Hi,
Im new here. So, heres my story.
I was addicted to percocet for a couple years. I went on the methadone program, got pregnant. So, I got off the program. My daughter is 3 now and im in a worse mess than I was years ago. I've been snorting Oxy's for about a year. I am ready to loose everything (house, car & stuff)because of having to go to the streets to feed the demon. I have a $75 - 150/day habbit. I am going to the Dr next monday to talk to him. It just so happens that my hubby is still on Meth. So, for me to sit and watch him go like the energizer bunny, and I feel like death warmed over. Oh, by the way, my fam Dr is the only methadone Dr in the province of NB (canada). I went to him before and he didn't even want to talk to me. What do I do?
Kickass
Hi kick small consolation hun but at least you are now addressing your problem again. What would i do in your situ beg that Dr for help if not find another way out and keep trying untill i could get help, i guess its hard to watch hubby but his he supporting you hun? his help now is vital but im sure you know all this stuff and you knwo there is no easy answer or quick way out. im sure someone with better advice will come along soon hun untill then take care jackie xxxx
kick..
anyone on here will tell you... I am NOT the one to talk to you at this point if you are still thinking about recovery in terms of methodone being your answer.... I think methodone should only be the very last resort after inpatient detox and a several week rehab program followed by trying NAor AA program or just and trying those and other approaches several times and after they have failed ... maybe ... maybe then a person is a canidate from methodone... I feel like meth is substituting one pill for another ... plus there are new meds out there now and while I dont propose those either .. like suboxone ... I feel they are a far cry better than meth... I will say no more about meth...
If your hubby is not trying to get clean and is not going to be respectful of your recovery then you will have a very hard time no matter what method of getting clean you choose... I do know that the human spirit is strong and if you want to live and be happy you can do this,,, it will take work... I believe in you and I will say a little prayer for you....
God bless you as you attempt this long journey..
Teresa
anyone on here will tell you... I am NOT the one to talk to you at this point if you are still thinking about recovery in terms of methodone being your answer.... I think methodone should only be the very last resort after inpatient detox and a several week rehab program followed by trying NAor AA program or just and trying those and other approaches several times and after they have failed ... maybe ... maybe then a person is a canidate from methodone... I feel like meth is substituting one pill for another ... plus there are new meds out there now and while I dont propose those either .. like suboxone ... I feel they are a far cry better than meth... I will say no more about meth...
If your hubby is not trying to get clean and is not going to be respectful of your recovery then you will have a very hard time no matter what method of getting clean you choose... I do know that the human spirit is strong and if you want to live and be happy you can do this,,, it will take work... I believe in you and I will say a little prayer for you....
God bless you as you attempt this long journey..
Teresa
He's not all that supportive. He just gets pissed if I do slip up. Its not like Im trying to destroy my family. I try to tell him it's not me, it's someone else. I have gotten the courage to tell him and my best friend, but nothing seems to be helping. I feel horrible when I do frig up. As for my Dr, the only thing he has for an answer is Meth. I don't really want to take that route again. But, if thats what it's gotta be. There is a 6 month wait to get on the program. I would imagine by the time I get in, I will have lost everything. I don't know what to do. I don't think Im strong enough to sit by and watch hubby while Im hurting so bad. Theres even a waiting list to get into Detox. If I were to do this without being on the program, I would have to get rid of hubby. I told him that. He told me I was just looking for an excuse. Excuse or no excuse, I know Im not strong enough to sit and watch him.
Well I can say I have been somewhat in your situation. I was addicted to percocets and then found out I was pregnant with my 6 year old and stopped cold turkey. Had him and then started taking methadone(from a doctor) for a back injury.My husband at the time ( he is now ex-husband) was on metahdone also for different reasons. Anyway a little over 2 years ago I decided to stop and he didn't want to. We ended up seperating due to pills and other reasons but my point is I wanted it. I wanted to be clean. I was taking 10mg a day for about 2 years at that point and I just woke up oneday and said this is it. I am tired of running out early, waiting for the next appt, spending money for the ofiice visit,script etc. I was just sick and tired of it.I knew my back was a little better and that the pills were bringing my down. They were giving me a false sese of sercurity. I didn't laugh much anymore. I wanted to be"normal" and back to the old Rachel. So I totally quit and I won't lie it was hard very HARD. The physical withdrawl was a Bit*h. I thought I would die but I lived through it. I seperated from me ex and he actually quit about 1-2 weeks after me. We helped each other through it the best we could and we are friends today but it is painful. So I guess what I am saying is some people can do it on their own. Although Oxy and methadone should be done under a doctor's care but since you get it off the streets you are probably going to have to do it on your own. There is a lot of things that can make the withdrawl a little more comfortable but it is going to be painful. So if there is anyway you can get into a rehab, pay for subutex and find a doctor that will help you that would be your best bet. Everyone one here is going to support you. If your husband isn't ready and you are then so be it. You have to do what is best for you.You never know he may follow in your footsteps,Take care and keep us posted, Rachel(Rae)
Gosh you sound so much like me. I lost everything at the point of getting clean. Right before I was ready to quit. We sold our home for 200,000 dollars. We moved and then when I decided to get clean I left him and got my own apartment. My 2001 C-320 was repo'd my 2001 Dodge Ram 1500 was repo'd. I had me and my 2 kids at the time to look after. I had been a stay at home mom for years and had no money. I was kicked out of my apt. complex a couple days before Christmas 2002. I lost everything. My husband at the time decided to get clean right after me and we lost the business that we owned because he was to sick and so was I to run it. It was hard. My point in telling you this is all that is material things. I have those all back now and then some. I have anew man in my life and 3 beautiful children. Life is actually good for me now.. So sometimes we get so low in our lives the only way to go from there is up. So if your husband is dragging you down and not supporting you in becoming clean then you have to leave him. Methadone is not your answer. Please don't even consider doing that to yourself. Methadone is great for those in chronic pain and for some it is quality of life. In my opinion it should not be used for the purpose of getting from Oxy's. That is just swicthing addictions and that is crazy if you ask me. So If you want to e-mail me and talk some more I would be happy to talk to you more later. I have got to run for now. Take care and let us know how you are doing.Oh yeah my e-mail is Bunny4804@aol.com
Hi Teresa,
Hope you are doing good today.... Rae
Hi Teresa,
Hope you are doing good today.... Rae
