Wow
been here on this forum?? a few years
I am tired.
not drunk
not high
tired very tired
yes going to meetings--yes reading my book yes using tools??
BUT--since 1987 its now 2016??
Bob ?? there is no GOD? as multiple meetings people b****???--Okay there opinion no god??
BOB???there is god--IMO I just feel we PEOPLE--have f***ed up totally and whatever happens thats gods mercy JMHO
Jesus i used to be so tired of getting my next script etc drinking etc--bla BLA BLA BLA
BOB ?? u are a good person u attempt to help others.
that is very simple if anyone bothers reading this forum--Go To AA get sponsor temp sponsor do 90 days and see how it goes ?? am i correct Bob??
I have to be honest Get drunk over my 5-9 issues nope--if I want to drink tonight its cause I decide--to drink. Trust me If i have a beer or 12?? def NFL Giants Dallas 2016--Assuming ur a football fan.
why not??--I prefer to live--BOB BUT tell me why all these drunks addicts in between are all part of the system BOB??
Bob i only ask you as you seem to be daily reading
I am f***ing tired man of people--
does any of this make sense??
All i know is bob come JULY 18th 1988 -we shoot to july 18th 2016 I am very confident will not do cocaine ?? us junkies never no. BUT assuming I hit my 28 yrs so?? what i have learned??
A lot but its so sad life reality meetings are different and Bob Im moving again due to my ex passing--
BOB THIS IS FOR YOU TO ME--KEEP POSTING--IT HELPS ME
HI KAT--NO I LIED TO U SOBER YEA ?? OKAY NO f***ING WAY KAT--MY YOUNGEST IS IN PAIN AND THAT SUCKS MAN BUT IT KEEPS ME f***ING FOCUSED
Are you drunk or on drugs?
I go through my times too.
Most of the 30-40 yrs sober oldtimers I know do as well.
I try to "stay on the beam" as best I can during those "grey days" and keep thanking my H.P.
These times pass and are replaced with better times if I work my program.
Watch Don Coyhis's video about our recovery times.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wue3...eature=youtu.be
Ask God for help and call a good oldtimer in your area.
Bob R
Most of the 30-40 yrs sober oldtimers I know do as well.
I try to "stay on the beam" as best I can during those "grey days" and keep thanking my H.P.
These times pass and are replaced with better times if I work my program.
Watch Don Coyhis's video about our recovery times.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wue3...eature=youtu.be
Ask God for help and call a good oldtimer in your area.
Bob R
Bob past 8 yrs has been very difficult. lost an eye /stroke then second stroke-lost my ability to do what I love. My father passed in between. Other issues BUT my youngest daughter is devastated.
Im just angry.
Anyway today is another day.
Have a good one Bob
Jeff
Im just angry.
Anyway today is another day.
Have a good one Bob
Jeff
Keep on keepin' on, Jeff.
I know how we feel when we lack acceptance and gratitude....
they are the last 2 things I want to look for - and the very things I need.
This too shall pass, Bud, and tomorrow will be better if I don't screw up too bad today.
Try to pick up some extra meetings if you can - share and help the others.
Prayers your way.
Bob
I know how we feel when we lack acceptance and gratitude....
they are the last 2 things I want to look for - and the very things I need.
This too shall pass, Bud, and tomorrow will be better if I don't screw up too bad today.
Try to pick up some extra meetings if you can - share and help the others.
Prayers your way.
Bob
Jeff, bud! Good to see you still toting the rock! :) glad you are here, my friend.
Hello S
Thanks Bob
Its been very overwhelming.
I asked for help and got it. Realized i cannot keep doing all this myself.
Jeffrey
Thanks Bob
Its been very overwhelming.
I asked for help and got it. Realized i cannot keep doing all this myself.
Jeffrey
Hang in there, suboxman/Jeff...keep on keepin' on my friend...
Hey Mom
5-6 curveballs--hit all at once?? appreciate the thought I am good.
due to my ex passing had to leave my home to take care of my daughter sr yr so we got lucky as hurricane missed all of us man. Thank god.
anyway just doing the best I can--
Sucks but things sure could be worse.
Enjoy ur weekend
Jeffrey
5-6 curveballs--hit all at once?? appreciate the thought I am good.
due to my ex passing had to leave my home to take care of my daughter sr yr so we got lucky as hurricane missed all of us man. Thank god.
anyway just doing the best I can--
Sucks but things sure could be worse.
Enjoy ur weekend
Jeffrey
Hi, Jeff. Growing old ain't for sissies, is it? Death, misfortune, weddings, funerals. It's all in the deal, I guess, but I have a choice today when it comes at me, too. It's okay to be angry at times. At least we ain't drunk!
Hi "S"
You would think after ? 29 yrs+ of therapy meetings -rehab-- halfway house it never amazes me how my disease is a KILLER. You do not have to be drunk or high a dry drunk for me is the WORST.
I preface not whining-or pity etc--since 2008-2009-2-010 2 strokes lost eye lost dad lost my ability to work --i finally decided to detox off all the freakin pills in 2013--did it--2014---almost croaked--MRSA --vascular disease as well Im kinda screwed with a bunch of other health issues but I can't control any of them except to eat correctly exercise and stay positive mentally and physically to the best of my abilities.
As we all say life? how do u deal with it? I was cool until just as I moved to new place met friends new friends--BOOM my EX gets sick dies--and I had to leave again for like my 8th time in 5 yrs but s*** happens man.
Anyway ask I know is as long as I am able to live one day at a time in the moment do not project I can deal with anything.
Watching my youngest daughter? That was and still is the hardest issue for me. But she is an amazing kid not saying it cause she's my daughter just tough and Im blessed to be here helping her.
?its rough and transition from divorced dad to "custodian to a 17 yr old hormonal?? LAUGH A LOT--its fun but scary as well. You live u learn.
Anyway bottom line I am alive to be able to help both my daughters as of right now today and thats all due to FAITH and some special friends in AA-- from 1988 until present-and some special friends from this forum for many years-- so THANK YOU "S"
Enjoy ur weekend
Jeffrey
You would think after ? 29 yrs+ of therapy meetings -rehab-- halfway house it never amazes me how my disease is a KILLER. You do not have to be drunk or high a dry drunk for me is the WORST.
I preface not whining-or pity etc--since 2008-2009-2-010 2 strokes lost eye lost dad lost my ability to work --i finally decided to detox off all the freakin pills in 2013--did it--2014---almost croaked--MRSA --vascular disease as well Im kinda screwed with a bunch of other health issues but I can't control any of them except to eat correctly exercise and stay positive mentally and physically to the best of my abilities.
As we all say life? how do u deal with it? I was cool until just as I moved to new place met friends new friends--BOOM my EX gets sick dies--and I had to leave again for like my 8th time in 5 yrs but s*** happens man.
Anyway ask I know is as long as I am able to live one day at a time in the moment do not project I can deal with anything.
Watching my youngest daughter? That was and still is the hardest issue for me. But she is an amazing kid not saying it cause she's my daughter just tough and Im blessed to be here helping her.
?its rough and transition from divorced dad to "custodian to a 17 yr old hormonal?? LAUGH A LOT--its fun but scary as well. You live u learn.
Anyway bottom line I am alive to be able to help both my daughters as of right now today and thats all due to FAITH and some special friends in AA-- from 1988 until present-and some special friends from this forum for many years-- so THANK YOU "S"
Enjoy ur weekend
Jeffrey
Your life struggles and continued sobriety are an inspiration. I am going through a lot right now with having a 9 month old daughter and a disintegrating relationship with her mother while living together. 17 months yesterday and for brief periods I still wonder how the hell am I supposed to do this? Your immense experience informs me of the latent strength of sobriety through AA.
I think your take drug regularly or you are addicted. But you should leave them, you know they are hampered for your life.
Yo, yo, yo!
Jeff, how you holding up? Pirate and I were just discussing how those who show mercy are often the most afflicted--and grateful for it. Amazing how a spiritual relationship reconciled with God brings us to suffering for Him. Even in this broken world, the things/actions that used to seem so incredibly freeing now seem like persecution sometimes, right?
It's all good, My Friend. You're totin' the rock and trudging the road. Be at peace--you are loved.
S
Jeff, how you holding up? Pirate and I were just discussing how those who show mercy are often the most afflicted--and grateful for it. Amazing how a spiritual relationship reconciled with God brings us to suffering for Him. Even in this broken world, the things/actions that used to seem so incredibly freeing now seem like persecution sometimes, right?
It's all good, My Friend. You're totin' the rock and trudging the road. Be at peace--you are loved.
S
