Good Morning - well, not for me. As you know, I am on Day 2 and feel really BAD. I know thats to be expected, but I have to b**** anyway :) I dont even want to think about how I feel, just wish I could crawl back into bed and sleep this day away - but I KNOW thats not happening.
So how are you doing. Can you please update me on yourself - sorry, I'm just to lazy to go "search the forum" at the moment!!! I think you did have some clean time under your belt. Are you still clean? If you are, then a big HUG to you and if you arent a bigger HUG to you - see, you always have today to begin. If you have been reading the posts, I'm sure you know my story - yes thats me - the idiot who keeps screwing things up - just when she thought she had it down pat. Well, I'm not giving up. I hope nobody ever gives up. These little devils called opiates are sure as hell not worth it.
Well, Y, I will TTYL. I'm going to read a couple more posts then try to straighten up my kitchen mess -(fun, fun) - my back and legs hurt so bad I feel like I can barely walk - I'm trying though.
Please keep posting, hon. You always have something nice to say to everyone. Thank you for being so sweet.
Love,
Marie
Hello, Im so glad to heare from you and your doing great doing the dishes I would be in dying . do you get. sad doing the day I no I USED to,well im not clean no more i took 4 vikes I had and took them i guess im not ready but im still going to post i have no pain i take them to be superwife. My spouse said not again Dairey of a mad housewife well i no well start again im telling you because you sound so sweet nonjugemetel. so im rite along side you my sweet freind thinking fougive me fou using again but hoesty is the best thing . thanknyou all to all my sweet boared freind sorry bad spelling yspearing/////////////////////
Hello Yspearing!!! and Mariee Ahh and All,
Just wanted to take a moment to say Hello to you Yspearing... I wrote you in the Dianna , whatever..and you too Marie...Still not too sure how all this works, but I think Im finding my way pretty nicely and damn fast!!!
See I really do have a brain....I pull it out of hiding once and while, dust it off, and then well You know...LOL
Yspear..You are so so in the right place..
Believe me and the rest of the people here, You are so so Finally not alone...
Im still doing that tapering thing, but honestly not really,,,Yesterday I believe I did 6 , I always loose count, and if my sons were still here, or anyone for that matter , I'de swear I didn't take them, and someone else did..Anyway today, I should have cut back...Did I...NO.. and I really had nothing to do..I did all my errands, etc yesterday, so why...Just Because...Yeah I know it's wrong..
And Whats with this Hidding Stuff?? Why do I hide these pills, Just me and the Dog here, and he's on Thorazine,,,Had to be to live with me..LOL
I read somewhere else and heard on one of the talk showes and at a meeting that other people hide theres, I really thought I was the only one to do that!!
And the looking in the places where we do keep them ...It's automatic..
Sometimes I leave a half on top of the lamp. and find myself just feeling up there to see even when I don't want one....Sick Sick Sick.
Well we all know how this story goes....
Fri.is my B-day...51 can't believe it..
With the mind of a 13 year old
You all know what Im saying to myself.
Can't stop yet. Boys probably will want to take me to dinner and I have to be the Super Star and Clown I always am........Dummy
Hope Im not still using these lamn excuses around Christmas, New Years, Next Easter.Memorial Day , Labor Day, Kids Birthdays..
Bad Hair Day. etc...
Well gonna read on.
I really do hope you are all hanging in there..
The ones who are Clean now..We'll You gotta know that I do admire, envy, am jealous, of each and everyone of you , but I do thank you for sharing your experience Strenght and hope...
I hope when I get Clean,,I will be there for the next person..
If not. well then I am a pretty rotten person..
Love and Hugs.to All
Di
.
Just wanted to take a moment to say Hello to you Yspearing... I wrote you in the Dianna , whatever..and you too Marie...Still not too sure how all this works, but I think Im finding my way pretty nicely and damn fast!!!
See I really do have a brain....I pull it out of hiding once and while, dust it off, and then well You know...LOL
Yspear..You are so so in the right place..
Believe me and the rest of the people here, You are so so Finally not alone...
Im still doing that tapering thing, but honestly not really,,,Yesterday I believe I did 6 , I always loose count, and if my sons were still here, or anyone for that matter , I'de swear I didn't take them, and someone else did..Anyway today, I should have cut back...Did I...NO.. and I really had nothing to do..I did all my errands, etc yesterday, so why...Just Because...Yeah I know it's wrong..
And Whats with this Hidding Stuff?? Why do I hide these pills, Just me and the Dog here, and he's on Thorazine,,,Had to be to live with me..LOL
I read somewhere else and heard on one of the talk showes and at a meeting that other people hide theres, I really thought I was the only one to do that!!
And the looking in the places where we do keep them ...It's automatic..
Sometimes I leave a half on top of the lamp. and find myself just feeling up there to see even when I don't want one....Sick Sick Sick.
Well we all know how this story goes....
Fri.is my B-day...51 can't believe it..
With the mind of a 13 year old
You all know what Im saying to myself.
Can't stop yet. Boys probably will want to take me to dinner and I have to be the Super Star and Clown I always am........Dummy
Hope Im not still using these lamn excuses around Christmas, New Years, Next Easter.Memorial Day , Labor Day, Kids Birthdays..
Bad Hair Day. etc...
Well gonna read on.
I really do hope you are all hanging in there..
The ones who are Clean now..We'll You gotta know that I do admire, envy, am jealous, of each and everyone of you , but I do thank you for sharing your experience Strenght and hope...
I hope when I get Clean,,I will be there for the next person..
If not. well then I am a pretty rotten person..
Love and Hugs.to All
Di
.
