I need some words of wisdom, encouragement, and advice. I have made it four days without vicodin, quitting cold turkey. (Always wondered why they call it cold turkey) Anyway, tommorrow is Saturday and I know I am tempted to fall back again. I feel I have pretty much made it through withdrawals except still have insomnia and depression. I felt a bit more energetic and less crabby today then I had in the past three days. To those who have made it for a while, how did you cope? Did you eventually think less and less about pills? All I think about right now is my recovery, how long it will take until I feel normal again, and wishing I could sleep. The stinking benadryl only puts me to sleep for an hour to an hour and a half. I'm up all night from midnight until 5 am and maybe sleep again from 5-6am. Mercy, someone please tell me this gets better.
PS my first NA meeting is Monday. Still haven't received my recovery book from barnesandnoble.com yet. Getting mad as I wanted to refer to it when I needed to.
Cold turkey is used because your skin feels like a turkeys...goosebumps all over, etc..
Keep up the good work. The first days are the worst!
Keep up the good work. The first days are the worst!
MM.......It absolutely does get better!!!! Although it took me 10-12 days to get over the physical stuff.......leg cramps, diarehea (sp), seems most people on here do it sooner. I was taking a high dose for many years, though. BUT, I would think you are past the worst of it. GOOD FOR YOU!!! The insomnia is a bi***. I now have 56 days, and my sleeping still isn't normal...???
As for cravings, I'd say that varies as well. I think about the pills, but do not crave them as I had feared.Thank GOD! I am weak and if I was really craving bad, don't know if I would have made it this far.
So, please hang in there!!! You are doing a good thing for yourself and it is so very worth this part of it. Good luck!
I feel so much better this morning. I feel as if I can make one more day. I tell myself everyday, "Just make it through today without pills. Think about tomorrow when it comes." So far so good. I actually slept through the night last night for the first time. That was a shocker. I don't expect it to happen all the time but knowing it has happened once gives me hope it will happen again. I am proud of myself even though I crave a pill. This board has been a tremendous help to me. I come here several times a day knowing someone will help me get over a certain feeling or a craving. You are all so great in helping others as well as helping yourselves. I'm proud of us all!
Dear MM I am so glad you feel better.It may be one of the hardest things you've ever done but the end results are well worth it I deeply belive that and I also belive in you my friend.Keep working it and when you feel weak we will be your shoulders TAKE CARE....mj
OH yes! my friend it does get better. Just remember day by day.
Then you will start to see you will get things back. You already said you
feel like you a bit more energy. I am so PROUD of you! You are so strong
and you are going cold turkey. Trust me when I say every day it gets better
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Then you will start to see you will get things back. You already said you
feel like you a bit more energy. I am so PROUD of you! You are so strong
and you are going cold turkey. Trust me when I say every day it gets better
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Yes, it does get better. Though the sleeping thing has been an issue with me too. I had tried some OTC sleep aids, but didnt want one problem to turn into another, so I would only use them occasionally at the beginning. When I cant sleep, I try to be productive rather than sit in bed and think about not sleeping. I have 19 days clean, and I was up at 3:00 AM today unable to sleep. On the bright side, I got a lot of paperwork done that would otherwise have been waiting form me later on, so there is a bright side.
A good book helps pass the time also. As you experienced, when your body NEEDS sleep, it will usually get it.
In any case, I would rather be clean, awake and tired than still using and sleeping 9 hours per day, barely able to function the rest of the time. (And no, we do not function well when we are using. That voice telling you function better when you are high is the disease talking. It lies, but is persuasive, so beware!)
I am and will stay clean today. Thanks again to all on this board who have helped me get and stay clean.
A good book helps pass the time also. As you experienced, when your body NEEDS sleep, it will usually get it.
In any case, I would rather be clean, awake and tired than still using and sleeping 9 hours per day, barely able to function the rest of the time. (And no, we do not function well when we are using. That voice telling you function better when you are high is the disease talking. It lies, but is persuasive, so beware!)
I am and will stay clean today. Thanks again to all on this board who have helped me get and stay clean.
MyMaltese,
I have been vicoden free since Sept 21st. I was taken 120 Vics per month 7.5 ES. I can tell you that YES it does get easier. AS each days passes you will feel much better. I did have a hard time gettign over mental side of it. Everyday for about 2 to 3 weeks, I would go and look for them--Knowing that I had none.
What really helped me get clean, and has kept me clean thru today is going to meetings. This board was my lifeline for the first 30 days, and still is today--but I needed to be around other people that were either going thru what I was, or could over me help.
Today I do not think about pills, dont want any pills--and I thank god so much for that. My life is getting better every day. All is not perfect, and I take each day as it comes. I live for today !! Screw yesterday, and what tomorrow brings, well I will deal with it when it comes, and as long as I am clean--I will be ok.
Keep up the good work, give yourself a strong foundation--this board, meetings, and people to talk to---you can do it.
I wish you the best of luck--keep us posted.
Mike
I have been vicoden free since Sept 21st. I was taken 120 Vics per month 7.5 ES. I can tell you that YES it does get easier. AS each days passes you will feel much better. I did have a hard time gettign over mental side of it. Everyday for about 2 to 3 weeks, I would go and look for them--Knowing that I had none.
What really helped me get clean, and has kept me clean thru today is going to meetings. This board was my lifeline for the first 30 days, and still is today--but I needed to be around other people that were either going thru what I was, or could over me help.
Today I do not think about pills, dont want any pills--and I thank god so much for that. My life is getting better every day. All is not perfect, and I take each day as it comes. I live for today !! Screw yesterday, and what tomorrow brings, well I will deal with it when it comes, and as long as I am clean--I will be ok.
Keep up the good work, give yourself a strong foundation--this board, meetings, and people to talk to---you can do it.
I wish you the best of luck--keep us posted.
Mike
