I wanted to say hi to everyone and I hope that I have found a place for support....A little about myself: I am 26 years old and the mother of 3, and I have a wonderful husband who has stood by my side for the past 2 years of my horrible addiction...I was additcted to hydrocodone 7.5mg and taking around 4 a day just to function...I knew the entire time what I was doing was wrong, but felt like I am sure others do, there was no way out....I have been clean now for 6 days and I just feel like a big weight was lifted off of my shoulders....The first few days were hell, but it has started to get a little better each day....I have attended a few NA meetings, but I am really not a spirtual person, so I find trying to work the 12 steps a bit difficult, b/c I don't feel as though I have a "higher power"...If anyone else was ever like this and found an alternative route, I would love to hear "how".....
Well, that is a little about me and I look forward to sharing my recovery process with others....Thanks for letting me share!!
-B
Welcome B!!
I'm so glad you found the board. I'm 23, mother of 1, and was addicted to hydrocodone/mainly oxycodone for 2 years, was doing on average about 12-15 a day.
I've been off for 6 months and my life has changed in countless ways. I am a totally different person than I was back then.
I'm soooo glad that you were smart enough to nip that addiction in the bud before it got even more out of hand.
I look forward to getting to know you more and hope youi stick around!
btw, i have been to NA meetings, however there are other meetings in my area that aren't "higher power" associated, just people helping people and listening and sharing. I don't know where you live, but I would look into it if it's something you can see yourself being involved in.
Love
Stacey
I'm so glad you found the board. I'm 23, mother of 1, and was addicted to hydrocodone/mainly oxycodone for 2 years, was doing on average about 12-15 a day.
I've been off for 6 months and my life has changed in countless ways. I am a totally different person than I was back then.
I'm soooo glad that you were smart enough to nip that addiction in the bud before it got even more out of hand.
I look forward to getting to know you more and hope youi stick around!
btw, i have been to NA meetings, however there are other meetings in my area that aren't "higher power" associated, just people helping people and listening and sharing. I don't know where you live, but I would look into it if it's something you can see yourself being involved in.
Love
Stacey
Hello! & though Im signing off I just wanted to Welcome you & let you know...Yes we will give you whatever support we can
Yes we can so understand EVERYTHING you feel
We will be your shoulders in your weakest moments
Most important...YES YOU CAN BEAT BACK THE MOSNTER.
I wish I could talk more but I know others will also welcome you with open arms
Im usually on in the mornings
my name is Molly & I can promise to try & help however I can.....Please know most important....you are NOT alone.We are all in this together & can work with you & each other to help.
Again Welcome & I look foward to hearing more from you.
Even though I must go may I suggest writing your story,how it started,health issues,whatever you feel comfortable sharing
No judgement here just support
Please youve taken the BIGGEST step by admitting your problem & posting about it.You deserve alot of credit.
Try to hang on again YOU ARE NOT ALONE IN THIS
molly
Yes we can so understand EVERYTHING you feel
We will be your shoulders in your weakest moments
Most important...YES YOU CAN BEAT BACK THE MOSNTER.
I wish I could talk more but I know others will also welcome you with open arms
Im usually on in the mornings
my name is Molly & I can promise to try & help however I can.....Please know most important....you are NOT alone.We are all in this together & can work with you & each other to help.
Again Welcome & I look foward to hearing more from you.
Even though I must go may I suggest writing your story,how it started,health issues,whatever you feel comfortable sharing
No judgement here just support
Please youve taken the BIGGEST step by admitting your problem & posting about it.You deserve alot of credit.
Try to hang on again YOU ARE NOT ALONE IN THIS
molly
Hi. I just logged onto this site and read your post..........same hear except 10mg 3-5 times a day for over two years. I am married with two children and wife does not know....I always kept the pills at work or in my car because the tought of having them in the house with the kids freeked me out. I am clean 3 days, this is my third try at it in the last couple of months. I hate living out of a bottle. Its weird I dont do it for a high but it givs me energy to get things done......especially at work. This weekend has been hell although I'm feeling better today. The people on this board are awsome and really helped my first time as I logged on every day. After I slipped though i felt bad about it and didn't log on as much...so hear I am at my third go around....I need this for myself. God bless.
Michael
Michael
Thank you all for the warm welcome :-) It really means alot to know that are others out there who feel exactly the way you do....While, I wish we didn't have to meet on these terms, I am GLAD to have found such a great place...I have been reading alot of the threads here and it looks to be a wonderful place for support, which I so desperately need...
I am not aware of any other meetings here in my area other than NA...I would to find one though, I think it would give me some more options....
A little more about myself, Like I said I have 3 children....a son that will be 9 in April, and I have boy/girl twins that just turned 4 last month.....I have been married for almost 6 years to someone who has stood by me during this hell that I have created for myself...He has been a wonderful dad to these kids, when there mom was here, but not here, if you know what I mean...I was I guess what you would call a "functioning addict", I have worked full time and my husband is a stay at home dad until I get home from work and then he goes to school in the evenings....
I won't blame anyone else for me starting my addiction, b/c I am the only one to blame as I just didn't know how to cope with the things that life was dealing me....My daughter was diagnosed as Autistic when she was 18 months old and the hell that I endured with her on a daily basis of biting me, kicking me, destroying my house became more than I could mentally take....Little did I know I was actually creating more and more hell for the entire family by being selfish and endulging in something that I "thought" made me feel good...
I know this is going to be a long road, but I am ready to face it head on!!
Thanks again for listening,
-B
I am not aware of any other meetings here in my area other than NA...I would to find one though, I think it would give me some more options....
A little more about myself, Like I said I have 3 children....a son that will be 9 in April, and I have boy/girl twins that just turned 4 last month.....I have been married for almost 6 years to someone who has stood by me during this hell that I have created for myself...He has been a wonderful dad to these kids, when there mom was here, but not here, if you know what I mean...I was I guess what you would call a "functioning addict", I have worked full time and my husband is a stay at home dad until I get home from work and then he goes to school in the evenings....
I won't blame anyone else for me starting my addiction, b/c I am the only one to blame as I just didn't know how to cope with the things that life was dealing me....My daughter was diagnosed as Autistic when she was 18 months old and the hell that I endured with her on a daily basis of biting me, kicking me, destroying my house became more than I could mentally take....Little did I know I was actually creating more and more hell for the entire family by being selfish and endulging in something that I "thought" made me feel good...
I know this is going to be a long road, but I am ready to face it head on!!
Thanks again for listening,
-B
Hi B....I am on day 38 and this board has been extremely helpful. I was taking oxy or percocet 4 times a day for a couple of years. This has been so hard for me but also the best thing I have ever done for myself. If you want to ask me anything about what to expect, just let me know. Good luck.. take one day at a time or one hour at a time if you need to. It will get better. L
Hi and welcome! Congrats on six days! That in itself is a miracle!! I know that you feel you don't think you connect at 12 meetings because of the higher power thing. But keep in mind....if you are a spiritual being your higher power can be anything! Anything at all......a plant if like.
Try not to give up before the miracle happens....the program of AA/NA has been key for me. I never thought I would be clean this long! This disease if powerful, cunning and baffling. At the very least...cut off your supply, seek out medical advice and find an excellent counselor.
Getting off pills is the easy part. What you do next to stay clean is critical. I wish you nothing but the best. You deserve a life that is pill free and so does your family!
Keep posting...and welcome to your new life! Its in your hands now....
Try not to give up before the miracle happens....the program of AA/NA has been key for me. I never thought I would be clean this long! This disease if powerful, cunning and baffling. At the very least...cut off your supply, seek out medical advice and find an excellent counselor.
Getting off pills is the easy part. What you do next to stay clean is critical. I wish you nothing but the best. You deserve a life that is pill free and so does your family!
Keep posting...and welcome to your new life! Its in your hands now....
Welcome B...
Congratulations...The recovery journey is such an awesome adventure and I'm glad you're here..Thanks for sharing your story...the key for me is Honest, Open, and Willing and when I incorporate those things into my life, I've never had it so good....
I agree with KeeKee...
Our disease is cunning, baffling and powerful...For me, even though I had reservations going to meetings in the beginning, I kept going back and had hope, then somewhere along the line, the hope turned to faith....It really does work...Don't worry about all the steps right now, just keep going back and stay open & willing and listen. The steps are designed to be worked in order and with a sponsor so try not to overwhelm yourself.....
Keep posting and it's nice to meet you....
Take care,
Stacey
Michael...
Welcome and I look forward to hearing more of your story...
xoxo
Stacey
Congratulations...The recovery journey is such an awesome adventure and I'm glad you're here..Thanks for sharing your story...the key for me is Honest, Open, and Willing and when I incorporate those things into my life, I've never had it so good....
I agree with KeeKee...
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| Try not to give up before the miracle happens.... |
Our disease is cunning, baffling and powerful...For me, even though I had reservations going to meetings in the beginning, I kept going back and had hope, then somewhere along the line, the hope turned to faith....It really does work...Don't worry about all the steps right now, just keep going back and stay open & willing and listen. The steps are designed to be worked in order and with a sponsor so try not to overwhelm yourself.....
Keep posting and it's nice to meet you....
Take care,
Stacey
Michael...
Welcome and I look forward to hearing more of your story...
xoxo
Stacey
