Hi, recovering folk..there's a young girl on the alcohol board pleading for help..and thinking of worse things.
Izzy, I'm here for you. Feel free to post back to me.
Hi folks... I've been pretty bad this past while... that's why I haven't been on... I'm getting help... My psychologist reckons I have Borderline personality Disorder and I'm going to see a psychiatric doctor soon... this week I think...
I just want out of who I am...
It's too awful...
I just want out of who I am...
It's too awful...
Izzy, my heart goes out to you. I too have borderline personality disorder. I am Bipolar, with GAD and PTSD. Just love all of those initials that they give these lovely little ailments.
I posted yesterday that I was thankful to be clean. Thankful that my dr and I have managed to find the right combination of medications that has made me a nicer person today.
Welcome to the board and good luck in seeking help.
I posted yesterday that I was thankful to be clean. Thankful that my dr and I have managed to find the right combination of medications that has made me a nicer person today.
Welcome to the board and good luck in seeking help.
Hi... I have seen this Doctor before. I went to her and said I thought I had BPD... she dismissed it but my psychologist had me fill out questionnaires and scored me. I am paranoid and do not know how I feel most of the time. It just comes over me and I feel so depressed and angry but i can't say why... I resort to drinking to stop my feelings of rage... otherwise half the house gets destroyed... then the Police get involved... and I'm just sick of me...
I can't function normally... my drinking is getting worse recently and I just feel so alone... I just want to die most days... It's the same routine... wake up (when i do sleep) think about the day knowing I have to go to the shop to get my 'fix' or else I wont be able to cope as I don't know what's going to happen... what someone's going to say to me to set me off... make me feel worthless again...
I want out... No-one takes me seriously... I'm fed up... More than that... but there's no words for it...
I can't function normally... my drinking is getting worse recently and I just feel so alone... I just want to die most days... It's the same routine... wake up (when i do sleep) think about the day knowing I have to go to the shop to get my 'fix' or else I wont be able to cope as I don't know what's going to happen... what someone's going to say to me to set me off... make me feel worthless again...
I want out... No-one takes me seriously... I'm fed up... More than that... but there's no words for it...
Izzy, if you have that much rage it makes me wonder if you have bipolar. That's been one of the biggest problems in my life. The dr put me on seroquel which is an anti-psychotic...best thing I ever did, but I started having some symptoms of depression and she put me on lamictal....I am doing so much better now.
Maybe you need to talk to another dr? (not suggesting you dr shop, some dr's are more interested in what's going on with you)
I've never been tested for Bipolar, I charted my moods for about 3 months with another dr and got a diagnosis. When I first got off the cocaine in rehab I was swinging like crazy...so they upped the amount of seroquel I was on.
I'm sorry that you feel so low...I've been where you are, not feeling like I was worth anything. Since I've been clean, I feel better.
Maybe you need to talk to another dr? (not suggesting you dr shop, some dr's are more interested in what's going on with you)
I've never been tested for Bipolar, I charted my moods for about 3 months with another dr and got a diagnosis. When I first got off the cocaine in rehab I was swinging like crazy...so they upped the amount of seroquel I was on.
I'm sorry that you feel so low...I've been where you are, not feeling like I was worth anything. Since I've been clean, I feel better.
I thought about going round to an old aquaintances the other night... to try and cop some smack... I was sick of the drink so I wanted to chase instead... This therapy isn't working... it's not enough... I still feel alone and just want to get out of it on anything and everything... they don't take me seriously... I'm just acting out as far as they're concerned...
Tell me to take responsibility.. I want to... but I don't care enough...
I don't know what to do?
Tell me to take responsibility.. I want to... but I don't care enough...
I don't know what to do?
