I ran out of cigs yesterday around 5. Since then, I have smoked 4-5 ofmy husband's, but will not buy anymore of mine. He says when his pack is gone, he won't either.
I have the nicotrol, and it does help to keep the cravings at bay. I am sucking the life out of my little fake cig.
I am just so sick and tired of my chest hurting and the wheezing.
My next door neighbor, our cousin's wife, is 63. She chain smokes and has a cough that will scare the hell out of you. She was scheduled for surgery this week for a clogged vein in her leg, but they did a CAT scan first and found 3 "suspicious" spots on her lungs. The surgery is off and they scheduled a PET scan for the 13th. I KNOW she has lung cancer and I do not want to be in her shoes in 10 years.
My kids beg me everyday to quit smoking. They BEG me, and yet I have been ignoring them. Well, maybe I haven't ignored them, as my desire to be smoke free has brought me to today.
I am scared and wishing I had one right now, but I will not.
Any suggestions?
Hey Carol I do not know if yo have read that I blew it, while my mom has been away I have been smoking, not a big giant thing going on but enough to bum me out. I have the patch and when I wear it it works perfect for me. I use alot of gum and mints and before you start go thru your house and cars and clear them out, I missed a couple and there I was again. I am not even craving one or wanting to smoke but it is like I am forcing myself to do it. totally insane behavior. mom should be home tomorrow and I can not see myself continuing to smoke. I am disapointed in myself but I forget sometimes I am not a rock that can not fall. Having your hubby do this too will make it easier. I am not around any smokers so that is really good too. just worry about today, same concept of one day at a time, don't say you won't ever smoke again like my sorry a** did, just get thru today
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Yes, Carol, I read all of your threads. You're doing good, considering all else you have going on. Are you still smoking today?
We're having a snow storm, and I guess that is good, cause I will not be able to go and buy any if I want to.
staring at the cigs getting ready to do a stomp and water on the remainder, just can't keep doing it, it really is not about mom or anything other than I just can not come up with any good reason to continue, if anything it actually makes me fel ill, talk about a addict doing it over and over with no benefit other than sickness.
Good luck Carol.I'm starting my 4th day.My last puff was 8:00am last Thursday.
Do anything that works.Nicotrol,patches,Chantrix etc.
I couldn't deal with the patches so I just c/t and was a very angry person.I asked some woman in the self-checkout line,who kept going back to get stuff she forgot,what the f*** her problem was.I hollered at her.It was not pretty.
If I could find her,I would apologize.
Do anything that works.Nicotrol,patches,Chantrix etc.
I couldn't deal with the patches so I just c/t and was a very angry person.I asked some woman in the self-checkout line,who kept going back to get stuff she forgot,what the f*** her problem was.I hollered at her.It was not pretty.
If I could find her,I would apologize.
patch in place totally ransacked the house looking for any evidence, no matches, no ashtrays, clean laundry, everything, car is detailed, patch does give me vivid dreams which I actually like lol!! at my job outside the home I have to make a clear effort to join the smokers, not just casually walk outside, it is amazing peoples perceptions, everyone always marveled wow you don't take any breaks, they were also smoking pot out there and i never took breaks becuz of a cloud of smoke outside, not becuz I didn't need one. I look back and see how I protected my recovery and how exactly it started again. sneaky little thing smoking is. I totally ran with it using my sister's chain smoking as a excuse, but deep down I know that smoking will never work for me again. I really tried hard to test it this past month but truly throwing up and getting headaches was about my daily reward. anyway Tim 4 days is awesome!! Carol are you there?
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Thanks Carol.Day 5.It's getting better.I never knew how much anger I had.That's a rude awakening.
Day 7 since 8:30am on that Thursday morning.
Man,this has been the hardest thing I've ever tried to kick.When I stopped for those 13 years I never remember it being that hard.
Also,have you guys noticed how many people smoke? It seems like every other car has someone smoking in it.
I bet there are a lot of closet smokers.
How are you two guys doing? Is it becoming any easier?
Man,this has been the hardest thing I've ever tried to kick.When I stopped for those 13 years I never remember it being that hard.
Also,have you guys noticed how many people smoke? It seems like every other car has someone smoking in it.
I bet there are a lot of closet smokers.
How are you two guys doing? Is it becoming any easier?
I notiice people smoking everywhere, its like a slow motion movie, just notice alot more when you aren't doing it.
Not only do they smoke everywhere. They stink everywhere too.
yeah, I know that cough well. My husband has it, he has chronic bronchitus, he had to quit and it's been 3 months but he still has the cough, not sure if it will ever go away or if the damage has been done already.
