How many times do you have to fall back into the same situtation , before you realize that your a loser????
How many times do you put that stupid pill in your mouth and gag , before you realize your not worth saving???
How many times does the family members tell you that there sooo proud of you and you cant tell them that nothing has changed???
How many times do you have to say your sorry to the people that you love???
And last but not least......How many times are people gonna tell you that they like you better now...and your still taking the pills and nothing has changed and you know there lieing to your face!!!???
Just curious if anyone has the answers to these questions????
FRIEND
Christina,
I take it you got your refill? Now you are feeling guilty for using again? Well if that's the case your not the only one. If that helps any. I guess you have just got to want to quit and get help bad enough to do something about it. Maybe your time has not come yet but it will oneday. Just by you being here and posting says you want help you are just unsure how to do it. Everyone here can guide you and give you support. However, getting clean and staying clean my friend will be totally up to you when you are ready for it. If you need to talk you have my e-mail address. I will be online for a while. I am waiting fr a friend of mine to get ff work at 10:30, so if you need me I am here to listen..... Your friend, Rachel
I take it you got your refill? Now you are feeling guilty for using again? Well if that's the case your not the only one. If that helps any. I guess you have just got to want to quit and get help bad enough to do something about it. Maybe your time has not come yet but it will oneday. Just by you being here and posting says you want help you are just unsure how to do it. Everyone here can guide you and give you support. However, getting clean and staying clean my friend will be totally up to you when you are ready for it. If you need to talk you have my e-mail address. I will be online for a while. I am waiting fr a friend of mine to get ff work at 10:30, so if you need me I am here to listen..... Your friend, Rachel
i dont really have the answers but i've been there before myself as well. i dont think no one has the answers to how many times. but i do know it will be as many times as it takes untill you have ultimately hit a rock bottom. realise you can't do it alone and surrendor your will over to your high power and say i cant do this alone god i need your help and give it up to him and whole heartedly believe,mean and trust in the power of the god of your understanding, lean on him and continually pray and seek his help and knowledge. thats how it worked for me and i had to keep seeking him and asking him continually through out the day to be able to get through. cause for me thats all i had left. cause at that point i had no one left in my life to turn too, and yeah the ones i did have left i lied to about it. god is listening. you just have to truly sincerely mean it and trust him with all you might. thats how it worked for me.
~terrianne
~terrianne
Hi Christina,
Well as you know I can't answer your post from and addiction point of view....
But I am wondering if these were just general questions......I sincerely hope they are.
Must tell you though no matter what situation they were asked in.....you are not and never will be a loser, that you are loved, because lets face it none of us are without faults or problems in our lives....and all of us deserve to be loved, to feel love, and to have a sense of peace in our lives....That means you, and everyone lurking, yes everyone of you!
Please take care of yourself......
Tina
Well as you know I can't answer your post from and addiction point of view....
But I am wondering if these were just general questions......I sincerely hope they are.
Must tell you though no matter what situation they were asked in.....you are not and never will be a loser, that you are loved, because lets face it none of us are without faults or problems in our lives....and all of us deserve to be loved, to feel love, and to have a sense of peace in our lives....That means you, and everyone lurking, yes everyone of you!
Please take care of yourself......
Tina
Friend, addicts aren't losers, anymore than non addicts are. We are sick. We try to do it ourselves, we lie and manipulate, we live in our misery and end up living lies. Until you truly realize that you are ill, and take the steps to recover, you will continue to go through these emotions. We've all had them, well, I know I did anyway. You know what my biggest question was when I first came here? How do I want to want to quit drugs? Sounds stupid huh? But I couldn't get that one. I needed to quit and I knew it, but somehow I just couldn't want to enough. I wanted those pills. You will get there, friend. I did, you will too. Love, Kat
Hi Friend, I hear you...I know that pain. I really has to be about letting go ...and for me, I have to just take it one day at a time.
(I used TO HATE THAT SAYING, I MUST ADMIT...LOL...but it does work.)
Another thing that I have learned, is that we can always start over....don't beat yourself up...
Kerry
(I used TO HATE THAT SAYING, I MUST ADMIT...LOL...but it does work.)
Another thing that I have learned, is that we can always start over....don't beat yourself up...
Kerry
Little Niblet I emailed you.Maybe we can get through the hard times together?I am feeling so scared about Monday already....mj
Niblet remember what I say.AS LONG AS YOU PICK YOURSELF UP AND KEEP TRYING.Sweety is there like an addiction specialist near you?A Dr thats main interest in addiction may be a good option for you.I hope your still not trying to be perfect because I love you however you are you are like my own family to me....mj
