Hey Guys,
Hello to all of you and I hope you are all well. Been a while since I been on the board. Been trying to stay focused and be positive. So far my BF has tried to kick at least 4 times since the last time I logged on. He gets to day 5 with no dope and then the severe depression kicks in and he is right back out there. I have a wall up around myself and been keeping him at a safe distance because I honestly can't take the stress of that whole scene anymore. I've just excepted the fact that it is HIS life and I can't put mine on hold any longer. Still love him sooooo much and my heart breaks, but I got a ton of s*** on my own plate to do every single day. Damn if everyone in this world did drugs because they can't handle the stress of everyday life and bills and work and kids etc.....this world would be a pretty f***ed up place! I truly believe that what don't kill us only makes us stronger. He knows how I feel and he surely knows I love him. He says he knows what he has to do and has told me 1000 times how he just wants his life back and this weight off his shoulders. I have been there for support whenever he needs it, but that's it. No money, and I took my house key away from him.
Well, that's my update. Thanks for reading to anyone who did and I pray for all of you on here that you are all safe and happy and drug free.
Byrn and Diff.........you guys have been an invisible rock to me and helped me beyond belief a few months ago. Your words have stuck with me and even pop into my mind from time to time. Thanks for all that typing your little fingers have done!!!! How is Rowanne??!! I'll bet she is just a little chatter box now and maybe even walking by now. Hope things with your Man are good Diff and that little girl you share has brought you closer to each other. Bryn, how are things with your daughter? And Mom? How's she feeling these days??
Bunny, GYAC, MOMnMORE...........hello to you guys as well and everyone on here who has shared thoughts with me........your all good people.
LOVE & PEACE
Danie
Dani,
Sounds like you have found a way to live outside the madness. You(as you realise) are most important in all this and day by day you are taking steps to keep the focus on the one that matter's most....YOU! The best to you always!
Sounds like you have found a way to live outside the madness. You(as you realise) are most important in all this and day by day you are taking steps to keep the focus on the one that matter's most....YOU! The best to you always!
