It's been a while, I don't know if any of you guys remember me. I' ve been reading posts for a while at least once a week in the last few months but haven't had the courage to post. Of course I have been on what I like to call a "mission" for a while and I am trying to stop AGAIN LOL!
Sometimes I feel like a broken record. I am on day one, and I swear each time I try to quit it gets more and more scary. Why is that? It's not like I don't know what's coming. Or like I don't kick myself in the butt for putting myself and my family through this AGAIN. I didn't even taper this time just from 70mg's to 0! And now of course the mental is worse than the physical. I really don't know what I want to say, but I wanted to say hi. I am glad to see so many people doing well, what a blessing
Cass
Cass,i think it is scarier everytime because...you DO know whats coming...its no surprise,and its not good.
You really have to make up your mind this time,get some help.Without some outside help,its very very hard to achieve what youre trying to do.Try and make it easier on yourself.
I want to wish you luck,and i hope you really make it this time.We have al;l been there,some of us several times.But to be honest,i dont even remember what any of it feels like,the pills,the WD's,none of it,Its been 8 months for me,and i dont ever want to go back there again.Im sure you dont either.Stick to the board,seek help,ask questions,you'll make it,day by day,minute by minute.~KIM
You really have to make up your mind this time,get some help.Without some outside help,its very very hard to achieve what youre trying to do.Try and make it easier on yourself.
I want to wish you luck,and i hope you really make it this time.We have al;l been there,some of us several times.But to be honest,i dont even remember what any of it feels like,the pills,the WD's,none of it,Its been 8 months for me,and i dont ever want to go back there again.Im sure you dont either.Stick to the board,seek help,ask questions,you'll make it,day by day,minute by minute.~KIM
thank you very much, I will. Eight months wow, that is wonderful. It's nice to know that if I make it this time that I will not remember these horrible feelings and that it won't always be this way. Thank you.
Cass You KNOW you can huny its just hard.We both know this,but anything worth while is worth fighting for.You are a strong person & I KNOW this for a fact.
I myself will give you as much love & support as I can.Though Im working now,Im never to busy to NOT try & help
Ill bump up the list for thing that may help with the W/D & than I do need to try & eat.
You HANG IN THERE & KNOW you have so much support behind you
Love molly
I myself will give you as much love & support as I can.Though Im working now,Im never to busy to NOT try & help
Ill bump up the list for thing that may help with the W/D & than I do need to try & eat.
You HANG IN THERE & KNOW you have so much support behind you
Love molly
I know you guys usually have good advice for otc's and stuff, could you help in that area if you can? I really am not that bad off yet, just some hot flashes, jaw and headaches, and the restless leg thing going on lol. But I know tomorrow it will be pretty severe.
thank you in advance
thank you in advance
thank you mj I am glad to see you here............I was hoping you would show up. Let me know when you have some time...........maybe tomorrow or our sunday.
Thank you love you
Thank you love you
Hi! i am back again too! i have tried to quit and have done it, but went back... why???? I don't know, other then tired of being in pain. I have a cyst in my spine and I live in this small cow hick town with no good docs! and haven't the money to go elsewhere for treatment. but, i know the feeling all to well. I kick myself in the butt all the time. I just want to be pain free, drug free. I have two days to go before I go to teh doc and get on sub, but the thing is I can't afford it! so, now I don't know what to do! it's all so very spendy!
but, I have faith! we can do this! we will do this! today for me isn't too bad, tomorrow will be worse!
but I am here for you if you need to talk. maybe we can help each other???? I hope so, cuz I know I sure need all the support I can get right now. I HATE withdrawls....who doesnt???? it's hard and every time it seems harder!
Is your doc helping you? you going cold turkey? what is your story? if you don't mind my asking?
My thoughts and prayers are with you! I wish you well and I am here. will be online off and on today, and maybe tomorrow. not sure, depends on how I feel.... take care and do what you have to do..... try to drink plenty of water and try to eat small amounts of blaw foods! that might help!
take care! Jac
but, I have faith! we can do this! we will do this! today for me isn't too bad, tomorrow will be worse!
but I am here for you if you need to talk. maybe we can help each other???? I hope so, cuz I know I sure need all the support I can get right now. I HATE withdrawls....who doesnt???? it's hard and every time it seems harder!
Is your doc helping you? you going cold turkey? what is your story? if you don't mind my asking?
My thoughts and prayers are with you! I wish you well and I am here. will be online off and on today, and maybe tomorrow. not sure, depends on how I feel.... take care and do what you have to do..... try to drink plenty of water and try to eat small amounts of blaw foods! that might help!
take care! Jac
Thank you very much, its nice to know I am not alone. I know the reason i keep going back is because i hate to feel the w/d and I get tired of hurting. This is day two for me and it is very difficult but thats good that you have the sub. I can't afford it, I tried but unfortunately its too expensive. People say "well you spend all that money on pills!" But what they seem to forget or maybe dont know is that I don't spend that much money at ONE TIME LOL, so it's a little different. But yeah, cold turkey it is and my youngest daughter just came down for the week and I have to act normal its sooooo hard. Plus its her 14th birthday tomorrow and people are coming over. But I am trying to hang in there. thank you, I will definately talk to you later, I just dont want my daughter to come down and see me on here. But I would love to talk to you. You can email me at scorpionqueent@yahoo.com.
I will talk to you soon, keep your head up, we can do it!!!!
I will talk to you soon, keep your head up, we can do it!!!!
Well, i am on day three..................I came here for support so I want to thank you........the few that posted. But evidently I won't get the support that I needed here and I guess that's why i left last time..........Now I remember LOL.
I wish you all well, and have a blessed life
I wish you all well, and have a blessed life
HI CASS...................
it is so nice to see ya posting...........
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY???
are you ok?
HUGS
God Bless you honey..........
thumper
it is so nice to see ya posting...........
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY???
are you ok?
HUGS
God Bless you honey..........
thumper
hey cass, you may want to connect with jac_1371 who is in the same boat as you are. Some find it comforting to have a buddy to go through this with.
Have patience, people will come along soon. In the mean time read peoples posts on here or go to the main categories page and look at the, success stories, recovery diaries, and milestones.
Not a lot of activity this weekend, for many reasons, I am assuming, spring is finally here and people are outside or doing anything but sitting at the computer. Or they simply have other commitments. It is a gray day in Va. not as warm as it has been and calling for rain. So I am here if you need me.
please email me anytime, it is below in my sig tag.
What was your log in nic when you joined before?
Have patience, people will come along soon. In the mean time read peoples posts on here or go to the main categories page and look at the, success stories, recovery diaries, and milestones.
Not a lot of activity this weekend, for many reasons, I am assuming, spring is finally here and people are outside or doing anything but sitting at the computer. Or they simply have other commitments. It is a gray day in Va. not as warm as it has been and calling for rain. So I am here if you need me.
please email me anytime, it is below in my sig tag.
What was your log in nic when you joined before?
Brook, who had that disco ball??lol
Cass, lots of baths and any exersize you can muster. How about aa or NA?
maybe it is time?
Cass, lots of baths and any exersize you can muster. How about aa or NA?
maybe it is time?
Hey Cass, I feel the same way, I think that is why I quit coming here, too. It seems like there is a lot os support here, yet, I'm not getting much of responces from anyone. There are a couple who do reply, but, not enough. I tried loooking for another board to post on and haven't had any luck. today is day 2 for me..... I feel like hell! and OMG! the pain in my back is soooooooo welll, it hurts like He double L!!!
Hon, I feel for you! and I am here for you! If you do the yahoo messenger thing my id is jac_1371@yahoo.com. Just makes sure you tell me who you are or I might now accept it!
How are you feeeling? I know dumb question! but how are you holding up! I will pray for you..... a great big one!!!! I know this is hard! and I feel for you that you have to "act" normal. there is no way in the world that I could. I have just been keeping in my room pretty much. MY 12 year old son hates me right now. my 8 year old is at his dads house. thank god. I told my ex husband what was going on today and he agreed to keep josh for awhile longer. thank goodness. but, on the other hand, he want to work things out with us.... i think i might want to too.... but right now isn't the time to think about that. One day at a time....get through today. tomorrow is my doc appt. let's see....only about 16 hours to go!!! yeah! but i am scared he will just give me more perc cuz I won't have any money for the sub untill the 15th. but, i guess, if that is what i have to do, i will do it. I CANNOT miss any work and IF i DON'T take anything, well, I would probably get fired. I subtitute teach....so, I have to be "there" for my students! and not be crabby! and it's hard enough not being crabby at one child, let along a roomful of 20 or 30! LOL
sorry for rambling on..... just remember I am here for you! I need you too!!!! please contact me!!!!!
I am going to go do some stretches for my back. maybe that will help?! I sure hope so!!!!
take care!!!! You are strong! and please dont leave here.... I will talk to you. I probably can't offer much advice but we sure can share notes! that might help us both! take care!!!! prayers to you! Jac
Hon, I feel for you! and I am here for you! If you do the yahoo messenger thing my id is jac_1371@yahoo.com. Just makes sure you tell me who you are or I might now accept it!
How are you feeeling? I know dumb question! but how are you holding up! I will pray for you..... a great big one!!!! I know this is hard! and I feel for you that you have to "act" normal. there is no way in the world that I could. I have just been keeping in my room pretty much. MY 12 year old son hates me right now. my 8 year old is at his dads house. thank god. I told my ex husband what was going on today and he agreed to keep josh for awhile longer. thank goodness. but, on the other hand, he want to work things out with us.... i think i might want to too.... but right now isn't the time to think about that. One day at a time....get through today. tomorrow is my doc appt. let's see....only about 16 hours to go!!! yeah! but i am scared he will just give me more perc cuz I won't have any money for the sub untill the 15th. but, i guess, if that is what i have to do, i will do it. I CANNOT miss any work and IF i DON'T take anything, well, I would probably get fired. I subtitute teach....so, I have to be "there" for my students! and not be crabby! and it's hard enough not being crabby at one child, let along a roomful of 20 or 30! LOL
sorry for rambling on..... just remember I am here for you! I need you too!!!! please contact me!!!!!
I am going to go do some stretches for my back. maybe that will help?! I sure hope so!!!!
take care!!!! You are strong! and please dont leave here.... I will talk to you. I probably can't offer much advice but we sure can share notes! that might help us both! take care!!!! prayers to you! Jac
Thank you for your responses, I really thought I was alone. It's been three days, I haven't had any sleep, my jaw is killing me my kidneys and well.......everybody knows the deal. I haven't quite gone cold turkey because I don't know who knows but my doc was/is Vicodin/norcos and I was taking about 70-80 mg's a day. I didnt taper down first but someone gave me something called oxycodone hci. Well I know enough to know that it is codeine I think which is not as strong as vicodin so I have been taking one a day when the w/d's are at there worse (I have 4). It takes away the shakes and makes it possible to fake some smiles for the family. I have been especially worried since I only see my youngest daughter during spring break and summer time I dont want her memories to be of me sick the whole week. I finally called my doctor and told him the truth so I didnt have him for refills. That was the hardest thing I ever had to do because I didnt want to be red flagged all the time for the rest of my life.
Every morning I get up at about three a.m. and I read a book called battlefield of the mind by joyce meyer, then at five thirty I watch her show, and then I read the bible for strength and courage. It is definately a slow process but its working.
Why is your son mad, does he know what is going on??? He is 12 right? It sounds like we are in the same boat. I dont know what percs are, but I think I heard they were stronger than norcos.
Sorry I am just completely rambling, I found another site. It is a christian site but I am waiting for the email which will get me completed in the process of logging in. So I dont know what it will be like. Its kind of scary going to a new site. Oh I used to be logged in under Cass or Cass1 something like that but I couldnt remember my password so I had to think of something new.
Every morning I get up at about three a.m. and I read a book called battlefield of the mind by joyce meyer, then at five thirty I watch her show, and then I read the bible for strength and courage. It is definately a slow process but its working.
Why is your son mad, does he know what is going on??? He is 12 right? It sounds like we are in the same boat. I dont know what percs are, but I think I heard they were stronger than norcos.
Sorry I am just completely rambling, I found another site. It is a christian site but I am waiting for the email which will get me completed in the process of logging in. So I dont know what it will be like. Its kind of scary going to a new site. Oh I used to be logged in under Cass or Cass1 something like that but I couldnt remember my password so I had to think of something new.
Jac, I commend you on even being able to get up and do stretches lol. It's nice you will be able to get on the sub, I can't afford it. Let me know how the appt goes. I will be praying for you and that everything goes well.
OMG how I feel for you, I didnt know you were a school teacher!!! That must be so difficult right now, your on spring break now though aren't you (I hope)?
OMG how I feel for you, I didnt know you were a school teacher!!! That must be so difficult right now, your on spring break now though aren't you (I hope)?
Cass, Is that you? Shantel
Yes Shantel its Cassy!!!
Cassy girl!!! I got today off.Anne will be online for a bit but Ill be home all day if you want to call later
Im proud of you girl.What your doing IS NOT easy & Im so proud that your fighting as hard as you can...
you hang in huny....sis says it will be OK
PINKY PROMISE HUNY
Love Molly
Cassy girl!!! I got today off.Anne will be online for a bit but Ill be home all day if you want to call later
Im proud of you girl.What your doing IS NOT easy & Im so proud that your fighting as hard as you can...
you hang in huny....sis says it will be OK
PINKY PROMISE HUNY
Love Molly
Hi Shantel, yes it's me. How are you doing???
Thank you MJ, I am feeling really bad today, ughhh and mentally weak. I want to make it this time you know. Let me know when your offline so I can call, I really need to talk
Thank you MJ, I am feeling really bad today, ughhh and mentally weak. I want to make it this time you know. Let me know when your offline so I can call, I really need to talk
Hey Cass, it's me, Jac! LOL
No, we are not on spring break, but, I am not working today or probably tomorrow.... NEED the cash, but, need to take care of me first!
my son is mad at me cuz he is tired of me being on pain pills... he says he knows I hurt and that makes him even madder! I bet it is confusing for a 12 year old... shoot it's confusing for me! lol
I think a nother reason he was mad is because I wanted him to stay home with me... was scared to be alone and he wanted to hang out with his friends! sooo....
I ended up doing a few stretches, but, well, it hurt so bad, i finally quit! but I am struggling through doing more each time.... I know it is good for me...
glad you have "something" to help you throught your day, even if it is only one a day. it is hard when you have kids!!!! it hurts them to see us like this...
take care! I am pulling for you! we can do this! we are strong!
I im'd you this am.... but will be going to the doc in 15 minutes! yeah! so, i best go get ready! LOL
i'll get on when i am done and let you knwo what he says! take care! Jac
No, we are not on spring break, but, I am not working today or probably tomorrow.... NEED the cash, but, need to take care of me first!
my son is mad at me cuz he is tired of me being on pain pills... he says he knows I hurt and that makes him even madder! I bet it is confusing for a 12 year old... shoot it's confusing for me! lol
I think a nother reason he was mad is because I wanted him to stay home with me... was scared to be alone and he wanted to hang out with his friends! sooo....
I ended up doing a few stretches, but, well, it hurt so bad, i finally quit! but I am struggling through doing more each time.... I know it is good for me...
glad you have "something" to help you throught your day, even if it is only one a day. it is hard when you have kids!!!! it hurts them to see us like this...
take care! I am pulling for you! we can do this! we are strong!
I im'd you this am.... but will be going to the doc in 15 minutes! yeah! so, i best go get ready! LOL
i'll get on when i am done and let you knwo what he says! take care! Jac
