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How ya doin' today Jayde? Just checking in on ya and seeing how you are!
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Hey Jayde,
Got your mail:)
YGM to now!
Buggar what anyone else says, you know yourself better than anyone,
Hubby should be the number one support for you , not f***in knocking you down!
one day at a time does it Jayde, and you are at the best age, I tried at 32 done 6 mths sober, and then got drunk again till I was 38, and I mean full on drinking,
I regret it now, I had ppl I could contact, but I never did, I tried a few times in those yrs but could never get it together,
I got me cards read a few weeks ago, I never have done that sort of thing before but had a lot on my mind and thought buggar it, I will go an see what they say,
I made sure no one seen me go in the place, (cant have shaved head, tatts, beard and get ya cards read!) :)
One thing the lady told me was that I am a together person now, only been together in the last 2 or so yrs!!! I have 17 mths sober now,
Now hows that ay, I never told her anything at the start, but went through them at the end with her!
When I get a cell phone over there I will email you my number an you can call me if ya having a bad day,
We are all here for you Jayde!!
Talk soon Ginge
Got your mail:)
YGM to now!
Buggar what anyone else says, you know yourself better than anyone,
Hubby should be the number one support for you , not f***in knocking you down!
one day at a time does it Jayde, and you are at the best age, I tried at 32 done 6 mths sober, and then got drunk again till I was 38, and I mean full on drinking,
I regret it now, I had ppl I could contact, but I never did, I tried a few times in those yrs but could never get it together,
I got me cards read a few weeks ago, I never have done that sort of thing before but had a lot on my mind and thought buggar it, I will go an see what they say,
I made sure no one seen me go in the place, (cant have shaved head, tatts, beard and get ya cards read!) :)
One thing the lady told me was that I am a together person now, only been together in the last 2 or so yrs!!! I have 17 mths sober now,
Now hows that ay, I never told her anything at the start, but went through them at the end with her!
When I get a cell phone over there I will email you my number an you can call me if ya having a bad day,
We are all here for you Jayde!!
Talk soon Ginge
Jayde
sweetie - lots of love and hugs to you - sorry I've been travelling for work so wasn't online for a bit.
YOU are a wonderful person and a terrific person who deserves the best in life and not to be put down in any way by your H or anyone.
You really sound in need of AA because you don't have support at home. Jayde call the local AA office, often there are members that will pick you up and drive you if need be- tell them that transport is an issue for you. They will do whatever they can to help you. Tell them child care is an issue as well - yuo may be surprised at solutions they have to offer. Can't your H mind the kid for a couple of hours?
Jayde - I felt as you, couldn't tell family or friends, AA has helped me SO much Jayde I can't even tell you.
Yesterday I had a lousy day at work, thought about buying wine on the way home but didn't. Got home and my H was an a**hole to me, made me feel unwelcome in my own home. I had a shower, a mug of hot chocolate and went straight to my home meeting. There I was made to feel more welcome than in my own home - I also laughed for the first time all day. My sponsor showed up unexpectedly to the meeting also and we had a big hug and lots of laughs after the meeting.
I went home feeling terrific and sober!!! jayde you can have that too.
Jayde if you want to get and stay sober you will have to learn how to set your husband aside mentally for awhile so you can deal with yourself. AA can truly help you with that. He is probably attacking you because you are threatening his status quo and his own problems by trying to address yours. If he won't support your recovery then don't discuss it with him. Discuss it with you HP and with us - because we love you and want the best for you.
I know AA is not the answer for everyone but to be able to talk to people who truly understand is wonderful, to have people glad to see you, help you out, give you a hug, laugh with you at your troubles but also understand the seriousness of them at the same time. Its a wondeful thing to have - and its all freely given.
Just call them - at least call to tell them your situation and see if they can't help out.
thinking of you
Idgie.
sweetie - lots of love and hugs to you - sorry I've been travelling for work so wasn't online for a bit.
YOU are a wonderful person and a terrific person who deserves the best in life and not to be put down in any way by your H or anyone.
You really sound in need of AA because you don't have support at home. Jayde call the local AA office, often there are members that will pick you up and drive you if need be- tell them that transport is an issue for you. They will do whatever they can to help you. Tell them child care is an issue as well - yuo may be surprised at solutions they have to offer. Can't your H mind the kid for a couple of hours?
Jayde - I felt as you, couldn't tell family or friends, AA has helped me SO much Jayde I can't even tell you.
Yesterday I had a lousy day at work, thought about buying wine on the way home but didn't. Got home and my H was an a**hole to me, made me feel unwelcome in my own home. I had a shower, a mug of hot chocolate and went straight to my home meeting. There I was made to feel more welcome than in my own home - I also laughed for the first time all day. My sponsor showed up unexpectedly to the meeting also and we had a big hug and lots of laughs after the meeting.
I went home feeling terrific and sober!!! jayde you can have that too.
Jayde if you want to get and stay sober you will have to learn how to set your husband aside mentally for awhile so you can deal with yourself. AA can truly help you with that. He is probably attacking you because you are threatening his status quo and his own problems by trying to address yours. If he won't support your recovery then don't discuss it with him. Discuss it with you HP and with us - because we love you and want the best for you.
I know AA is not the answer for everyone but to be able to talk to people who truly understand is wonderful, to have people glad to see you, help you out, give you a hug, laugh with you at your troubles but also understand the seriousness of them at the same time. Its a wondeful thing to have - and its all freely given.
Just call them - at least call to tell them your situation and see if they can't help out.
thinking of you
Idgie.
Jayde, again I can't say much more than what has been posted already. I'd suggest for you to go where the love is (meetings)...there is a solution...around here there are child friendly women's meetings, not sure if they have them where you live. My ex-husband did the same thing to me when I tried to get sober over the years...he'd sabotage me, he was losing his "partying" buddy...and to be fair to him, when he'd try to get clean and sober I'd sabotage him. I had to surrender to this disease, and had to be willing to go to any length for sobriety...and still have to do those two things on a daily basis. You deserve to be happy, you deserve to be treated right, and your son deserves to have a sober Mom; there is hope...sometimes it doesn't feel that way, believe me I know...but if you can just shoot for midnight...you do not have to do this thing alone...there are others who have gone before you with similar stories who would help you and ask for nothing in return. You can do this thing, you can...take good care of yourself...
Hey Jayde, I hope you are feeling better today... sorry I didn't post sooner, I haven't been able to post much lately... don't let your H bring you down, he doesn't want you to be empowered because he feels weak, "misery loves company" rears its ugly head again. Remember what you told me when my friend told me I didn'thave a problem - he also doesn't want to lose his buddy, and maybe your acceptance of your problem ahs made him think more about his own. But think about your little boy and how much he loves you... and all of us here are here for you too. Keep posting, stay strong, whatever means necessary to keep up the fight. Lots of love and big hugs...
Hi Jayde,
how are you feeling today? You're in my thoughts.....
how are you feeling today? You're in my thoughts.....
Hey Jayde keep posting no matter what. Get what is going on inside your head out and posted. There is hope and where there is hope there is faith and you have all that.
You are not alone
Light and love zac
You are not alone
Light and love zac
Hi everyone, thanks for all the great advice.
I turned myself into detox on Tuesday afternoon. Went crazy in there, and signed myself out and walked out last night. I know it was not the right thing to do, but i CAN'T be away from my son for 30 days for inpatient threrapy. So i signed myself out, against my doc's recomendation. Now i'm afaraid that they will be watching me and be checking to see if i'm a fit mother. Can they do that? Even if i was the one that turned myself in? I'm sooo scared, i know i can do it, i just don't want to be hospitalized. They put me on Librium, and i don't like how that makes me feel either. I also wanted to be put on Anta-buse (sp), and my doc said he doesn't prescribe that to patients of his.? I don't get it.
I'm lost and confused....but i think my little get away scared the crap out of me enough that i don't want to go through this again. I have no desire to drink right now, I'm too scared.
Sorry my mind is everywhere right now. Thanks again everyone.
I turned myself into detox on Tuesday afternoon. Went crazy in there, and signed myself out and walked out last night. I know it was not the right thing to do, but i CAN'T be away from my son for 30 days for inpatient threrapy. So i signed myself out, against my doc's recomendation. Now i'm afaraid that they will be watching me and be checking to see if i'm a fit mother. Can they do that? Even if i was the one that turned myself in? I'm sooo scared, i know i can do it, i just don't want to be hospitalized. They put me on Librium, and i don't like how that makes me feel either. I also wanted to be put on Anta-buse (sp), and my doc said he doesn't prescribe that to patients of his.? I don't get it.
I'm lost and confused....but i think my little get away scared the crap out of me enough that i don't want to go through this again. I have no desire to drink right now, I'm too scared.
Sorry my mind is everywhere right now. Thanks again everyone.
Are you scared enough to go to a meeting? Are you scared enough to try something different? I was worried about you yesterday. Glad you're ok.
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Hey Jayde, sorry things are still so rough... as far as Antabuse, I know some docs won't prescribe it because of the controversial aspects, i.e. if you drink on it it really, really messes with your body. Some people don't even get that sick but its still really bad for you. So some docs are leery of prescribing it. I totally understand you not wanting to be separated from your son, but I also wonder if it might be better for him in the long run. Do you not trust your H with him? Just wondering since he (H) has definitely displayed some questionable behavior in the past. Whatever happens I hope you will find the help you need... I'm thinking of you and sending hugs and positive thoughts girl... post again when you can. Much love...
Hey Jayde: I am sorry I am posting so late. I have been really busy and not able to get on the computer much. But, honey, it sounds like you are really having a go at it.
Please email me. joyjoy7866@yahoo.com. There is something that I would like to share with you off the board.
Please email me. joyjoy7866@yahoo.com. There is something that I would like to share with you off the board.
hey Jayde--- sending smiles and hugs and encouragement
Hey Jayde.
Wow you should be proud girl - just going into the rehab was a huge step for you. OK so you panicked but that's OK, its still a step forward is how I see it.
I know you don't want to be away from your son, are your parents close by? Perhaps they can care for him while you are in rehab would that make you more comfortable.?
Wouldn't it be better to be away from him now physically for 1 short month than to be away from him emotionally and mentally for however many months, years it takes for you to get sober? I don't want to seem harsh cause I think you are a wonderful loving person but the sad thing with this disease is that there is a price to be paid - the question is what price and when do we pay it?
It may seem so hard for you as a mom to be away from your son like that for 30 days but if you aren't able to pay that price, the long-term price might be so much higher and so much worse than you even think right now.
Big hugs honey, trust in your HP and you will be guided to the right course.
Thinking of you
Idg.
Wow you should be proud girl - just going into the rehab was a huge step for you. OK so you panicked but that's OK, its still a step forward is how I see it.
I know you don't want to be away from your son, are your parents close by? Perhaps they can care for him while you are in rehab would that make you more comfortable.?
Wouldn't it be better to be away from him now physically for 1 short month than to be away from him emotionally and mentally for however many months, years it takes for you to get sober? I don't want to seem harsh cause I think you are a wonderful loving person but the sad thing with this disease is that there is a price to be paid - the question is what price and when do we pay it?
It may seem so hard for you as a mom to be away from your son like that for 30 days but if you aren't able to pay that price, the long-term price might be so much higher and so much worse than you even think right now.
Big hugs honey, trust in your HP and you will be guided to the right course.
Thinking of you
Idg.
There are numerous alternatives. Just recognizing that you're going to die if you don't do something is the first step--and admitting to the addictions--WHATEVER they are. Addictions are addictions--and there are gobs.
Try this: SOS or this: Reaching Up for Air
or look for other opportunities to rehab the best way YOU rehab. AA/NA works for some folks, too. Make the choice to do it. It's ALL about choice.
Try this: SOS or this: Reaching Up for Air
or look for other opportunities to rehab the best way YOU rehab. AA/NA works for some folks, too. Make the choice to do it. It's ALL about choice.
