Hey Everyone

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Hey Everyone

Thank you all for your amazing posts, and for caring so much about me.. each and everyone of you has been a blessing to me and it really meant a lot to me to come back to so many posts! I am so sorry for not being around the past week, I am going to force myself to call a counsellor tomorrow because some of the stuff Im doing just does not make sense and I dont know why I do it and that is scary. Im isolating myself more and more each day, and this week I couldnt even bring myself to write in this forum and I love this place, there are so many wonderful people on here, so where did the fear come from? I am not understanding myself at the moment so I dont expect you guys to, but your posts touched my heart and you all mean so much to me! Thank you!

Hey Liz

How are you doing hon? I am so sorry for not being around this week, and for not being here for you. I hope you are feeling better! Thank you for praying for me, I have been praying for you too and I know God is looking after you. Thanks also for all the kind and encouraging words, I struggle a lot with believing in myself and it sure helps to have someone else believing in me!

That is great news that you can see your son more by going to sport games, what a great idea, its great to see you taking positive steps like that cause even though you dont have custody you can work with what you have got and make the most of it. And believe me I understand about mood swings, I have had them my whole life and had no control over them, I couldnt understand myself so I dont think all the people in my life even had a chance to! Thank God I found the answer a few months ago Bipolar. Lithium has totally changed my life, I feel like I used to have very child like reactions to things and now I think I react with a much clearer perception. Now I just have to deal with the fear from PTSD that I have, cause even though I see it I dont understand it at all!

Are you still going to detox? I really hope so cause trying to do it at home just isnt working for you and I can see how hard you are struggling, and how much you want it. I believe in you. You are a wonderful and caring person and your words on here are such a help to me and many others I am sure. I am sorry that youve been feeling ignored on this board and I hope that I have not made that worse in my absence, I will try to be here for you whenever I can Liz!

Jackie,

My heart goes out to you and your family, how are you feeling? We are all here for you for any support you need so please make sure you share your emotions with us, there are so many on this board who love you and will do what they can to support you during this hard time. Your daughter sounds devastated and I bet you are all in shock. Im praying for you all.

Raerae,

Thanks for taking the time to post to me and for caring, you are such a sweet person, I hope your recovery is going well cause you really deserve it.

Little H,

Thank you so much for all your caring posts, I am so sorry for not responding sooner, read above what I wrote to Liz, just kinda going through a hard time and didnt realise Id be missed so much! O f course you didnt do anything wrong silly, I dont think you would know how! Your kind words have touched my heart. I hope you are feeling better, Im sure experience has brought your family closer, but make sure you look after yourself so it doesnt happen again ok!

Hey Chad,

Thanks for the kind words, I have been following your posts a little bit too, just because you are from nz really, I have a friend who lives down the rd from me who is going through the same things as you, I thought it was at first but hes not from aussie and doesnt have any kids so through that idea out the window. I hope you are still going strong in your recovery, how many days have you got under your belt? Its a hard road and my thoughts are with you.

Hugs to all
Charmed
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Hey Charmed
Good luck for tommorow with the counsellor.
Paul
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Thanks Paul, I need all the good luck there that I can get!
Hugs
Charmed
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charmed.
I will be thinking about you tomorrow and hoping for the best .... it take alot of strength and courage to take the first of many steps toward recovery but it is soooo worth it...
I will say a little prayer for you tonight..
Teresa
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Thanks Teresa,

yeah I am scared s***less of going and talking to someone I don't know about all my personal stuff, but I am even more scared of the increasing isolation and I know I need help to understand it and hopefully move on from stuff. Thanks for caring,

Hugs
Charmed
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Hey Charmed,

So great to see you back. Please go to the counselor, you can't keep living like this. Yes, I'm going to go into the detox because just as you I'm so sick of isolating myself.

I am so glad you came back. I really was worried about you.
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Hey Charmed just to let you know if you get on here, I may not be back tonight. I'm going to my sons soccer practice and not sure what time I'll be back. Yea it's great to be able to go to his sports. I don't get to really talk to him but at least I can get a hug in and tell him how much I love him. Hope you have a good night. Hang in there Charmed. I know things will get better for you. Anytime you need somebody to talk to I will always be here for you.
Take Care,

Liz