Hi All

Pain Pills
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Well its sunday night here im bored so i thinks to myself i know il go on line and stir up some sh.. lol then again me thinks nawwwwwwwww whats the point? il just sit here and watch others do it and keep my sanity lol jaxxxxxxxx
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Hey Jax,,,,,whats up? You know, I don't think I've ever seen you stir up anything and thats what I really like about you. I think with you, what you see is what you get. I wish there was more of that around here. I hope you had a good weekend.

Take care

Frankie
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wow Frank thx for the compliment im proud to be me. I never wanted to be anything other then honest i think without honesty you dont have a thing. Im just a old fashioned down to earth person that deeply cares about the human race, but i did have to learn to care about me first ouch so hard after hidding behind pills for years i would love to say my life is a bit like the crisilis and butterfly but nope not yet im getting there hun. I always say to people to know me is to except me. jaxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Jax

Everything you just said has been very obvious to me from the get go. You are a kind, honest, caring, person. We need more like you around. Have a nice week Jax.

Love

Frank
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My problem Frank is i care too much, its sometimes a pain not a blessing, sometimes people take advantage of me which again is not a nice thing to do, but ive learnt to adapt to my personality and most importantly i forgive and i also believe that what goes around comes around. Its night here so im off to bed you take very good care hun. jaxxxxxxxxxx
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Hey Jacky, I haven't ever talked to you, i don't think, but I'm just sitting here reading posts and I saw this and I wanted to tell you that what Frank said is so right, about you. I've never seen you do or say anything ugly to anyone. Keep up the great job.
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HI big sis, i know the feeling i have been down that road but that's how i was raised you know the old saying a friend in need is a friend indeed i learnt the hard way a friend i had since grade 2 up untill about two years ago stayed with bill and i she needed help she was recovering from alcohol and gambling addiction and i trusted her she was doing so well at AA/NA or at least we thought she was well two weeks before xmas bill got his xmas bonus and that is what we depended on to use for xmas for the kids well in a million years we would have never emagined she would do such a thing because she knew we did not have much we left the house to visit mom + dad she went in our room throu the draw's and found his bonus took every last cent we had anyway i understood about addiction and what it can make one do when they get despert but i never thought she would do that to me at least i know that was some thing i could never do was take from friends or family i lied yes to the docs or get one of my cousin's to get a script for me back then but now that i 'am clean i know it was just as bad as stealing i may have never stole for my addiction but i sure lied and the guilt of that almost destroyed me along side the drug tylenol 3's but when i decided to get clean with the help of my hubby and you dear sis and some of the other dear members on here i went and told my doc every thing Let me tell you after i told him and he read me the riot act in other words i 'am very lucky thats all he did i never realized i could have ended up in big trouble but he has been our family doctor for many years and he said it took alot of strength to come forward and admit what i had did to get the pill's he asked what opened my eyes i never gave any names all i told him was i had a guardian angel she is my big sister a true friend thanks sis i know i have told you this so often but (THANK YOU) anyway the last i heard from her mom she was living on the streets i did and still do feel so guilty when i heard that but she had a chance so many were willing to help her but like her mom said and as we know we could not do it for her i just pray to this day she is safe and ok' P.S Hey jacky guess what! this year i don't have to cook the turkey i offered to but for some reason i was turned down umm' i wonder why? LMAO... LOVE + HUGS turkey free Helen.
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Hi Pam everyone is a adult but it takes more to be a grown-up and even more to be a recovering addict grown-up. We have so much pain in our lives when an addict or not so why would i want to inflict more pain on someone? sometimes we do have to say honest things to people but it about the way in which it is said etc. But im not all sweetness and light hun i do have my moments lol. Thx for the compliment. jaxxxxxx
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Ahhhhhhh H luv ya hun. I have no idea why your not cooking turkey this year ummmmmmmmm wonder why lol. Far too many of us females spend so much time cooking that we almost miss christmas, for those of you that dont whats ya secret? lol.
Trust ummm biggy H who to trust well me im affraid i only trust me, i never used to whilst on pills but now i do trust myself to make good choices in life. Luv to family and tell your dad ive not spoken to him in ages wheres he been lol jaxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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HEY, sis maybe i should cook the turkey and send you a drum stick how do you like it on the rubbery side or very crunchie LMAO..now you know why i don't get the turkey this year hey but at least i can heat the veggies LOL.. and by the way since ive been off the pills i can see more clearly who i can trust and you are at the top that trust list and beleive me it's a very small list and dad fell in the bathoom afew days ago he is a diabetic he has a habit of not following his diet but after his fall it scared the you know what out of him and after we gave him the gears respectfully of course he is sticking to his diet he is ok now he just bruised his ego and back side abit but i will tell him you send your love from his long distance daughter lol..i was going to email you and tel you mom + dad wanted to know how there jacky was doing and they also send there love and a hug your way. LOVE + HUGS H.
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Buped for jacky just to let you know about dad.
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Tell ya dad to be good from now on or il have to come over there lol jaxxxxxxx