I'm still hangin' loose. I haven't had internet for awhile. I had to go to the library to log on and I'm much too lazy to do that very often. I'm still going to "Ye Olde Methadone Clinic." I'm doing well except for a depression that just won't go away. My addiction counsellor says I need to do a 4th and 5th step. But I'd have to go to meetings more than once a month to do that and get a sponsor. And, once again...I'm much too lazy for that. Besides, I can't find any sober person that I feel comfortable with. Do any of you have that problem? I for sure am afraid to date! Whenever I think a guys interested, I get nervous as hell. I almost have panic attacks. I can't imagine being on a date and having to worry about sex! I'm 48 yrs. old and too shy to date!!! I just don't know if I could go through with it sober. I never have.
I dont think u r the only one with the confidence problem,thing is if u dont feel good about yourself how can u expect anyone else to.Or even if u dont like yourself etc..I,ve been on anti-depressants for the past 4 or 5months which i havent mentioned on the site,the way my mental state was i really had to do something ,but just lately i have been feeling a whole lot worse so 4 or 5 days ago i stopped taking them,i admit i was scared to stop but so far im glad i have as i am starting to feel much better.I honestly couldnt see myself carrying on in that state of mind,i think i was getting close to topping myself.Now,although it,s only been a few day,s iv,e started going for a sunbed to get a bit colour about me,i wont go for long,just enough as i,e said to get a bit colour and hopefully look healthier and better.Its the 1st time in a long time when i,ve cared what i look like so that has to be a good thing,,the ladies will have to wait a wee bit longer..ECK.........
Hi Shirley, been kind of quiet here lately. Eckie, so good to hear from you...love yourself my friend.
Peace~MomNMore
Peace~MomNMore
Eckie: take it easy mate, hope you feel better now that you're off the anti d's. Respect, Kev
Shirley: we all get those thoughts about what it will be like sober. I'm 27 year old and i have slept with 1 person straight, my partner now. And i mean 100% straight, no drink, nothing. Course it is daunting, but it's bloody good!! Alot better than being charged....can you not do online sponsors??
Shirley: we all get those thoughts about what it will be like sober. I'm 27 year old and i have slept with 1 person straight, my partner now. And i mean 100% straight, no drink, nothing. Course it is daunting, but it's bloody good!! Alot better than being charged....can you not do online sponsors??
Hello Shirley glad you popped in good to see yer usual relaxed self......still living on the mountain??hope yer filling yer time with a bit of reading......good therapy.....im hevily in to an author ive probobly mentioned before but i know you would really like him ....really raw and true of the States today ...his name is George Pelecanos......Shirl check him out next time yer in town.Hope everything is goin well for ya in yer corner of the world.......take care Ms.
P.S dont be worrying yer yer head with all this dating stuff,you know you can enjoy life just as much being single,i havnt been in a solid relationship that lasted more than a couple of months for years.....mainly coz i put my energys into my daughter for me to give myself over to another persons needs would be hard ,so i just carry on ,happy enough as long as those closest to me and there arnt that many are happy and content.All the best to you as ever .............Davey
P.S dont be worrying yer yer head with all this dating stuff,you know you can enjoy life just as much being single,i havnt been in a solid relationship that lasted more than a couple of months for years.....mainly coz i put my energys into my daughter for me to give myself over to another persons needs would be hard ,so i just carry on ,happy enough as long as those closest to me and there arnt that many are happy and content.All the best to you as ever .............Davey
First of all,it's good to hear from you guys! Davey, I will check that author out. I still read alot. I just read a really good book called,"ORCS"by Stan Nichols.If you like fantasy/sci-fi, you'll enjoy it. And Dee, I never thought about on-line meetings or sponsors. That's a great idea and I'm going to get on that today! Thank you so much! I know it would help me to get some crap off my back! The monkey is gone but he left his luggage. 'know what I mean? lol.And Eckie, I've thought about anti-depressants. That's about it. I've just thought about it. I'd have to go through the local mental health center because they have a sliding scale billing system for poor folk like me. The problem there is the counsellors at this place and the Drs. are very anti-methadone. I'd rather deal with it without the pills anyway. I'm glad you're doing better now that you are off of them. I bet you may have needed them at first to get you through the suicidal crap.(been there,still kickin') oh yeah, Davey, I'm still on my mountain in North Carolina. When I first got back from Indiana, I stayed with my sister for awhile in Tn. but even then I was trying to get back here.I wasn't born here but this is home. The best place to live in the universe!!! LOL!
Hey shirley, www.ukna.org. Go to chat. Every monday, wednesday, friday and sunday at 7.30pm there is an online meeting. Take care. Kev
That monkey is a b*****, eh? he;'s left his luggage with me too lol
That monkey is a b*****, eh? he;'s left his luggage with me too lol
Thanks for the info Kev. Can you really have an on-line sponsor? How would that work? I guess I'll find out if I go the on-line meeting. Huh? Duh!! See ya'. Bye!
i honestly don't know, i know its done, but i don't kow how, take it easy, Kev
Hey Shirley... I never was one for the meetings i'm a social retard I just don't work well with others lol. Dating sober it's a challange for sure. For me the issue has been living with a man who has never had a drug/drink problem. I feel there is so much about me he can't relate to. I also would not could not date a ex addict i'm too weak i can't always keep me sober i sure would not want to deal with anothers addiction also. Dealing with the emotions and stress of a relationship are too much some days. I wish i had had more sober time before gettting into a relationship. My advice don't date untill your in a good place mentally with yourself. As for a on line sponcer i've not a clue how that works. A lot of people are unhappy in their relationships you can be unhappy alone your not missing much.
zerogirl, you've got a point. I've got a hubby in prison anyway. He's gone for at least 25 yrs. though. I guess I was just trying to figure out what to do with my time for the next 25. LOL
