I have read your posts, and I can say I know how you feel. I am going to get my self to a meeting tonight too. How are you doing? Its 10am here UK time, I am not sure what time it is where you are. I wish I could get to a meeting now, this evening seems a long time off, but I'll take the slowly.
You replied to my post about panick attacks, how are you coping with yours? They are pretty grim. I am learning to work through them, and they are really bad after a binge session. Yours must be doubley bad as you must think you are verging on a heart attack each time. I find it helps when I stay focused on my breathing, once I let that out of control my heart just races too.
I am 35 and have been drinking for 20 years, and I have really had enough of the way it is all consuming and takes over your life. My BF is not a drinker, but that makes drinking even harder. It is the secrets and lies I really hate. They way we scheme & plot to drink or justify a drink is quite amazing. We really should put it to better use!!
This is a great site, you can really just be you. I am finding so much inspiration and strength here.You can alway post to me and just offload! Because I know how you feel & we will be going through it together.
How is it affecting your daughter?
Thinking of you.
Morning November, its about 9:00 in the Morning in Bellingham wa and I thank you for your post My attack will last 1 or three days straight when it happens I had one all day yesterday, the preassure and the deeper pounding to my heart, its just a terrifying feeling. My daughter tells me that she doesn't want me to drink or smoke a ciggarette, she sees me going outside and she ask me what I am doing I tell her the truth of course and she gets a little upset and I'm glad she asks and acts that towards the things I do. Thanks for being here November, Its great to have some one around that understands. I have to get ready for church now, my first time back in about 7 yrs and maybe a meeting today, but if I get church in and skip a meeting for me that either will help me with my recovery plus I got u guys. I am still trying to figure out how to use this site so bare with me. working on second day sober, felt good to wake up this morning early, brought back memories when I use to get up early and have my coffee and the newspaper on those sober days, I want it back. thanks November talk to u later
hi November I am doing good on this sunday evening, I made it to church got part of the deck done and even made it to a meeting. I also got a chance to share. I get to add another smiley face sticker to my sober day on the calendar which I asked my daughter for. So things are going the way I want it to go so far, How are things going for u, I hope things are going good. I just have to watch out for the next weekend that comes up, but like they say take it one day at a time. I have no problems on the weekdays, its the weekends that I have to watch out for, let me know how your doing. thanks for listening talk to u later
Hi Hotmochaboy,
How are you doing, well done for yesterday. I too stayed sober! It is now Monday morning 9am I have a really cr*p nights sleep but at least I am hangover free! Such a good feeling.
Boy, they sound like real bad anxiety attacks. You have my sympathies on that one as i know how grim they are. I find lying down quietly and focuing on my breathing helps.
I really hate laying tere in bed in the middle of the night staring into the darkness going over every thing despising this awful disease. Well done you for making a meeting. Is that your first one?
I am going to try to go tonight. I am just so daunted by the whole process. I have been to a couple before. I managed 4 days sober last week, then it all went pear shape. Maybe we can encourage each other.
Do you work? I am self employed. I run a Hostel for vunerable people. My drinking is soo much better than it used to be. I would open a bottle by 10am if I could. Because of the support work I do, I can mostly get to the evening before I have a drink. I would rather not be beholden at all.
We have people sent here with alcohol problems and I would love to be able to say, 'I know how you feel, I have been sober for ...'. Isn't life ironic!
Well I have done all of positive affirmations today. I am going to keep my self really busy. We have justmoved into the Hostel and we are renovating it. Another reason that i am so focused in the day as i am co-ordinating builders plumbers etc. It is the evenings that are the hardest. The little voice, making exscuses to go to the shop to buy vodka, sneaking it back in. I HATE it.
Well today is another day, and I will stay sober. I hope you have a strong day too.
Thanks for listening. I will check in later. If it is 9am here, what time is there?
How are you doing, well done for yesterday. I too stayed sober! It is now Monday morning 9am I have a really cr*p nights sleep but at least I am hangover free! Such a good feeling.
Boy, they sound like real bad anxiety attacks. You have my sympathies on that one as i know how grim they are. I find lying down quietly and focuing on my breathing helps.
I really hate laying tere in bed in the middle of the night staring into the darkness going over every thing despising this awful disease. Well done you for making a meeting. Is that your first one?
I am going to try to go tonight. I am just so daunted by the whole process. I have been to a couple before. I managed 4 days sober last week, then it all went pear shape. Maybe we can encourage each other.
Do you work? I am self employed. I run a Hostel for vunerable people. My drinking is soo much better than it used to be. I would open a bottle by 10am if I could. Because of the support work I do, I can mostly get to the evening before I have a drink. I would rather not be beholden at all.
We have people sent here with alcohol problems and I would love to be able to say, 'I know how you feel, I have been sober for ...'. Isn't life ironic!
Well I have done all of positive affirmations today. I am going to keep my self really busy. We have justmoved into the Hostel and we are renovating it. Another reason that i am so focused in the day as i am co-ordinating builders plumbers etc. It is the evenings that are the hardest. The little voice, making exscuses to go to the shop to buy vodka, sneaking it back in. I HATE it.
Well today is another day, and I will stay sober. I hope you have a strong day too.
Thanks for listening. I will check in later. If it is 9am here, what time is there?
Hi November, I just can't figure out the time diff from yours and mine it's 7 PM for me right now and i have know Idea what time it is for u, but that is not that of importance to me. Glad u had a great day keep it up. My morning started off awesome got dress went to work. I do Masonry work and the weather is not being very kind. Got to the work site notice I had put on my dress shoes instead of my boots but I didn't care, it can be replaced. I was more happy towards my decission of wanting to be sober that was my main concern and happiness. My panic attacks when it happens, I have to be active to feel comfortable, I can't just sit there. One time I was driving with my buddy I had to stop the car and walk, he took over the wheel and followed from behind. K sorry for going on about my life so much but I just like sharing it feels good to let things out with people that are here for me. That was not my first meeting, this meeting is diff and important to me cause it was my choice to go not by the courts from about 8 yrs ago alright November I am going to relax and pop on the television, I feel like I deserve to be a little lazy today, my next meeting will be on Thursday cause the weekend will be getting close and I have to prepare myself for those days, plan is meeting thursday, daughter Friday, meeting saturday, church sunday and thank God Sunday evening cause I will have made it through the weekend. Thanks November help keep all of us strong and we will do the same for u, keep me inform
