Hey everyone....well what has been happening since I not been on here.
Broke my ankle 8 weeks ago, DRUNK?? yes a little lol stepped off a stage with KILLER heals on and CRACK broken. Got my cast off now, had nothing but problems with the casts, had 4 on in all cos they werent tight enough, its now causin me more problems cos I struggle to walk etc with the pain.
My neighbour has just had a baby girl....kind of got me thinking about my lil baby that is now with his daddy. Saw a spiritualist who said he is with his daddy, and kevin and ur family want to tell you that they know you done it for the right reasons. Got lots of msg's from kevin, I feel him around me allot more now, he is getting stronger. Went into the loft for my neighbours baby stuff and I swear sumthing grabbed my arm, just put it down to bein paranoid then it happened again OMG I was shakin!! Nothing to be scared of suppose it was more shock!
I smell Kevin all the time, its as if I know he is here and its conforting.
I have also ended a relationship which I was havin with this guy I was very fond of....I just completely cut him off from my life without explanation. I feel so bad and cant explain wot I want, but after I thought about it, Kevins anniversary is cumin up very soon and I suppose I just wanna be with his family for this time of year and after maybe I can truly move on.
Its funny cos I still miss him like crazy, Kiala talks ov him all the time, (spiritualist said he actually talks to her wen she is asleep) which would make sence cos she keeps telling me things about him wen she wakes, one morning she cried and said she didnt wanna talk to daddy anymore???
Anyway Kiala is great, 3 in February and you would think she is about 4. Right little chatter box, so forward outgoing and apparently very advanced for her age. I cant remember how to add pictures on here but I do have FACEBOOK if anyone wants to look me up on there...got loads of pics on there of her and ME...LOL.
Right I must get going, Kiala stayed out last night so I am bein lazy but and am still in bed...woke up at 11:15am, its now 12:15 and am still lyin in bed hehe...why not? hehe
Hope that everyone is ok?? Bryn, Davey, Robbie, MumnMore.....xxxt think ov all ya names right now but you no who ya are....miss ya all xxxx
Hey Lynds, good to hear from you.Glad things are going well for you and your wee one. You deserve it. I went to a spiritulist with my partner about a month ago..I only went cause Clare wanted to go, but am glad i did!! The things that got said to me you couldn't make up. About people in my life who passed away last year... i was nearly in tears. Scary but good, eh?
How the college course going ? All good i hope. You and your wee one take care, Kev
How the college course going ? All good i hope. You and your wee one take care, Kev
Fairplay to ya Lynds sound like yer getting thur things pretty well.....albeit apart from yer ankle ....ouch musta hurt like a b****.As for you and Kiala shes at the stange she noticed some the emotions shaerd by you and Kev .....and is basically growning up beneath yer eyes ....sumthin new every day....just to warn ya as they ger oldar and become their own personality youll get lots of chat ....some of it backchat.Its Sian b/day one Sat...........12kids a big bouncy castle and MCds to top it off......shes gonna be 9yrs and i remember the stage your at.....most deff.Lynds im rambling all the best for you and yer wonderful lil girl.From me and Sian ....us single parents gtta stick together Lyns eh!!!!!Love ya and learn froma distance.All the best to the best North East footie club suppoter.Chat soon ...........Davey
OMG!!! I was JUST thinking about you BR on my way home from work. On the way to and from work is when I try to say a few prayers for friends and I was thinking about Kevin's anniversary coming up and just sending up some good thoughts for you and Kiala. Funny how this stuff goes, eh? Thinking about you and here you are...so good to hear your voice, honey...so glad you're well (minus the ankle - you girls and your back-bustin' heels =)
Kisses to the mini-BR...
Love~M&M
Kisses to the mini-BR...
Love~M&M
Awww thank you so much everyone, really nice to hear from you all again.
Its really strange right now at home, I cant explain it, but I think most of it is because of the time of year etc. I have asked Kevins Mam to come and stay with me a few days before Kevins anniversary and she will be stayin untill a few days after. She has asked me to go back with her for a bit but I am at a weddin on the Saturday after she leaves.
I think Me and his Mam will help each other through this, and am gonna keep remembering that his anniversary will be a celebration of his life and not memories of the day that he died...yes there will be allot of memories and probably allot of tears but he aint coming back and we just got to remember the good times.
Its really amazing cos I feel such a sence of achievement bein a single parent cos its one thing I didnt think I could cope with, whenever Kevin talked about wantin to die all I could think was that I couldnt do it alone, and to hear everyone, friends, family tellin me what a good job I have done really makes me proud.
I only wish there was more I could of done for Kevin, but I know I done all that was possible and had to take myself and Kiala into consideration because for so long his addiction became my addiction and nothin else mattered. I had to draw the line for mine and Kialas safety.
As for Newcastle United lol WHAT A JOKE, but still supporting them through and through hehe.
Heres to single parents, addicts, ex addicts, parents of addicts, partners of addicts and anyone who i have missed....love ya all, ya have my respect and best wishes......TAKE CARE EVERYONE XXXXXXXXXXXXX
Luv from the MAD GEORDIE BunnyRocker xxxx
Its really strange right now at home, I cant explain it, but I think most of it is because of the time of year etc. I have asked Kevins Mam to come and stay with me a few days before Kevins anniversary and she will be stayin untill a few days after. She has asked me to go back with her for a bit but I am at a weddin on the Saturday after she leaves.
I think Me and his Mam will help each other through this, and am gonna keep remembering that his anniversary will be a celebration of his life and not memories of the day that he died...yes there will be allot of memories and probably allot of tears but he aint coming back and we just got to remember the good times.
Its really amazing cos I feel such a sence of achievement bein a single parent cos its one thing I didnt think I could cope with, whenever Kevin talked about wantin to die all I could think was that I couldnt do it alone, and to hear everyone, friends, family tellin me what a good job I have done really makes me proud.
I only wish there was more I could of done for Kevin, but I know I done all that was possible and had to take myself and Kiala into consideration because for so long his addiction became my addiction and nothin else mattered. I had to draw the line for mine and Kialas safety.
As for Newcastle United lol WHAT A JOKE, but still supporting them through and through hehe.
Heres to single parents, addicts, ex addicts, parents of addicts, partners of addicts and anyone who i have missed....love ya all, ya have my respect and best wishes......TAKE CARE EVERYONE XXXXXXXXXXXXX
Luv from the MAD GEORDIE BunnyRocker xxxx
Oh and Davey, hope Sian had a wkd Birthday, your doin such a good job yourself and your a credit to single parents, especially single Dads!!
Just a thought too but does anyone not think there should be a chat section on here to have instant chat with ya all?? or is there already??? xxx
Just a thought too but does anyone not think there should be a chat section on here to have instant chat with ya all?? or is there already??? xxx
Lynds had a great day with the bouncy castle .......a few minor bumps.....but nuthin too serious......i had it all weekend so i had to drag Sian outta bed this morning she was so knackered after jumping up&down all wknd..My next project as a single Dad is to organise the Halloween bonfire for the local kids.....got loads of tires and wood and some fireworks so should be a good one.Lynds glad yer getting on good....gotta get ready for work.....Take care Ms..........Davey
It's good to hear a update on you.
Hey Lynds, it's good to hear your news. Oh my is it really Sian's birthday again? That means I've been coming here more than a year...hope she had a good one! And yeah, being a single parent is WAY harder than anyone could ever imagine...it really is. And in the circumstances in which you got dropped into it, Bunny, it's gotta be even harder...I chose this way...
I hope the anniversary is like a celebration for you...of course there will be huge sadness...but no guilt, no fear, no worry...and the amazing part of him which remains here in Kiala.
Take care, thinking of ya
Maddy x
I hope the anniversary is like a celebration for you...of course there will be huge sadness...but no guilt, no fear, no worry...and the amazing part of him which remains here in Kiala.
Take care, thinking of ya
Maddy x
