Hey VWGir, Rachel, Idgie, Zac, Stacey/24,Ginge, LD, Ginge and all the other people from a bit ago!
I haven't been on the boards too much lately. Just felt like I needed a break for a while. I was finding that I was getting more interested in drama on other forums than talking about recovery etc.
I do think of all of you quite a bit and hope everyone is doing well.
I am still sober and on 9/5/07 it will be 2 years sober. Well actually my last drink was 9/5/05 so I guess the birthday would be 9/6/07. I still find it to be quite a struggle to stay sober. Does it ever get easy I ask any of you with time under your belts? Will I ever be able to go to a social setting where there is alcohol without being a bit resentful of the people having a "good" time with a couple of cocktails? Uggggg.....
VW....girlfriend I am sorry K is putting you through the ringer again. Dammit! I has to be hard knowing exactly where is headed and feeling helpless to derail her. Email me if you want to chat. vlchavis@hotmail.com
Well I just thought I would pop on here to tell you all hello and that I missed you!
Gidday Val
Great to hear from you and the resentment does get better, for me i had to accept that I cant drink anymore and a lot of people sitting there can, also look past the drink and you start to see the people that are enjoying themselves and then the ones that are chasing dreams of old and also to forget.
I still see beer adds and think mmmmm i wonder what that tastes like, the funny thing about that is when i was drinking you could of put any beer in front of me and i couldnt tell what taste or brand it was i just wanted the alcohol content and the desired effect.
Keep posting Val and start to disect the resentment you feel for others drinking into bits and see what you come up with
light and love Zac
Great to hear from you and the resentment does get better, for me i had to accept that I cant drink anymore and a lot of people sitting there can, also look past the drink and you start to see the people that are enjoying themselves and then the ones that are chasing dreams of old and also to forget.
I still see beer adds and think mmmmm i wonder what that tastes like, the funny thing about that is when i was drinking you could of put any beer in front of me and i couldnt tell what taste or brand it was i just wanted the alcohol content and the desired effect.
Keep posting Val and start to disect the resentment you feel for others drinking into bits and see what you come up with
light and love Zac
Hi Valarie--and Zac.
My experience is that once I decided I didn't want to be sick anymore--hangovers, death spiral, all that--that being around it was tolerable. Sort of seems like a waste of time, honestly, because there's so much other 'fun' stuff I could be doing now that sitting around drinking seems kinda, well, STOOPID. I STILL don't like it when Spousal Unit (SU) has a couple glasses of wine because it really does STINK--and that sort of puts an end to stuff because I just choose not to be around it. I use the "allergy" metaphone (simile?) to equate my experience with alcohol and socializing: I've developed an allergy--I break out in stupid when I drink--and 1 is too many and 20 ain't enough! The consequences of my drinking next time will be worse--there are plenty of new people coming into AA every week to tell me that the research is still being done despite the findings--and I don't know if I could recover another time. I prefer the clear head and positivity I'm in and I've done the other. It's not a way of life I want for myself anymore.
For ME, and that's the only person I can effectively speak for, quitting FOREVER is a huge comittment. I just choose not get sucked back into that hellish life for right now--because I'm not sure I'd live through it... And I don't resent the people that ARE doing it but I find I don't like to be around it. Kinda like cigarettes.
Peaceness....
My experience is that once I decided I didn't want to be sick anymore--hangovers, death spiral, all that--that being around it was tolerable. Sort of seems like a waste of time, honestly, because there's so much other 'fun' stuff I could be doing now that sitting around drinking seems kinda, well, STOOPID. I STILL don't like it when Spousal Unit (SU) has a couple glasses of wine because it really does STINK--and that sort of puts an end to stuff because I just choose not to be around it. I use the "allergy" metaphone (simile?) to equate my experience with alcohol and socializing: I've developed an allergy--I break out in stupid when I drink--and 1 is too many and 20 ain't enough! The consequences of my drinking next time will be worse--there are plenty of new people coming into AA every week to tell me that the research is still being done despite the findings--and I don't know if I could recover another time. I prefer the clear head and positivity I'm in and I've done the other. It's not a way of life I want for myself anymore.
For ME, and that's the only person I can effectively speak for, quitting FOREVER is a huge comittment. I just choose not get sucked back into that hellish life for right now--because I'm not sure I'd live through it... And I don't resent the people that ARE doing it but I find I don't like to be around it. Kinda like cigarettes.
Peaceness....
Hi Val.....
Congrats on 2years of sobriety!!! You are a miracle...
It's so good to see you...I'm working but wanted to pop-in and give you a big high 5 and a bigger hello!!
Take care
xoxo
Stacey
Congrats on 2years of sobriety!!! You are a miracle...
It's so good to see you...I'm working but wanted to pop-in and give you a big high 5 and a bigger hello!!
Take care
xoxo
Stacey
Hey Val!!!
I will be in San Diego on 9/5 so I am sending you a big congratulations now. It's good to see you here :-)
~Rachel
I will be in San Diego on 9/5 so I am sending you a big congratulations now. It's good to see you here :-)
~Rachel
OMGosh Val, two years already ~ where does the time go? This so exciting! I know at times it's been hard for you, heck it's hard for all of us at one time or another...but I'm here to thank you for keeping me sober when I felt like I was just barely hanging on by the tip of my acrylic nails ~ lol!
Some day you just gotta get up here to a meeting and take a cake for yoru sobriety birthday and share with others your experience, strength and hope...have a wonderful Sunday, I'm doing laundry, thank God today I have quarters to do my laundry!
Some day you just gotta get up here to a meeting and take a cake for yoru sobriety birthday and share with others your experience, strength and hope...have a wonderful Sunday, I'm doing laundry, thank God today I have quarters to do my laundry!
Hiya Val,
Hows things going?
Congrats on 2 yrs, well done!!
Flick me an email when ya have time, Im on rd at moment but check every few days,
Take care Ginge
Hows things going?
Congrats on 2 yrs, well done!!
Flick me an email when ya have time, Im on rd at moment but check every few days,
Take care Ginge
