i want to quit sooo badly but the urge for the high is so powerful. i wonder if it will ever happen.
cmv... I know what you mean I am kinda at the stage also.. I want to want to quit but wonder if it is possible sometimes.. But it is possible.. You just have to want it bad enough, I have been told you have to want it more than anything else.. The fear most of the time to me keeps us using, but I have quit once before and the w/d are not that bad to me at least the physical ones are not.. but I know the mental can kick a**... There are lots of people on here that can help you and will, just keep on posting and listening and asking questions..
thanks paula. one day at a time. one day at a time. praying for all.
cmv -
I am also right there with you also!!
I want to get off this roller-coaster ride!!!
I have stopped a couple times, but I keep relapsing!!!
Why does this oxy have such a strong hold on me???
Am I really that weak?!?!
I am also right there with you also!!
I want to get off this roller-coaster ride!!!
I have stopped a couple times, but I keep relapsing!!!
Why does this oxy have such a strong hold on me???
Am I really that weak?!?!
Hi.I am clean almost 3 weeks and the urge is still here..I feel physically better and glad I stopped but I do think about it and I know if someone said HERE, I'd take it. Not sure how to get past it either except to stay on the boards and to ensure you cut off all access to whatever your DOC is.
no-the urge for the drug is so strong. hang in there. i think my biggest hurdle to overcome will be anxienty. does any one have any suggestions to cope with this? you all have been great.
You know, I don't know if I ever would have gotten to the point that I wanted to quit more than anything. No matter how much I wanted to want that, I just couldn't. So what I had to do was be willing to get clean, willing to go through some unpleasant days. Once I did that the relief was unreal. That was when it truly hit me how badly I wanted recovery. Then came the task of learning the tools to stay clean. I soaked up the encouragment from friends from here, I hyped myself up and I just did it. I really don't think we can apreciate the freedom we'll feel until we get a taste of it. The pills had just become such a way of life for me I couldn't imagine it any other way. I couldn't see how I could enjoy myself or laugh or even come online and talk to friends without my doc. Once I did I saw not only was it possible, but it was even better. I think these feelings might especially be the case for people like me who were in active addiction for a long time. I hope my take on it helps you a little. Love, Kat
cmv,
What is your DOC, how much do you use daily and for how long have you been using?
AND good luck and nice to meet you!!
XOXO
Swizzle
What is your DOC, how much do you use daily and for how long have you been using?
AND good luck and nice to meet you!!
XOXO
Swizzle
swizzle,
doc is loratab-usual dose 20 mg. daily-length of time- 3 years. thanks fore the encouragement and god bless you
doc is loratab-usual dose 20 mg. daily-length of time- 3 years. thanks fore the encouragement and god bless you
If you want to really quit, Burn your bridges! Tell you Dr, your supplier, flush your pills, do something drastic! I flushed over a $1000 worth of Lortab 10's, hard to get for me as I didn't have a script. I'm now getting close to 6 wks from Cold Turkey,
Oh, Pray! worked for me
Charlie
Oh, Pray! worked for me
Charlie
cmv -
Only 20 mg of lartab per day??
That's equal to just two 10 mg pills per day.
Is that the max daily amount you have taken or did you taper down to that?
With only 20 mg / day in your body, hopefully your physical w/d symptoms will not be as bad. I'm not saying that even a low amount is easy to stop because I know others that never took more than 3 or 4 pills per day and still had trouble stopping - the mental part seems to be the hardest for all of us no matter the amount we took or take!!
Good luck to you!!
Is it Friday yet?!?!?!
:-)
Swizzle
Only 20 mg of lartab per day??
That's equal to just two 10 mg pills per day.
Is that the max daily amount you have taken or did you taper down to that?
With only 20 mg / day in your body, hopefully your physical w/d symptoms will not be as bad. I'm not saying that even a low amount is easy to stop because I know others that never took more than 3 or 4 pills per day and still had trouble stopping - the mental part seems to be the hardest for all of us no matter the amount we took or take!!
Good luck to you!!
Is it Friday yet?!?!?!
:-)
Swizzle
swizzel
i have not tapered down to anything yet. usual dosage 20 mg. daily for about 3 years. i have tried going without one night and then came the restless legs. i think the most thing that will be the hardest is the feeling of the high that you get and for that brief time the pressure/anxienty goes away for that short time. i have a tremendous amount of pressure with the job i hold. also have a very active 7 year old. my biggest fear is how do you cope with the anxienty and keep calm through this whole ordeal?
cmv
i have not tapered down to anything yet. usual dosage 20 mg. daily for about 3 years. i have tried going without one night and then came the restless legs. i think the most thing that will be the hardest is the feeling of the high that you get and for that brief time the pressure/anxienty goes away for that short time. i have a tremendous amount of pressure with the job i hold. also have a very active 7 year old. my biggest fear is how do you cope with the anxienty and keep calm through this whole ordeal?
cmv
I found that the only thing (for me anyway) that stopped the urge was antidepressants. I used because I was depressed and was depressed because I used. It was a vicious circle.
CMV,
Just wanted to say if you really have srong desire to quit then weam down some more and just stop. Your at 20 mgs that was my usual daily dose of hydro. Then after a while I went to 15 mgs and stayed there for aover a week. Then went to 10 mgs for a while and then 5mgs and stopped. I loaded up on Comtrex Flu therapy,Midol,Motrin,Immodium AD,Multi-vitamins and B-12. I took many hot baths, exercised a little and drank a lot of water! The withdrawls weren't really all that bad for me going down to such a small dose.. It gave my body time to adjust to not needing as many throughout the day..
When you feel the time is ready then you''ll stop. Only you can decide when you want to really start putting forth some effort... Some people can't taper very well and cheat. Either that or they have someone hold their meds while they decrease their dose. I didn't but you may need to. If you have someone in your life that you can trust give them your pills and tell them to give you 15 mgs a day for the next week. It may benefit you to confide in someone also and get some face to face support. That could be a friend/family member or just a NA meeting.
I really don't think sub would be in your best interest at all. You are on such a low dose and it's not going to be that bad. Fear can hold you back but it's no different than having a mild case of the flu. I doubt seriously it will be a severe withdrawl for you. Everyone is different but I felt better after 7-10 days. Everyday got easier not harder... Good luck~ Rae
Just wanted to say if you really have srong desire to quit then weam down some more and just stop. Your at 20 mgs that was my usual daily dose of hydro. Then after a while I went to 15 mgs and stayed there for aover a week. Then went to 10 mgs for a while and then 5mgs and stopped. I loaded up on Comtrex Flu therapy,Midol,Motrin,Immodium AD,Multi-vitamins and B-12. I took many hot baths, exercised a little and drank a lot of water! The withdrawls weren't really all that bad for me going down to such a small dose.. It gave my body time to adjust to not needing as many throughout the day..
When you feel the time is ready then you''ll stop. Only you can decide when you want to really start putting forth some effort... Some people can't taper very well and cheat. Either that or they have someone hold their meds while they decrease their dose. I didn't but you may need to. If you have someone in your life that you can trust give them your pills and tell them to give you 15 mgs a day for the next week. It may benefit you to confide in someone also and get some face to face support. That could be a friend/family member or just a NA meeting.
I really don't think sub would be in your best interest at all. You are on such a low dose and it's not going to be that bad. Fear can hold you back but it's no different than having a mild case of the flu. I doubt seriously it will be a severe withdrawl for you. Everyone is different but I felt better after 7-10 days. Everyday got easier not harder... Good luck~ Rae
you no its kinda funny... one day I thouhgt I will go the woods and camp out for 1 week and be in nature and I will be myself again the urge will go away and that will be that ...no anxity ya rite ...well I never did it ...but what made me STOP ..is I got so sick and tired of the anxity when I would run out ,,,the dreams were so intesne I would dream of a big pill ..size of a big basket ball ..and crazy dreams...oooooooooo mgolly were so real than I would wake up to no pills ..anxity was so bad ...OI would think of all kinds of things never bought pills of the street...golly I got so tired of the catch game ...now im clean ..but still think of the happy highe..but the naturel high are so much better ..and no more waking saying please devil give me pills than I would feel that uncofortable feeling..you no the feeling you get when no pills were aruond.... that anxity feeling....body would say I WILL DO ANYTHING FOR A PILL.... lick it off the floor you no .....thats bad well no more I feel good now and you will to its just time my angels TIME...it does get better poopie
