Hey guys
How are you doing? Well I really have stopped counting days but i think this friday I have 9 or 10 weeks clean
Ok so Christmas I had a craving small, no big deal. I woke up this am and i had a craving for vicodin soo bad. It lasted an hour or more guys! I was freaking. I called my sponsor. Its ok now but what a wake up call
So you know what im going to do, i work out now, 3 weeks and I love the gym. Im buying a ipod right now at Best Buy for the gym next week.
If anyone knows what this was all about please post back to me. It was a terrible terrible craving! Its still not gone totally, thank God I cant get any pills. Im blacklisted from all ops.
Other than that i am doing great. School starts next week. I look good and feel good its just that craving!
Im still freaked out by it guys
Red-
So good to hear from you :) You sound like your doing great, other than the cravings here and there.
I am no expert by any means, but it sounds like possible PAWS to me. (Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome)
"What is PAWS?
Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome (PAWS) is a set of impairments that occur immediately after withdrawal from alcohol or other substances. The condition lasts from six to eighteen months after the last use and is marked by a fluctuating but incrementally improving course. It has importance to the recovering addict's ability to benefit from recovery, treatment, function effectively on the job, interact with family and friends, and regain emotional health. "
This is something I have heard alot of recovering addicts talk about, from what I have heard the intese cravings are very brief, and as more time goes on eventually go away all together.
You have a good amount of clean time now, and every day sounds as if it is getting better for you, and you seem to be doing all the right things for you......
Can you think back and remember if there was something that may of triggered the cravings?
So good to hear from you :) You sound like your doing great, other than the cravings here and there.
I am no expert by any means, but it sounds like possible PAWS to me. (Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome)
"What is PAWS?
Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome (PAWS) is a set of impairments that occur immediately after withdrawal from alcohol or other substances. The condition lasts from six to eighteen months after the last use and is marked by a fluctuating but incrementally improving course. It has importance to the recovering addict's ability to benefit from recovery, treatment, function effectively on the job, interact with family and friends, and regain emotional health. "
This is something I have heard alot of recovering addicts talk about, from what I have heard the intese cravings are very brief, and as more time goes on eventually go away all together.
You have a good amount of clean time now, and every day sounds as if it is getting better for you, and you seem to be doing all the right things for you......
Can you think back and remember if there was something that may of triggered the cravings?
My last pill was Nov 10th at midnight
I sure know whats been on my mind as of late. Next month I turn 30! Ok it freaks me out. I am still single. I am worried to death I wont meet a wonderful girl to spend my life with. Thats what has been on my mind. But i was NOT about to trade in 9 10 weeks of clean time, for what. More insomnia lol
NO
But if you guys can relate and help me out i would love it
Im treating myself now to the ipod for the gym. I love the gym. I am getting my weight back and i was told i look buff lol
Ill take it
Red
I sure know whats been on my mind as of late. Next month I turn 30! Ok it freaks me out. I am still single. I am worried to death I wont meet a wonderful girl to spend my life with. Thats what has been on my mind. But i was NOT about to trade in 9 10 weeks of clean time, for what. More insomnia lol
NO
But if you guys can relate and help me out i would love it
Im treating myself now to the ipod for the gym. I love the gym. I am getting my weight back and i was told i look buff lol
Ill take it
Red
Reddog,
What you experienced is completely normal...to be expected...I still experience "pill monster" dreams and I have been clean a long time. It freaks me out too but that icky feeling goes away...The human memory is awesome. I think the longer I stay clean and sober the less frequent this will happen, You are doing really well. You did the right thing in calling your sponsor and getting some support. I bet all of us can relate.
Be Well,
Jan
What you experienced is completely normal...to be expected...I still experience "pill monster" dreams and I have been clean a long time. It freaks me out too but that icky feeling goes away...The human memory is awesome. I think the longer I stay clean and sober the less frequent this will happen, You are doing really well. You did the right thing in calling your sponsor and getting some support. I bet all of us can relate.
Be Well,
Jan
Red-
I just turned 30 in October, and it bothered me ALOT. I am not for sure why, I know its just a number, but it did bother me.
I am married with children, and it still really got to me, so I think regardless of your situation the big 30 bothers most all of us in one way or another.
Hang in there...............I know someone will come along later with some better answers as to why your having these cravings.....
Have a good one,
Hugs.
I just turned 30 in October, and it bothered me ALOT. I am not for sure why, I know its just a number, but it did bother me.
I am married with children, and it still really got to me, so I think regardless of your situation the big 30 bothers most all of us in one way or another.
Hang in there...............I know someone will come along later with some better answers as to why your having these cravings.....
Have a good one,
Hugs.
JAN!
We posted at the same time there, just saw your post.................So good to see you :)
Havent talked to you for a good while..............Send me an email anytime, would love to catch up if you get time...........Javagirl1976@hotmail.com
Big Hugs......Miss ya.
Wanted to add: I remember those dreams, my god they were horrible, I remember one time when I went cold turkey, without getting to graphic, I dont want to trigger anyone I had a dream, I had a shovel in the back yard and was digging up pills.
It seems like I had those dreams every single night! Horrible.
We posted at the same time there, just saw your post.................So good to see you :)
Havent talked to you for a good while..............Send me an email anytime, would love to catch up if you get time...........Javagirl1976@hotmail.com
Big Hugs......Miss ya.
Wanted to add: I remember those dreams, my god they were horrible, I remember one time when I went cold turkey, without getting to graphic, I dont want to trigger anyone I had a dream, I had a shovel in the back yard and was digging up pills.
It seems like I had those dreams every single night! Horrible.
Hey Java!
Good to see you too! I just saw where Red said he is turning 30 next month...Ahhhh well I guess it's all relative, but to be turning 30 again? I think my 30's were some of the most wonderful of my life (little kids and all lol)
Reddog, maybe exploring why you felt stressed and craved around the holidays would be helpful for future reference? Certain feelings, situations that I didn't handle well, or that seemed to make me nervous or fretful would zing me with cravings...I still get them once in a while...but turn my mind and feelings over to something else...They do go away...Keep up the great work....
Jan
Good to see you too! I just saw where Red said he is turning 30 next month...Ahhhh well I guess it's all relative, but to be turning 30 again? I think my 30's were some of the most wonderful of my life (little kids and all lol)
Reddog, maybe exploring why you felt stressed and craved around the holidays would be helpful for future reference? Certain feelings, situations that I didn't handle well, or that seemed to make me nervous or fretful would zing me with cravings...I still get them once in a while...but turn my mind and feelings over to something else...They do go away...Keep up the great work....
Jan
Jan, Funny you posted about dreams. I had one last night and in the dream I found three pills I didn't take them in my dream but when I woke up I was wondering what happened to the pills. I could almost taste them. Thank god it was only a dream. Shantel
Justin........I just got back from the gym and saw this.
Give me a call when you have time.If I miss you,I will call you back.
It's nothing to get freaked about.It's totally normal.I don't know if you remember but we talked about this a couple of weeks ago.I told you it would come back.You did exactly what you are supposed to.You called your sponsor,you wrote about on here.Bravo.
You can't be lulled into a false sense of security because you haven't really faced any craving yet.They come back but will get easier with each passing month.Also,every time you deal with them you get a little stronger.
We don't magiclly un-learn years of addictive thought processes in a couple of months no matter how bad we want it.
Go easy on yourself and don't beat yourself up by any means.It's going to happen.The secret is having the tools in place which you do.
You are doing everything right.
I don't even think it's PAWS.I just think you had a craving.Don't analyze it to death.
Give me a call when you have time.If I miss you,I will call you back.
It's nothing to get freaked about.It's totally normal.I don't know if you remember but we talked about this a couple of weeks ago.I told you it would come back.You did exactly what you are supposed to.You called your sponsor,you wrote about on here.Bravo.
You can't be lulled into a false sense of security because you haven't really faced any craving yet.They come back but will get easier with each passing month.Also,every time you deal with them you get a little stronger.
We don't magiclly un-learn years of addictive thought processes in a couple of months no matter how bad we want it.
Go easy on yourself and don't beat yourself up by any means.It's going to happen.The secret is having the tools in place which you do.
You are doing everything right.
I don't even think it's PAWS.I just think you had a craving.Don't analyze it to death.
Dog cravings get easier and easier with time. You will if you continue to stay clean to get to a point where you just can think through the craving. You called your sponsor. That's what people in early recovery need to do.
30 and single? You should count your blessings. Just a suggestion but i would not start any relationships until you have some serious recovery days behind you.
Relationships are quite dangerous in early recovery. Not recommended
Jeff
30 and single? You should count your blessings. Just a suggestion but i would not start any relationships until you have some serious recovery days behind you.
Relationships are quite dangerous in early recovery. Not recommended
Jeff
Red when the right one comes along you will know, regardless of where you are in your recovery.
You will be fine my friend.
You will be fine my friend.
Brooke Anybody who wants to beat this disease makes sacrifices. You have a right to your opinion but any sponsor counselor therapist will suggest you take time to work on your recovery. Relationships are not suggested in the first year.
No major changes is suggested during the first year.
Jeff
No major changes is suggested during the first year.
Jeff
I am well aware of what AA says.
Always have to have the last word
LMAO
--Bottom line recovery is hard enough and to add a relationship is not recommended PERIOD.
So Dog you asked and i hope you listen. Cause yea its tough not having a woman in your life. But you will survive.
You have no idea how blessed you are to be single and able to concentrate ON YORU RECOVERY WITH NO ADDED RESPONSIBILITY.
Dog your first time around did you not have a breakup? If i am wrong sorry.
Hey its your recovery and your a big boy. If you listen to your sponsor I am sure he will tell you the same thing.
Jeff
LMAO
--Bottom line recovery is hard enough and to add a relationship is not recommended PERIOD.
So Dog you asked and i hope you listen. Cause yea its tough not having a woman in your life. But you will survive.
You have no idea how blessed you are to be single and able to concentrate ON YORU RECOVERY WITH NO ADDED RESPONSIBILITY.
Dog your first time around did you not have a breakup? If i am wrong sorry.
Hey its your recovery and your a big boy. If you listen to your sponsor I am sure he will tell you the same thing.
Jeff
Thank you everyone for your awesome feedback today. I made the day and i treated myself to a Ipod for the gym
Yea Jeff, good memory man. Yea i lost a girl last time and that lead to the aweful times i had taking 20 pills a day
So you are right. Im schocked you remembered
Thanks guys, im going to see a movie tonight. Im just glad I didnt use today. What a terrible craving, its still not toally gone but i would not use today. No way no how. Calling my sponsor was my life line.
Tim I will call you tomorrow my friend
Peace
Yea Jeff, good memory man. Yea i lost a girl last time and that lead to the aweful times i had taking 20 pills a day
So you are right. Im schocked you remembered
Thanks guys, im going to see a movie tonight. Im just glad I didnt use today. What a terrible craving, its still not toally gone but i would not use today. No way no how. Calling my sponsor was my life line.
Tim I will call you tomorrow my friend
Peace
Why would you be shocked?
Red your 30 young healthy whole life ahead. Plenty of time to get meet the special one-- married have kids etc etc---
But if you want recovery? The you have to do any and everything be willing to anyway. Its not an easy commitment
I was in a relationship called off a wedding --that was already planned. Went to rehab --halfway house --many suggestions. My girl stood by me and it all worked out cause I followed the program. She understood. My recovery came first.
Red relationships are a killer. You got school work and early recovery. You add a woman? You jeopardize your recovery.
But that is your choice.
Take care--Jeff
Red your 30 young healthy whole life ahead. Plenty of time to get meet the special one-- married have kids etc etc---
But if you want recovery? The you have to do any and everything be willing to anyway. Its not an easy commitment
I was in a relationship called off a wedding --that was already planned. Went to rehab --halfway house --many suggestions. My girl stood by me and it all worked out cause I followed the program. She understood. My recovery came first.
Red relationships are a killer. You got school work and early recovery. You add a woman? You jeopardize your recovery.
But that is your choice.
Take care--Jeff
life is a series of choices...........
((((((((((((((reddog)))))))))))))))))))))))
ipod...........great choice.......
tak it to the gym and smile........
live your life......
i am so happy for you.....
your strong, you have heart..........
java, jan, jeffery, tim,shantel, brooke..........
what a message of hope you all give.....
thumper
bless all your heart
((((((((((((((reddog)))))))))))))))))))))))
ipod...........great choice.......
tak it to the gym and smile........
live your life......
i am so happy for you.....
your strong, you have heart..........
java, jan, jeffery, tim,shantel, brooke..........
what a message of hope you all give.....
thumper
bless all your heart
Its true you all give hope. You are right Jeffrey, school work recovery, add in a girl that could spell disaster.
I am having the worsrt time trying to get this ipod to work. How do you do it.
I have verizon yahoo music. I can buy songs for 1$. How do you upload them to the ipod. I cant get it to work!
I am having the worsrt time trying to get this ipod to work. How do you do it.
I have verizon yahoo music. I can buy songs for 1$. How do you upload them to the ipod. I cant get it to work!
If you still need help with your Ipod let me know. Shantel
