Hi only just found this site today,have been in suboxone bit,but no one is about,i just needed to talk,the thing is im 6months pregnant&am on a very low dose of subutex,am talking to my specialist about withdrawing before my babies due&my other options,the thing is my fiance doesnt know about my problem,i was clean from heroin&subutex for quite a few months before we met&it was just easier to leave all that behind me,but a month or so before i got pregnant(which was unplanned,i was on the pill&have polycystic ovaries,so the likelyhood of me getting pregnant without medical help was low,obviously not that low!!)my depression came back a but,totally untriggered,so stupidly i statrted taking subs to perk me up,b4 i knew it i was dependant,the thing is im so scared to tell my boyfriend,im worried he'l hate me because i kept it a secret&he might think that he doesnt really know me,im constantly worrying now,crying all the time,i cant sleep,i have to force myself to eat,and i feel so guilty for the baby&for not telling him in the beginning,the thing is now what do i do?
I am not a father but if i was going to b id want the truth. It will be unpredictable but id wana know. I wish you the best of luck and hope you have a healthy baby that has a mother that is clean. I am on sub. R u getting it leagally. Please c a doctor about this. Not judging, i will be thinkink about you!!!!!!!!!
Brien
Brien
welcome!
I say the truth will set you free! show your boyfriend what you have posted to us, and pray before you fess up! God has ALWAYS guided and directed my path in life.
please get clean so that your baby has a stable mom.just continue with sub and monthly cut down a mg so that you will be drug free soon! my plan is to cut down on sub soooo slowly that my brain will not catch on.
sub is a wonderful tool in helping me get off the opiates, i will have 8 mos clean on apr 10th,
na meetings and a sponsor are also very helpful and necessary, they will show you how to live the 12 steps of recovery. its not just quitting pills, that seems to be the easier part, the hard part is living a life without drugs, changing our "stinkin thinkin" so we dont pick up again. good luck! and keep posting here! jewels
I say the truth will set you free! show your boyfriend what you have posted to us, and pray before you fess up! God has ALWAYS guided and directed my path in life.
please get clean so that your baby has a stable mom.just continue with sub and monthly cut down a mg so that you will be drug free soon! my plan is to cut down on sub soooo slowly that my brain will not catch on.
sub is a wonderful tool in helping me get off the opiates, i will have 8 mos clean on apr 10th,
na meetings and a sponsor are also very helpful and necessary, they will show you how to live the 12 steps of recovery. its not just quitting pills, that seems to be the easier part, the hard part is living a life without drugs, changing our "stinkin thinkin" so we dont pick up again. good luck! and keep posting here! jewels
Vikky, GREAT NEWS, really-
I'm sure glad u came here and had the courage to post ur problem. I know how hard that is. It indicates a person with a lot of guts and strength (even though it might not feel like it at all & you might think I'm off. I can assure u I'm usually on the money on stuff like this<too bad u can't bet on it, sorry, bad joke>
But really, courage is the thing that people demonstrate when they are sometimes petrified & feel week. Real scared. Then they take a step anyhow. That is courage and bravery & all that other good stuff. Strength also comes from taking action, even though you feel like your a wimp. (not you per se, but any you)
Anyway, I am guessing you are pretty young- maybe early 20's at the most. If your fiance loves you- you have nothing to fear. When I think about it, even if he didn't love you (don't get me wrong, I'm just speaking hypothetically to make a point) there is not all that much for him to get mad about here--UNLESS HE IS A KING JACKAS$.
What you did boils down to this. You felt depressed. Instead of going to a Dr. and getting antidepressents, you did what addicts (even those who thing they are "recovered") do. You self medicated & prescribed yourself subox to help with your depression.
That's it. Maybe not the smartest move in town, but it sure does not make you anywhere near a bad person. Matter of fact, if this is the worst or dumbest thing you ever do (Im not even talking about drugs, I am talking in general life) he will be a very lucky man. WHAT YOU DID WAS SMALL POTATOES.
DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT------Sit down with him and just tell him. If you cry through it , so much better. If he is a SCHMUCK ABOUT IT, then he is a schmuck, and your problem would be him. BETTER TO FIND OUT NOW.
If he loves you, he will hug you and support you.
More important then anything else right now is proper medical treatment, especially with the baby. Talk to a good Dr (preferably an addiction Dr who also has a good reputtion ) & figure out what to do.
I wish you the Best
Harry
I'm sure glad u came here and had the courage to post ur problem. I know how hard that is. It indicates a person with a lot of guts and strength (even though it might not feel like it at all & you might think I'm off. I can assure u I'm usually on the money on stuff like this<too bad u can't bet on it, sorry, bad joke>
But really, courage is the thing that people demonstrate when they are sometimes petrified & feel week. Real scared. Then they take a step anyhow. That is courage and bravery & all that other good stuff. Strength also comes from taking action, even though you feel like your a wimp. (not you per se, but any you)
Anyway, I am guessing you are pretty young- maybe early 20's at the most. If your fiance loves you- you have nothing to fear. When I think about it, even if he didn't love you (don't get me wrong, I'm just speaking hypothetically to make a point) there is not all that much for him to get mad about here--UNLESS HE IS A KING JACKAS$.
What you did boils down to this. You felt depressed. Instead of going to a Dr. and getting antidepressents, you did what addicts (even those who thing they are "recovered") do. You self medicated & prescribed yourself subox to help with your depression.
That's it. Maybe not the smartest move in town, but it sure does not make you anywhere near a bad person. Matter of fact, if this is the worst or dumbest thing you ever do (Im not even talking about drugs, I am talking in general life) he will be a very lucky man. WHAT YOU DID WAS SMALL POTATOES.
DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT------Sit down with him and just tell him. If you cry through it , so much better. If he is a SCHMUCK ABOUT IT, then he is a schmuck, and your problem would be him. BETTER TO FIND OUT NOW.
If he loves you, he will hug you and support you.
More important then anything else right now is proper medical treatment, especially with the baby. Talk to a good Dr (preferably an addiction Dr who also has a good reputtion ) & figure out what to do.
I wish you the Best
Harry
