I have posted on meth board I know but thought I would pop in here to fill you all in. Firstly thankyou all for your kind words of support and advice. It has been two week and four days for me clean. I cannot believe it, and it's getting easier. I am going longer without thinking about using and just feeling happier. I am so sure I will not go back, my life is so much better, I have feelings again. I feel back to my old self. I don't know what has changed this time round, I know I have prayed a few times (I am not very religious) I have passed my driving test, I don't know what the reason only I feel more positive and happier. No depression. I just hope it continues, it's up to me if it does I suppose. I am so grateful you wouldn't believe how much, to this board. This has been my only escape where I can talk as no one else knows in my life. It's the best. I hope everyone ends up taking control of their life instead of letting chemicals control us. It's brilliant. I konw I sound over the top, but I am so proud and happy and determined. The time just comes when you have had enough I suppose. Ok it's three plus years but I am here and still trying. I wish you all well, I really do. The support I have had on here is amazing, from people who are clean to those who aren't, to those who have others that aren't. It's unreal how caring no matter what everyones situation you all are. And I sincerly thank you and always will.
I am going to get ready now to go out with my partner for a meal, never wanted to do that b4 as was never hungry due to using, now I can't wait. You watch I will be posting in six or seven wk, saying help I have put on 4 stone. So what I odn't care as long as I am as happy. My daughter and I have started swimming twice a week, we have been shopping as we are having a halloween party, it started off for 5 children, it has escalated to 16 children, I am doing my room in a haunted house, we have loved shopping for all the goodies. The thought of that many children b4 in my house was as scary as halloween. Now I can't wait to let them all have such a good time. What can I say "on top of the world" I just really hope I don't go back, I can't see it as I know now there isn't such a thing as one last time. Speak to you all soon love from the mumbler.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Your post makes me happy. You sound so full of life and excitement for the future. You're enjoying all the little things in life again like they're brand new. I hope you do post back in four months and tell us you've put on 4 stone and are four times happier than you are today. You're doing it...you're getting your life back. Have a blast rediscovering yourself and your daughter...take in every single minute of how you're feeling today....and remember THIS IS NOW YOUR LIFE.
andr....you do sound like things are going great, i'm so happy to hear about your clean time....and it sounds like your life is really following suit...
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oooooooooooooooo WE SO needed that ,,myself really bad,,,you sound sooo positive about life,,all that candy,paper projects ,spakles,pumkins,goodies,parties,,sounds so fun recovery is so greatr,,yes I relasped,,,who am I to talk,,but im sober for today ,,and you no what,,by golly thats whats important ,,rite? you have a good life,,thankyou for your positive post,,I needed that today ..poopie
Wooooooo hooooooooooo Andrea. I bet she's asleep ya'll and that is a good thing. You know, she lives across the pond...............
poopie, you just hang in there sweetie, you'll be back up there again!
i'm just so happy to see you posting again, we missed your kind heart so much!!!!
i'm just so happy to see you posting again, we missed your kind heart so much!!!!
Thanks for the happy post! Good on you! Enjoy your party.
Kerry
Kerry
I am happy for you...you deserve very good moment! Love,Sharonnn
Hi everyone, poopie you will be posting that kind of posts shortly because you are still hoping and trying and thats what it takes. I don't want to put on four stone thank you, but if I do I do.
I went out last night with my partner we ended up going to a night club, I bumped into an old friend, she offered me some stuff and to be honest I said no, then five minutes later I said have you got much on you. And she said I got a bit that you can have. Anyway I did say no, I just said no I am not bothered about that stuff it's awful, don't know what I was thinking even asking you. (she isn't aware I used as a habit). So pretty pleased with myself for turning it down, especailly when I was out and in the atmosphere where I would have usually wanted to. We had a really good night, my boyfriend commented on how giddy I was and being pretty comical. He said today that he had a really good night and said he loved how much I was so loving towards him.
Got in and talked rubbish for ages, but had a good laugh. When I walked up to my door I slipped on some leaves and my face was covered in mud, which was quite amusing, didn't hurt myself, but it made us laugh.
I really think I have conquered it, I have no urge, although for a split second last night I thought about it. So glad I didn't.
I am going away on the 4th November for 3 nights, my daughter will be with her dad, we are not together no more, my partner has been with us since Nicole was 2 and they get on brilliant. Anyway I am going to spain with 24 other women on a 40th birthday bash, I cannot wait, I wasn't looking forward to it b4 because I felt a mess and wasn't in the mood for socialising. Now I can't wait. It will be good.
Anyway I don;t know what time it is "over the pond". It's 4pm here, I am stuffed I just ate lots of dinner and a big trifle. Dont' I tellyou all unnecessary things. Oh well as the BT advert says here "it's good to talk".
Take care all of you,
Well done bumps, you must be so proud. And thankyou all again
whoops mustn;'t forget my kissesxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I went out last night with my partner we ended up going to a night club, I bumped into an old friend, she offered me some stuff and to be honest I said no, then five minutes later I said have you got much on you. And she said I got a bit that you can have. Anyway I did say no, I just said no I am not bothered about that stuff it's awful, don't know what I was thinking even asking you. (she isn't aware I used as a habit). So pretty pleased with myself for turning it down, especailly when I was out and in the atmosphere where I would have usually wanted to. We had a really good night, my boyfriend commented on how giddy I was and being pretty comical. He said today that he had a really good night and said he loved how much I was so loving towards him.
Got in and talked rubbish for ages, but had a good laugh. When I walked up to my door I slipped on some leaves and my face was covered in mud, which was quite amusing, didn't hurt myself, but it made us laugh.
I really think I have conquered it, I have no urge, although for a split second last night I thought about it. So glad I didn't.
I am going away on the 4th November for 3 nights, my daughter will be with her dad, we are not together no more, my partner has been with us since Nicole was 2 and they get on brilliant. Anyway I am going to spain with 24 other women on a 40th birthday bash, I cannot wait, I wasn't looking forward to it b4 because I felt a mess and wasn't in the mood for socialising. Now I can't wait. It will be good.
Anyway I don;t know what time it is "over the pond". It's 4pm here, I am stuffed I just ate lots of dinner and a big trifle. Dont' I tellyou all unnecessary things. Oh well as the BT advert says here "it's good to talk".
Take care all of you,
Well done bumps, you must be so proud. And thankyou all again
whoops mustn;'t forget my kissesxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Good Job Andrea, now, try to stay out of the clubs. They can cause you much temptation and eventually, you may have a weak moment and cave in. Just better to stay on the safe side. Remember, new places, new people, new things................NO CLUBS, until you have much more clean time and then you must still be very careful. I do not do the club thing and I've found that since I stopped going that I don't even have the desire to go anymore. I just don't like to be around those kind of people anymore. You know, they are all drunked up and high on something and it is just a bad atmosphere to me...Take Care.....
HI Pam, you are so right I know, it is just a bit awquard as my partner is not aware about my habit, so to all of a sudden say no would be a bit strange. However I did say last night that it was a bit pointless going because although we had a good laugh with each other, we could have done that in the restaurant. And we also said we are not going out for a while and saving for christmas. So I will be staying away for a bit. I hope I never give in to temptation, I can't say no I won't ever because I am sure alot of people have said that. I do feel positive about not using and will continue to take every day as it comes and enjoy. Thanks for your advice.xxxxxxxxxx hope you alright
