Hi There Everyone!!! :)

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Hi there everyone!! Thanks so much for asking about me, made my heart feel so good!! Oh things have been pretty crazy, but Valarie thanks for asking about my Dad, he is out of the hosptial and in remission!!!! :) :) it is certainly a miracle!!! We all feel so blessed that he pulled threw another serious illness, God is so great!!!
Once again my personal life is in shambles, and I have been drinking, and not going to counselling, as hard as try to get sober it seems something is there to pull me down again, I barely tread water, and bam I'm pulled under the water again. I'll survive it's just tough right now. I'm glad to see all of you doing well, no word from Jayde?? I pray she is fine, I think of her often.

Thanks again guys for caring, missed y'all!

Big hugs and lots of love
lovedove xoxox
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Hi Love-Dove,

So glad to see your post. Never give up hope! I've shared before that it took me twenty years to finally get sober, but I did, however I don't wish that it take that long for any of you who post here. I could've saved myself and my family a lot of pain and heartache....however, could've, would've, should've....can't go there...all that I know is it took what it took to finally get me to totally surrender. Hang in there. Happy to hear about your Dad; God is indeed good.
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Hello VWgirl, Thanks so much for your post, as always you so encourage me! It seems that things just start to snowball, one drink a night, then 3, then a big bottle, and then it's every other night drinking, The only thing that has stopped me from going to AA is me. I just can't imagine never having a drink ever again, although I know I shouldn't drink, it's just so hard. I know one day at a time, but I just can't help the think'in about drink'in. And it's so easy now that I live alone, nobody to account to, but me. I think I know all the tools, but it's just applying them to my life, and it's hard to shake this pattern. Anyway I've rambled enough I know what I have to do, please just pray for me! Thanks so much

Big Hugs
Lovedove xoxo :)
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HI LOVE DOVE! So glad you posted. I knew that your Pops had come out of the hospital but when we didn't hear from ya in a while of course my gloom doom mind thinks the worst. Glad to hear he is doing well. That is awesome! Sorry you slipped but that is okay. Just start over my friend. You seemed to be holding it together pretty well when your Pops was in the hospital and you didn't have to focus on you. No worries my friend. Like Vw Girl said it takes some people years to get sober. It won't take you years. Hell half the battle is deciding that you don't want it anymore. You've already done that so just hang in there pal. It took me quite a while too but I did it. I try not to take it for granted and just plug along one day at a time! You try to do the same.
Great to hear from you!

Love, Valarie
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Hey Lovedove my love and hugs to you and your Dad and anyone else you want to hug. You are right god is indeed good and your Dad isn't the only one that has been given another chance. I have lost count of all the chances that i have returned to sender, you are willing and that is the key to acceptance and faith will open the door.
You are never alone Lovedove so grab a whiteboard marker and write a positive affirmation on your fridge door that you can get warmth from.

Light and love Zac
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you'll get there in your own time LD. I was exactly the same, couldn't even begin to comprehend the concept of never drinking again 2 years ago, now it is a major committment in my life.

Of course I've stumbled and fallen quite a a few times but I'm slowly gaining acceptance of the idea now. But it did not happen overnight.

I didn't seriously entertain the idea until the emotional devastation and self-hatred caused by my drinking overwhelmed me.

only you will know when yu've hit your bottom

meanwhile hang in there and know we're always here for you.

Idg

PS fantastic news about your Dad, I'm so happy for you and your family.
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Hello VWgirl, Valarie,Zac and Idgie and all my other buddies. Thanks for your heartfelt words, and encourgement! I haven't totally lost it, I am aware of my tendacies, and my triggers, it seems I'm just getting to know the real me now, I guess being 34 it's about time!! ;) I took some time off from my sales job and that's when I seemed to have more time on my hands, and my first reaction was to grab a bottle of wine, heck I deserved it, that was my thinking, I knew in my heart it wasn't the thing I should be doing but I did anyway. Things in my personal life are pretty tense, my H is moving out at the end of the month, but still chooses to live here, I'm sure to torture me! I know this is for the best, it's been along time coming, I used to dread the thought of him leaving, now I actually welcome it, It is a little scary but I'm busy enough and have a great support system that I know I will be fine. There has been so many people leaving my world, it's almost like a cleansing of sorts, I know it's all Gods plan, I've let go and letting God take the wheel!!
Zac, it's so funny what you said about the white board, I have one on my fridge, and I always write quotes on it, right now it says "The early bird may get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese!!!" hehehehheh :)

Love ya guys!
LDxxoxoo
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Hey Lovedove LMAO about the old second mouse getting the cheese, because i've seen the joke where the second mouse is helping himself to a bit more than the cheese as well. Hang in there and keep positive. A lot of times in life a new beginning for the better is sometimes the most painful learning curve.
Keep posting and be proud.

Light and love Zac