I feel for your pain and frustration in trying to help your girlfriend, but I think you're overstepping your bounds by calling her workplace, etc. Maybe if she was your wife, I don't know.... just my opinion, stranger. Not said with any judgment or criticism. Others may have a different take.... detachment is hard, but it seems necessary here for your own health and sanity. M.
Somestranger,
Well seems like we had some things in common. As I read what you did, calling the boss, the memories came flooding back.....
After about 4 nights of no sleep I freaked out and was on the phone at 6am waking people. I called all the parents and told them to get here. Almost gave my mom a heart attack.......she spent the day at my house with chest pains, that still haunts me. It was the worst thing to do but in some ways the best. My mom more than anyone talked me out of calling the boss. Who knew about the pills, had know for a while, just didn't know it was out of control. I was blamed that day for his problem , that was fun....but in all I got what I needed from those I thought were the best to talk to at the time.
Now I can describe it all as being emotionally F**ked over......they are the only words to tell how I felt.....I was that trainwreck you talk of......
You can't save someone who doesn't want to be saved......No matter how hard you try and how much time you put it, she needs to want to stop her hell. I fear you will lose yourself in all of this. Lose sight of who you are! The no sleep is the worst.....you can't rationalize anything right without sleep. You get pulled into a dark depression and start to have feelings that aren't warranted. I was so bad the day I made that call I was about to just up and leave.....one of the reasons I called to begin with. I was out of there, for where who knows and to do what I don't even want to go there.......and I have 4 kids, one a baby, but I was so distraught that was the only way I could think of to escape my pain. That selfishness, was never me , until then.......
Please, rest.....calm your thoughts........You really do need to take care of you, and you don't see it but you are being pulled in. Life is being sucked out of you alittle at a time.........Thats how it works, you lose little pieces of you, usually the best parts.......you need to stop it now.......before the best in you is gone......
Take care of you, for today just you,
Tina
Well seems like we had some things in common. As I read what you did, calling the boss, the memories came flooding back.....
After about 4 nights of no sleep I freaked out and was on the phone at 6am waking people. I called all the parents and told them to get here. Almost gave my mom a heart attack.......she spent the day at my house with chest pains, that still haunts me. It was the worst thing to do but in some ways the best. My mom more than anyone talked me out of calling the boss. Who knew about the pills, had know for a while, just didn't know it was out of control. I was blamed that day for his problem , that was fun....but in all I got what I needed from those I thought were the best to talk to at the time.
Now I can describe it all as being emotionally F**ked over......they are the only words to tell how I felt.....I was that trainwreck you talk of......
You can't save someone who doesn't want to be saved......No matter how hard you try and how much time you put it, she needs to want to stop her hell. I fear you will lose yourself in all of this. Lose sight of who you are! The no sleep is the worst.....you can't rationalize anything right without sleep. You get pulled into a dark depression and start to have feelings that aren't warranted. I was so bad the day I made that call I was about to just up and leave.....one of the reasons I called to begin with. I was out of there, for where who knows and to do what I don't even want to go there.......and I have 4 kids, one a baby, but I was so distraught that was the only way I could think of to escape my pain. That selfishness, was never me , until then.......
Please, rest.....calm your thoughts........You really do need to take care of you, and you don't see it but you are being pulled in. Life is being sucked out of you alittle at a time.........Thats how it works, you lose little pieces of you, usually the best parts.......you need to stop it now.......before the best in you is gone......
Take care of you, for today just you,
Tina
Something was bothering me about your last post, now I don't know if this is it and I stand by what I wrote above 100 %.........But I would hope you would take time to think about these 2 words, obsession and jealousy.......
Jealousy, leads to anger, which isn't constructive...........
Obsession, that can rob you of your soul!
Jealousy, leads to anger, which isn't constructive...........
Obsession, that can rob you of your soul!
Board was down last night, don't know if you tried to get on.......alittle concerned. Hope you and your girlfriend are well.
I know this is a pill/addiction forum i am sorry I beared more soul and feelings than might have been welcome but lets face it we all are human and if we all had not had addiction break our hearts we would not be here.
true I am emotionally exhausted,
I just want her to get help, my time is drawing to a close, I see how people could think I am jealous of the ex which I would be if she wanted him she doesn't want him she wants what he condones and gets for her the damn pills,
If I am mad or angry its at the pills and that turd getting them for her but the anger ends there.
I guess I might very well be obsessed over how bad this all is, when you have a child call u and cry "I dont want my momma to be an addict again"
It tends to get a passinate person obsessed with trying to find a solution,
But like I said my time to worry bout this is almost over in fact I would say this time tomorrow night I will be out of the situation,
As soon as I can get her to come get all her stuff I don't have to be exposed to her pill induced lies and the heartbreak,
Again I thank everyone here, I needed the solace and I will update as the story isnt over just my involment.
true I am emotionally exhausted,
I just want her to get help, my time is drawing to a close, I see how people could think I am jealous of the ex which I would be if she wanted him she doesn't want him she wants what he condones and gets for her the damn pills,
If I am mad or angry its at the pills and that turd getting them for her but the anger ends there.
I guess I might very well be obsessed over how bad this all is, when you have a child call u and cry "I dont want my momma to be an addict again"
It tends to get a passinate person obsessed with trying to find a solution,
But like I said my time to worry bout this is almost over in fact I would say this time tomorrow night I will be out of the situation,
As soon as I can get her to come get all her stuff I don't have to be exposed to her pill induced lies and the heartbreak,
Again I thank everyone here, I needed the solace and I will update as the story isnt over just my involment.
Hey Somestranger,
Wanted to let you know that you found someone just as passionate and compassionate.........Why you feel like a burden, I have no idea. I put the jealousy aspect out there for a reason. I wanted you to think if it could be a problem and then get you to move past the ex. He is being used because of the pills, it is his control over her, and I am sure that hurts in some way....As far as the obsession, well you know all about that. When you are totally consumed by something and as exhausted as you are it may be the obsession driving you. I wish you would rest, maybe tomorrow you will, when you distance yourself from it all. I really can't imagine how hard that will be on you. I really don't want to either because I never really can be sure if I won't be doing the same thing one day. As far as anger is concerned I am more worried at you being angry with yourself than her. I know I was because I couldn't do anything to help him.
Take care........I will be praying for you both.
Tina
Wanted to let you know that you found someone just as passionate and compassionate.........Why you feel like a burden, I have no idea. I put the jealousy aspect out there for a reason. I wanted you to think if it could be a problem and then get you to move past the ex. He is being used because of the pills, it is his control over her, and I am sure that hurts in some way....As far as the obsession, well you know all about that. When you are totally consumed by something and as exhausted as you are it may be the obsession driving you. I wish you would rest, maybe tomorrow you will, when you distance yourself from it all. I really can't imagine how hard that will be on you. I really don't want to either because I never really can be sure if I won't be doing the same thing one day. As far as anger is concerned I am more worried at you being angry with yourself than her. I know I was because I couldn't do anything to help him.
Take care........I will be praying for you both.
Tina
