Well, I posted originally back in November, I think, and had weaned down to 1 vic a day, one-half at a time. I did this for a couple of weeks and over the holidays I have gone back up to 2-3 pills a day. I don't know how to do this on my own. I need to go cold turkey, but I feel so much better with even just one pill a day. It is a noticeable difference where I have more energy, feel better. Am I just fooling myself? Where do I go for help? I don't think the local guidance center treatment of 4-5 evenings a week attending meetings is the thing for me. I have an appointment with my psychologist today so will discuss this with her, but I even went so far as to order a refill from my doc (unbeknownst to my husband) but now think I should just not even pick it up.
I am going through the same thing. Since Christmas eve I reduced from 8-10 to 2 a day. Then it went back to 4 per day. I just ordered another refill even though I still have 22 pills. I just can't seem to go without. I did three years ago and it was the best I ever felt in my life. I must find the courage and strength. I hope you do to. My husband does know about my problem.
Thanks for the post -- the only reason I reduced was because my husband found out. If I knew I would actually feel better without them eventually it wouldn't be so hard. I wish I knew why they seem to chemically make me feel just fine. I function fine but in my heart I know I need to quit.
Maggi,
Did you have all w/d symtoms? Boy I did. The diaherra, no energy, extreme mood swings, almost panic. The shacks, etc. I feel that I am making progress reducing the number. You know as long as I know I could I more I don't seem to get as crazy about reducing the number.
What did you husband say about the pills. I am afaid mine will never understand. I have only been married two years, and if I was honest I bet he knows something. I am not the same person anymore. I used to be very positve. I am mostly sad. I want a quick fix. The board has helped me alot. I have never answered before today. This might be a postive first step
Did you have all w/d symtoms? Boy I did. The diaherra, no energy, extreme mood swings, almost panic. The shacks, etc. I feel that I am making progress reducing the number. You know as long as I know I could I more I don't seem to get as crazy about reducing the number.
What did you husband say about the pills. I am afaid mine will never understand. I have only been married two years, and if I was honest I bet he knows something. I am not the same person anymore. I used to be very positve. I am mostly sad. I want a quick fix. The board has helped me alot. I have never answered before today. This might be a postive first step
Maggie,
Just was reading your post, and you said--If I knew I would feel better without them---well you will feel much better without them. I have been clean since September 20 2004--I was taking about 120 Vic's 7.5 ES per month. I stopped cold turkey. The first week was tough--but as time went on, it got easier.
Life today without taking pills is so much better, I have become kinder to myself, a better friends to other---and more then anything I dont feel that I am being controlled by my pill taking. Please think about stopping. You deserve more from life.
Just was reading your post, and you said--If I knew I would feel better without them---well you will feel much better without them. I have been clean since September 20 2004--I was taking about 120 Vic's 7.5 ES per month. I stopped cold turkey. The first week was tough--but as time went on, it got easier.
Life today without taking pills is so much better, I have become kinder to myself, a better friends to other---and more then anything I dont feel that I am being controlled by my pill taking. Please think about stopping. You deserve more from life.
ONeill,
Do you have a support system. I feel so alone. Little a dirty little secret I have kept. I am so embrassed when I go to pick up a refill. ONeill are you still signed on. I really would like to know about you stopping cold turkey. Help!
Do you have a support system. I feel so alone. Little a dirty little secret I have kept. I am so embrassed when I go to pick up a refill. ONeill are you still signed on. I really would like to know about you stopping cold turkey. Help!
HI MAGGIE,
I AM NEW HERE TO AND I AM ONLY ON DAY 7 OF A 4YR ADDICTION OF LORTAB ABUSE( 8-10 SOMETIMES 15 PILLS A DAY)RECOVERY...COLD TURKEY! I FOUND THIS SIGHT ON MY 5TH AND WORST DAY AND WHAT I HAVE GAINED FROM HERE HAS BEEN A MUST TO HELP ME. IT'S HELL FOR ONLY A FEW DAYS BUT I'M ONLY ON DAY 7. BUT I CAN SAY I FEEL BETTER.
I WAS THE SAME AS YOU KNOWING THAT THE POWER THIS HAS OVER ME MADE ME FEEL LIKE A TERRABLE PERSON, NOT EVEN HALF THE PERSON I USED TO BE.
KEEP ASKING FOR HELP. THEY HAVE BEEN A GOD SEND TO ME AND MY HUSBAND(ALSO ADDICT)
IF I CAN HELP, I'M HERE
I AM NEW HERE TO AND I AM ONLY ON DAY 7 OF A 4YR ADDICTION OF LORTAB ABUSE( 8-10 SOMETIMES 15 PILLS A DAY)RECOVERY...COLD TURKEY! I FOUND THIS SIGHT ON MY 5TH AND WORST DAY AND WHAT I HAVE GAINED FROM HERE HAS BEEN A MUST TO HELP ME. IT'S HELL FOR ONLY A FEW DAYS BUT I'M ONLY ON DAY 7. BUT I CAN SAY I FEEL BETTER.
I WAS THE SAME AS YOU KNOWING THAT THE POWER THIS HAS OVER ME MADE ME FEEL LIKE A TERRABLE PERSON, NOT EVEN HALF THE PERSON I USED TO BE.
KEEP ASKING FOR HELP. THEY HAVE BEEN A GOD SEND TO ME AND MY HUSBAND(ALSO ADDICT)
IF I CAN HELP, I'M HERE
My husband thought I had quit one or two years ago. This is something that I have done for probably 8-9 years using 100 or more a month. Last November, he found out I was still using. He was very supportive and said he'd help me and to let him know whenver I needed to talk or whatever. He tends to be very quiet so as time went by he quit asking me and he just doesn't seem very available sometimes. I am very stressed as we have 3 kids attending college here where we live. One lives with us and the other two are always calling for some problem or another. Sometimes I feel like I am a dorm mother in my own home. I have no time to myself. The pills help me cope with stress. He was actually controlling the quantity I had every day but he had to tell me where they were when he forgot to give me a pill and that was when the dike broke and I took some extra from the stash -- then I could take 1, 2 or 3 a day. He thinks I just need to go cold turkey. As for support, I don't feel I really have any. That's why I plan to ask the psychologist today what she recommends. I don't think I can do this on my own and still cope with work and life's other demands.
I did go through wd symptoms the first time. I'm so angry with myself for starting up again.
I did go through wd symptoms the first time. I'm so angry with myself for starting up again.
BAMAMOM,
How did you do it cold turkey. I am so afraid of the w/d. Please tell me about your victory.
How did you do it cold turkey. I am so afraid of the w/d. Please tell me about your victory.
Trose,
I started AA meetings as soon as I stopped taking pills, I went to over 90 meetings in 90 days. It was hard to go to AA. I did not have a drinking problem, that I had years before/ My life from my early 20's till September had been doing it may way--and it got me NO WHERE---The friends that I have met in AA have been great.
You are not alone, but you need to reach out for help---you will not do this alone. Go to AA/NA meetings ( if you can )....listen, talk--open yourself up to change. The other thing in my life that has changed is that I started to ask for help from God, that may sound strange--but it really has worked for me.
If I can be of any help--please let me know--even if I am the person that can help you, till you find someone closer that can be there for you--but please reach out--you will love the results
I started AA meetings as soon as I stopped taking pills, I went to over 90 meetings in 90 days. It was hard to go to AA. I did not have a drinking problem, that I had years before/ My life from my early 20's till September had been doing it may way--and it got me NO WHERE---The friends that I have met in AA have been great.
You are not alone, but you need to reach out for help---you will not do this alone. Go to AA/NA meetings ( if you can )....listen, talk--open yourself up to change. The other thing in my life that has changed is that I started to ask for help from God, that may sound strange--but it really has worked for me.
If I can be of any help--please let me know--even if I am the person that can help you, till you find someone closer that can be there for you--but please reach out--you will love the results
Yes, you can be of help. I am saying that I do need help but don't know what to do.
MAGEE, MY I FORGOT WHAT I HAD STARTED ON MY REPLY TO YOU, MY HUSBAND WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN SUPPORTIVE SINCE I HAD LIED TO HIM INSTEAD OF BEING HONEST. SOME OF THEM JUST DO NOT UNDERSTAND, BUT I THINK IN A WAY HE KNEW AND THAT WAS KIND OF A RELIEF. MY MOTHER WAS MY ROCK AND STAYED WITH ME A COUPLE OF DAYS WHILE I CRIED AND WHINED, BUT SHE WAS ALSO A ROCK FOR ME.
Maggie,
Where are you located ? lets check the web, and see if there are any meetings near you--how does that sound ?
I am in NE Philly--Bucks County area
Where are you located ? lets check the web, and see if there are any meetings near you--how does that sound ?
I am in NE Philly--Bucks County area
I'm in Flagstaff, Arizona. The thought of meetings feels really scary to me. I keep telling myself that this is something I should be able to do on my own. Is this crazy to think this? Thanks for offering your help.
Is it crazy to think you can do it alone ? Not at all...I bet if you asked that question to those on this board, we would all say yes. And some people may be able to do it alone....I can only speak for me, I knew I would not be able to do it alone.
I was scared about meetings as well, I was also somewhat ashamed of myself that I would need a metting like this. Ask yourself this, who better to help, then someone who has walked the same path as you. I am not saying that everythign you hear, or everyone you meet--will be for you--but you need to take from these meetings what YOU need.
After the first meeting it will get easier--try it. IF you dont think it is for you, dont go back--but at least try it. How long have you been using ?
I was scared about meetings as well, I was also somewhat ashamed of myself that I would need a metting like this. Ask yourself this, who better to help, then someone who has walked the same path as you. I am not saying that everythign you hear, or everyone you meet--will be for you--but you need to take from these meetings what YOU need.
After the first meeting it will get easier--try it. IF you dont think it is for you, dont go back--but at least try it. How long have you been using ?
I hear what you are saying --- and will consider trying a meeting. I have been using these darn things for probably 8-10 years! I was starting to feel a bit better when I had cut down, but like I say, home life is very stressful.
I am leaving for my "out of the house" job, which takes me away for 3-4 hours a day. The rest of the day, I actually do transcription work from home, so go ahead and post a reply but I'll be back later today. Thanks again for your help.
I am leaving for my "out of the house" job, which takes me away for 3-4 hours a day. The rest of the day, I actually do transcription work from home, so go ahead and post a reply but I'll be back later today. Thanks again for your help.
going to say something... congrats on taking the first baby step.... and welcome...
BUT...... you simply have to make a real DECISION..... either you want to be clean and be free ...( not thinking about taking pills ... how many today... do I have enought for tomorrow or next week.. what doc can I con for more... does my husband really now how bad I am..... ) or do you just want to pretend that your life is just too stressful and you cant do it.... the meetings are scary... the w/d are scary and painful... maybe tomorrow... ect.....
this is life and death.... maybe not physical death today but it is spiritual death among other things... so..
Good luck this is the most important decision that you will ever make... listen to oneil....
God bless
Teresa
BUT...... you simply have to make a real DECISION..... either you want to be clean and be free ...( not thinking about taking pills ... how many today... do I have enought for tomorrow or next week.. what doc can I con for more... does my husband really now how bad I am..... ) or do you just want to pretend that your life is just too stressful and you cant do it.... the meetings are scary... the w/d are scary and painful... maybe tomorrow... ect.....
this is life and death.... maybe not physical death today but it is spiritual death among other things... so..
Good luck this is the most important decision that you will ever make... listen to oneil....
God bless
Teresa
Maggie-
Your story sounds VERY much like mine, only my DOC is Fiorinol. I would've taken Vic's if I could've gotten my hands on them!
Everyone has given you really good advice. Best of luck!
Your story sounds VERY much like mine, only my DOC is Fiorinol. I would've taken Vic's if I could've gotten my hands on them!
Everyone has given you really good advice. Best of luck!
Hi I need to ask because when I joined in November also I was pretty mixed up.Why were you taking them?I mean was there a medical reason to begin it all????mj
Maggie..........Will you feel as good without them as you do with them? Well, 4-5 months ago you could have NEVER convinced me that I could feel anything but misery without at least 10 10mg. hydros a day. So I took about 15 a day to BE SURE I never felt bad. I was addicted to them for about 8 years and hated the thought of being off of them.
And then one day something hit me. Actually, a lot hit me. Suffice it to say, I have 2 months clean now, and I feel MUCH BETTER today than I did on the days I ate 15 pills. Honestly. It took a while, and I still have my bad days, but that is life. We all less than perfect days.
I really wanted to get clean and healthy. I am 48 and was very worried about the efffect the hydrocodone was having on my liver and heart. My relationtionships were beginning to fall apart all around me. I felt I wasn't being the mother I could be. My kids are 23 and 9, and I had been high since my 9 year was in infant. etc. etc.
If you look around you, you will probably see that you, also, have so many good reasons to get clean. It is the best thing I have ever done for myself, my husband and my children. I am a very grateful recovering addict and want you to really think about what you are doing and how you can fix it, too.
Do not be afraid of w/d. A few days of flu-like symptoms and that part is over. It is not a walk in the park, but nothing you can't handle. I am a major baby, and if I can do it, trust me, anyone can.
Sorry this got so lengthy, put some of your statements really hit home with me and I wanted you to know some of my story. The vics will win if you let them. Please don't let them! Take care and know that we are all here to help you when and if you need it! I am not sure I could have quit without the support and love of the folks here, and they will do the same for you.
Love, Carol
