Hi everyone.
i have been so busy getting straight that i have been ignoring the world of computers. I have been going to daily meetings and groups in an attempt to give being straight a real chance.
Yesterday a friend dropped over and smoked a joint in the back yard. It was strange as this is the first time i have been around it for almost 7 weeks. I have been staying away from smokers since i came out of detox and this has really helped as the first few weeks i wouldn't have had the will to stay off it. So yesterday as the smell drifted throught the house i thought just close the door and do not even entertain the idea of going out there.
I have met alot of new friends through the groups. All people who know what addiction is like and we are all heading in the same straight, clean path.
I am going to a major music festival this weekend. Im a little concerned as i have never been to a festival straight and last year i had a heap of speed and smoked joints all day. Well it will be a different experience this time, maybe it will be better. It will be better. I have a sitter for the kids and so just going out with my partner will be good.
I feel stronger in my mind and my damaged spirit is recovering. I hated myself for so many years, finally i have kicked this addiction (for the minute) and i am proud of the last few weeks that i have experienced straight.
I always thought being straight would be boring. Sitting home alone all day smoking cones was boring. Bong after bong and hey how about another bong. That was crap. Everyday the same thing, i was going insane. Pot stopped working like it once did but i still needed it to function every hour of my day. The first few weeks were tough but were so worth it for the life i have at the moment.
So i know i haven't posted much lately but i haven't forgot how valuble this site was for me (and still is). Especially when i was making the decision to give up. People would post and write things about the positive side of being off the pot. I thought you were lying, as if it could really be that good comming out of the haze. Well now i know it is. It is the best thing i have ever done. Sure i have my bad days and moments but i no longer make it worse by dealing with it by getting stoned. My problems now seem alot less than the major catastrophes i thought i had when i was stoned.
So thankyou for your support. I am really grateful i made the decision to finally stop. 15 years of daily smoking and now almost 7 weeks straight. I still can't believe it.
This site really helped me in a time of horrible depression, self hate and self harm. I dont know if i could have done it alone. Love you lots. OXOXOX
Congratulations on 7 weeks Shark Girl, that is great!!!
I smoked pot for 34 years...and never imagined doing anything without being high...I smoked once after about five months, and found out I didn't even like the high anymore...plus it leads me to using my DOC cocaine, so better for me to stay away from it.
Be very careful being around users...we all have our weak moments...
I smoked pot for 34 years...and never imagined doing anything without being high...I smoked once after about five months, and found out I didn't even like the high anymore...plus it leads me to using my DOC cocaine, so better for me to stay away from it.
Be very careful being around users...we all have our weak moments...
sharkgirl
its so good to hear from you. have been wondering how you were doing. it sounds like you are doing great. i am so proud of you. am really glad things are going good for you. today is day 82 for bubba j and i. i dont crave much. but life does not really seem that different for me, just sober doing it. not sure what i was expecting. anyway, congratulations on 7 weeks. dont be such a stranger. post more often. its good to hear from you.
its so good to hear from you. have been wondering how you were doing. it sounds like you are doing great. i am so proud of you. am really glad things are going good for you. today is day 82 for bubba j and i. i dont crave much. but life does not really seem that different for me, just sober doing it. not sure what i was expecting. anyway, congratulations on 7 weeks. dont be such a stranger. post more often. its good to hear from you.
Thanks for your support and caring about how i am doing. Appreciate it Bumps no more and Cajun Lady.
Would love to hear how the music festival experience goes.....I have posted before about what that was like for me. The biggest thing I realized was how much more I was relaxed when I was straight. It occurred to me that anxiety played a role at concerts.....I didn't realize how paranoid I had become either....
