I just was wondering if I am the only one who got my meds through doctors - by making things up and jumping from doc to doc to build up my supply?
I know a lot of people recieved their meds from back surgerys and different injuries, but what I want to know (especially from the ones who were taking 30+ vicodin's per day) is how did you get that many meds????
Are their a lot people out there like me?
I Want dr shopping at frist 2 years and i stoped for 6 months and than my spouse gets 160 per month of percants 120 vikes per month and still does but he stopped he has rumasarthies and oyher problems he has never abused them NEVER he takes other stuff or he wont tell me if he got them my mato is if you really want to stop you will even apill is in front of you WIIPOWER WANTING TO STOP I GOT THEM OVER THE INTERNENT AND FROM MY DR 2 DR WHICH I TOLD THEM TO STOP ONE DR IS DEAD OLD AGE AND TOLD MY OTHER DR SO NO PILLS LIKE I SAID NO PILLS THANK GOD FOR WILL POWER ALOT OF OTHER THINGS TO LOVE YSPEARING GOOD LUCK MY SWEETIE WE WILL HELP YOU JUST ASK
u work in the medical field, i am a nurse so i had them all the time, when i quit i began doctor hopping, pharmacy to pharmacy, it sucks, especially when a pharmacy catches on....!!!!!
Well I never took 30+ vicodin's a day but yes hun, Alot of people here were just like you. Don't feel alone. I got all my pain meds from doctors and made sure I had a supply.However, I really never took what was prescibed to me 4 a day-120 a month. I would always have some left over. But not everyone is like me I know plenty of people that take way more than they should and then they go through withdrawls and can't get a script for another week or 2 and then they do it all over again and again to themselves. But I was one to make sure that just in case the doctor said he couldn't see me anymore for whatever reason I wanted to make sure I had some. They used to be like GOLD to me. That's sooo sad isn't it. However, back to your post just cause I got mine from doctors I know people that just buy other people's scripts and just get them off the street when they can get them and pay high prices. I was never down for that, I wanted to beable to depend on my doctor's appt.but I have been doing a lot of changing in my life and I am almost off altogether. I take 10 mg of Lortab a day a 5mg in the morning and a 5mg in the evening. Tonight was the first night I just skipped that evening dose and I hope to be totally off by this coming week and then to hell with pills. I have been doing this crap on and off for years and for some reason it has taken this long to sink in that I am hurting myself. I have 3 kids and I can't keep living life like this. There was a day I wouldn't dream about going anywhere unless I had a couple in my pocket and if I forgot one at home well let's just say no matter how far away I was from home, I was going back. Now I have to learn metally that I do not need it. That is hard! Anyway didn't I tell you in my last post I was off to bed, man I can talk--Good night sweetie,try and get some kind of sleep.Rae
Rae, how r-u doing?, if your still awake??..
Hey Jazzy,
Yeah I am still awake as I am sure you can tell from my long-winded posts,lol. I am getting tired though it is 1am here in Tampa,Fl. Rainy outside and a cold front is coming this friday...LOL that probaly sounds funny from me here in Florida having 80 degree weather all week. Seriously though when it gets down to 50-60 here I am freezing. Grew up in Ohio and know all about the snow but your body adjusts when you have lived here for a while. Hope you are doing good tonight. I am going to my boyfriends mom's and then off to my mom's tomorrow to eat so I can't wait I have been thinking about some pumpkin pie all day...Well off to bed now... Have a great Thanksgiving,take care, write back Rachel
Yeah I am still awake as I am sure you can tell from my long-winded posts,lol. I am getting tired though it is 1am here in Tampa,Fl. Rainy outside and a cold front is coming this friday...LOL that probaly sounds funny from me here in Florida having 80 degree weather all week. Seriously though when it gets down to 50-60 here I am freezing. Grew up in Ohio and know all about the snow but your body adjusts when you have lived here for a while. Hope you are doing good tonight. I am going to my boyfriends mom's and then off to my mom's tomorrow to eat so I can't wait I have been thinking about some pumpkin pie all day...Well off to bed now... Have a great Thanksgiving,take care, write back Rachel
At the end, my dr was giving me 240 a month, but I would go in every 21 days. sometimes, if I came up with a stupid enough story, he would give me 90 more...during the same month.
I spent about 9,000 getting better, and $5 a month getting high...go figure.
I spent about 9,000 getting better, and $5 a month getting high...go figure.
I bouht my on the street, spent $1000 to upto $1500 per month. I figured I spent about $35,000 over the years on my habit. Thats money that gone wasted never gonna get it back. But at least I put a stop it and I wont be spending any more on pills.
Good night
JohnDee
Good night
JohnDee
Wow, thats alot of money, i dont even wanna know how much i have spent, yipes!! good nite all:)
Hi Brit- I orignally got my Vicoden by ligetimate sugeries. I had a major surgury in 2000 and was given demoral and vicoden for pain. I then had foot sugery in 2002...It started as a legit need. Then as I became addicted, I hopped from doctor to doctor, making up things to get more. I also suffer from migraines, so my MD was giving me vicoden for the migraines. Lastly, I was able to order online. It's sad...I'm not proud. I'm leaning and depending on my faith in God to get me through my addiction. It's easy for me to get the meds...so I need help not to relapse.
JohnDee- How did you kick the habit? How long have you been clean?
Hello, wow you have a real long name, lol.. So you are new here?, i am happy to see you here, how was your thanksgiving? mine was good, are you still using?, if so what? I am a er nurse and addicted to vics, tabs as well and at one point ,methadone, ahh.. i am clean know, but I had to quit my job and go to rehab, i was completley out of control! , and also i can not go back way to bug of a trigger, it sucks, all that schooling for what?, i have three kids and am a stay at home mom know, so ... it was so easy for me to get drugs because i would just call them in for myself, and take from the ER..it was wayyyy to easy, thank god i never got caught, thank god!
I know that I have a couple posts up, but thank you to all of you who have replied. I am very worried that I will get in trouble somehow. Whether it is by the parmacy or by one of my docs catching on. (I have three)
But does that "want" feeling ever go away? Will I ever be able to have a couple pills sitting in front of me, and feel like I don't need them? Please let me know.
But does that "want" feeling ever go away? Will I ever be able to have a couple pills sitting in front of me, and feel like I don't need them? Please let me know.
any one out there? I will check back either tonight or tomorrow! Thanks again for all your help. I don't know what I would do without you. (I have tears in my eyes) :)
is anyone out there? I am having a very rough morning 4th day!
I am here!
Britney, yes in time you will not have those uncontrollable urges / cravings, but first you have to stop using. I was one of those who had worked up to 20-30 hydros a day, but do you REALLY want to know my source or way of getting that much? Sometimes ignorance is bliss....lol<wink> Anyway, how are you doing today, and how was your Thanksgiving? M.
No, I don't want to know the source - it might give me ideas. lol
Today I am struggling with a dirty house, and a 4year old and 9 month old who won't stop crying. I need to pick the house up, but I feel like without the pills I don't have the energy. I can't stop the dhiarrea, and I don't know why. What on earth is that from???
My Thanksgiving was nice, a bit hard to sit there with my mom and sisters while they talked, and laughed. They were having such a good time, and all I could think of was how bad I needed the pills. But then later that night we went to my husbands parents house. I told myself that I HAD to be social, and interact with them (since they already think I am a witch). And I did it! For about 20 minutes I think, I went without thinking about the pills. Then it all came back to me, especially when I got home and had to put the kids to bed.
Will I ever enjoy life again? Like taking walks, and playing with my children?
I am thinking about going to the gym today (I joined last week - the day I decided would be my last with pills), but I am feeling very weak with no energy. any suggestions?
how was your Turkey Day?
Today I am struggling with a dirty house, and a 4year old and 9 month old who won't stop crying. I need to pick the house up, but I feel like without the pills I don't have the energy. I can't stop the dhiarrea, and I don't know why. What on earth is that from???
My Thanksgiving was nice, a bit hard to sit there with my mom and sisters while they talked, and laughed. They were having such a good time, and all I could think of was how bad I needed the pills. But then later that night we went to my husbands parents house. I told myself that I HAD to be social, and interact with them (since they already think I am a witch). And I did it! For about 20 minutes I think, I went without thinking about the pills. Then it all came back to me, especially when I got home and had to put the kids to bed.
Will I ever enjoy life again? Like taking walks, and playing with my children?
I am thinking about going to the gym today (I joined last week - the day I decided would be my last with pills), but I am feeling very weak with no energy. any suggestions?
how was your Turkey Day?
Britney, it is Normal, normal oh, normal. it sucks i felt the SANE WAY you did but it passes i promise sweetie, i promise, go to the gym make your self go!! it will make you feel better! that is what I had to do, force myself to get the f*** up!
Good morning britany I really hope you start to feel better soon.You can do it,you can belive that life can be GREAT I know it doesn't right now.Forgive yourself you are human(i hope)we all stumble alittle we even sometimes fall.The best thing is to keep trying.I know I'll be here for you and with this site I'm really sure that more people will be here and pulling for you......take care......Mollyjean
