This is me again, Jennifer, mother of a beautiful daughter/meth addict. I can't seem to get to wherever it is I need to be at to gain some perspective that lasts for more than an hour. I swear, the ups and the downs that she has and I ride out with her are driving me insane! I have to learn emotional boundaries. I have I feel have my physical boundaries down . I have to get off this rollercoaster. I love her so deeply, I hurt for her so deeply. My wells are about dry. Maureen, if you read this, I am having a bad day!
Hi, Jennifer...does she live with you? It will drive you out of your mind if you have to live with it day in and day out. I had to let my daughter go...and though the worry and the pain and the tears are daily for me...the insanity is no longer a daily feeling...except on days I speak to her. It is very, very hard to live with a meth addict..it's next to impossible, Jennifer. Unfortunately, the more we try help them, the sicker the cycle becomes...learned that the hard way. There are no words to ease your pain. It frickin hurts. You can take care of your sanity though, Jennifer and you have to...really. so sorry you're living this nightmare..so many of us are losing our kids to this drug...
Thank you for your response.She moved out when she was 17 and a senior in high school. Like what you said, I do pretty well until I see her and that is what prompted my post. Yesterday ws a better day for me. I only hope for today!
prayers go out to all of you...the co-dependents and the addicts...
love y'all
janet
love y'all
janet
Jennifer, slowly I am learning to separate the addict from my daughter, though it's hard. When she curses at me, it really used to KILL my heart....now I try focus on the fact that it's just the addict in her and it does feel different, though every now and then, I forget the equation and desolve into tears. It doesn't feel right as a mother leaving them out there, does it? But I just try to rely on what the recovering addicts tell us here and cling to the hope that it truly is the only way they will hit their bottom and get help. Hope you have a good day today, Jennifer. Whenever I have to feed my motherly instincts, I go out and buy britt a motivational book or some vitamins or print something off of here and drop it off. Just makes me feel better as a mom to know I'm doing SOMETHING...I want her to know that in this world, she still does have another option other than the dark circle of friends and drugs she's in. I never want her to feel, "Well, this is all I have now" and stay stuck there..there's an open door if she wants to help herself. good luck to you both.
thank you for listening to me and providing me a way! Jen
