Wow - just sitting here thinking about the past. I guess I didn't lose that bracelet. He sold it. I guess his friend did not borrow the X-Box. He sold it. He didn't lose the $200 knife I got for him. He sold it. He watch is not broken - it is sold. He sold it all and shot it into him veins. I am so angry with him! I am so angry with myself!! I feel so stupid!
laineyanne,
dont feel stupid its not your fault! we as addicts do the stupidest things nothing matters but our addiction.all we can think about is coping again.luckily i was working and selling drugs so i had enough money that i didnt loose anything but my self respect (and allmost my life and family).someday if he dosnt die he will hit bottom and hopefully recover.just dont let him take you with him when he hits his bottom! stay strong.
dont feel stupid its not your fault! we as addicts do the stupidest things nothing matters but our addiction.all we can think about is coping again.luckily i was working and selling drugs so i had enough money that i didnt loose anything but my self respect (and allmost my life and family).someday if he dosnt die he will hit bottom and hopefully recover.just dont let him take you with him when he hits his bottom! stay strong.
Bruce B........................You hit the nail on the head!
You are far from stupid...you just thought through a different set of eyes. Maybe your feelings were so strong that even when you knew things were wrong...you made them right in your mind. It takes alot to love someone addicted to drugs. The feelings that are there are false and tainted because he is using and you dont know what is what.......what is lie ............what is truth...what is right...what is wrong. Its one thing to be stupid and another to be lacking information...which is what happened to you. Now focus all your energies on the one that matters most.....YOU!
Darin
You are far from stupid...you just thought through a different set of eyes. Maybe your feelings were so strong that even when you knew things were wrong...you made them right in your mind. It takes alot to love someone addicted to drugs. The feelings that are there are false and tainted because he is using and you dont know what is what.......what is lie ............what is truth...what is right...what is wrong. Its one thing to be stupid and another to be lacking information...which is what happened to you. Now focus all your energies on the one that matters most.....YOU!
Darin
Thanks all. I will try to take all of your advice. It's so hard when you love someone.
thanks both of you for your responses to both of my posts the one here and the one in manipulation.i feel even if i can help just one person with a response maby my addiction wasnt for nothing.
Bruce B,
Make that twice you hit it on point! Someone helped me so its only fair and just that I do the same! That is what recovery is about! All the best!
Darin
Make that twice you hit it on point! Someone helped me so its only fair and just that I do the same! That is what recovery is about! All the best!
Darin
