. I would love to continue being a part of this board for the support and friendship. I am so glad that I stumbled upon this board.
Please keep me in your thoughts.
I
Doll
You're going to be just fine. They will take good care of you. Telling your husband and asking for help was the best thing you could do. Of course this is YOUR board now and you have friends here. Friends that know exactly what you're going through. Please come back and tell us how you're doing.
Take care
Frank
Doll:
Nice to see you. We will be here for you, unconditionally.
Rachel
Doll:
The Waisman Center is in Northern CA? I am in Southern CA, so is Frank :-)
Rachel
Way to go gloss!!!! What a huge step you have taken please try not to be scared you are getting ready to hae your life back for you and your family,that is a miracle!!! Pray for God to give you the strength to make it thru this and then just try to replace all your negative thoughts w/positive ones.I would love to hear about your experience I have never heard how the rapid detox works out,but I can tell you this when you get home you will need to continue to find support thru AA/NA we just dont really make it on our own this disease is cunning ,baffling and powerful and you can never use again but the beauty is you only have to make it thru one day at a time that makes it much easier to live with.A 12 step program has worked miracles in my life and many others also you would be wise to continue to come here especially if you are scared to go to 12 step meetings you just will have more success if you have help from other recovering addicts we are all trying and working towards the same thing to be happy joyous and free away from these dang pills that run our life you will be amazed at how much time you will have in your day when you are not chasing pills it is truly a blessing GOOD LUCK TO YOU and CONGRATULATIONS!!!!
Hello,glassdoll
Im so so glad you have found some help.I posted to you on one of your post dont know if you have went back to it.I remember breaking down to my husband for the first time.I had been useing pers. for awhile for pain and been abuseing them and one day i ran out.I was so sick and i thought OMG im hooked of the pills.I hide it for a year or maybe alittle longer.My mom had gotten sick by this time.I started laying out of work complaining of alot of pain.My husband thought i was really hurting bad and he would go get me a few from his mom.Oneday i was supose to work a 12 hour shift and i didnt have any my husband was on me about laying out of work.He kept on with me i got out of my bed and went to my daughters bed it was like 10am.I had to be at work at 11pm.He came in thier and kept fussing about you are going to loose your job.Finally,he went back to bed i thought i got to get out of here.I packed me a few outfits and the girls a few went to my brothers.I couldnt bare to tell my husband what was going on and new by leaveing him it didnt solve anything.I hated myself and was ashamed about leting this happen.I got my brother he found me a tynaol 3 i had told him and his wife that day.They said they already new.I had been throwing hints to my sister and law.Later,that day my husband call and said what are you doing i broke down told him about it on the phone.He said come home i will get you a few from mom we will talk about it.I went home and cried he said com down you just took 2 pills .I told him it wasnt enough no matter how many he had.I told him i need to go to rehab for help.He didnt like that idea at all.After,6 months or so later i got to where i was doing some stupid sh** he said you got to get help.he was more than ready to put me somewhere and i refused to go.Three and a half more years went by and I found my sub. pys. and the day before i was nutting up again got in the car was doing donuts had my truck side ways out the drive.I went down the road cooled off and said i cant live like this any longer i wanted to die.I was so happy to have found my sub. psy.But, I still have some big issus i need help with.but,i dont put my husband through alot of hell anymore.he thinks im cured and i wish this was the case.I deal with deprestion everyday of my life.I just hope you come home and feel good and live one day at a time.Its a battle you are in for a ride just stay in the drivers seat.good luck,many people are scared to go into rehab the fear of w/ds ,been around stranger,not being at home with love ones.And all have said after they got thier they felt at home and have met some new good friends and still support eachother.As soon as you can please post back on how things are going .take care,crystal
Im so so glad you have found some help.I posted to you on one of your post dont know if you have went back to it.I remember breaking down to my husband for the first time.I had been useing pers. for awhile for pain and been abuseing them and one day i ran out.I was so sick and i thought OMG im hooked of the pills.I hide it for a year or maybe alittle longer.My mom had gotten sick by this time.I started laying out of work complaining of alot of pain.My husband thought i was really hurting bad and he would go get me a few from his mom.Oneday i was supose to work a 12 hour shift and i didnt have any my husband was on me about laying out of work.He kept on with me i got out of my bed and went to my daughters bed it was like 10am.I had to be at work at 11pm.He came in thier and kept fussing about you are going to loose your job.Finally,he went back to bed i thought i got to get out of here.I packed me a few outfits and the girls a few went to my brothers.I couldnt bare to tell my husband what was going on and new by leaveing him it didnt solve anything.I hated myself and was ashamed about leting this happen.I got my brother he found me a tynaol 3 i had told him and his wife that day.They said they already new.I had been throwing hints to my sister and law.Later,that day my husband call and said what are you doing i broke down told him about it on the phone.He said come home i will get you a few from mom we will talk about it.I went home and cried he said com down you just took 2 pills .I told him it wasnt enough no matter how many he had.I told him i need to go to rehab for help.He didnt like that idea at all.After,6 months or so later i got to where i was doing some stupid sh** he said you got to get help.he was more than ready to put me somewhere and i refused to go.Three and a half more years went by and I found my sub. pys. and the day before i was nutting up again got in the car was doing donuts had my truck side ways out the drive.I went down the road cooled off and said i cant live like this any longer i wanted to die.I was so happy to have found my sub. psy.But, I still have some big issus i need help with.but,i dont put my husband through alot of hell anymore.he thinks im cured and i wish this was the case.I deal with deprestion everyday of my life.I just hope you come home and feel good and live one day at a time.Its a battle you are in for a ride just stay in the drivers seat.good luck,many people are scared to go into rehab the fear of w/ds ,been around stranger,not being at home with love ones.And all have said after they got thier they felt at home and have met some new good friends and still support eachother.As soon as you can please post back on how things are going .take care,crystal
Glassdoll,
Hi could you please tell me more about the rapid detox program? I am unclear on how that works. I too am taking Norco 10/325 but a ton more than you. I am trying to taper, and not working it out. I cant go to detox for 10 days so would really like to try something different that works. can you please advise about the cost, way it works etc... and how long it takes and the whole bit
Hi could you please tell me more about the rapid detox program? I am unclear on how that works. I too am taking Norco 10/325 but a ton more than you. I am trying to taper, and not working it out. I cant go to detox for 10 days so would really like to try something different that works. can you please advise about the cost, way it works etc... and how long it takes and the whole bit
