My name is Kristin and i'm 14. My mother was once a user of Meth , now she is in rehab. Now that my mother is in rehab we hardly ever get to see each other. When she was on drugs I seen her physically but not mentally. I feel like my mother has missed out on part of my life , and we can't ever go back and change that. Meth has Destroyed my life , and I didn't even use the drug , my mother did. Some people say the things they do have no impacked on other people , but those people are wrong. Maybe at one point and time my mother thought that , and now look at where and what her addiction has done to her. She has missed out on part of my life and hers.Her drug use and the environment I grew up in has caused me to mature faster.I think it has made me a stronger person.Most people don't understand drugs and how dangerous and addictive they are. Many think drugs are just a game at first it may seem as a game , but then it becomes more than just a game or feel of the high it becomes a addiction. Addiction only leads to three things jail , mental hospital , or death. That is if u don't get help with ur addiction , but my mother is getting help she is changing her ways and she is becoming a stronger person so she can fight the craving of Meth. She has been in rehab for a year now, and I'm verry proud of her.She is on the right path now , and I pray for her to stay that way. Although my mother did drugs we had a bond and to this day we still have that special bond and we always will.
God bless you all !!
~Love Kristin~
You're right Kristin , I'm glad for both of you she is seeking help. Use each others strength to help her stay off meth . You know first hand why drug use is bad , it is a hard, tough lesson. The past is over and done with , nothing can change what has been done, we can change the "right now" and the future , by how we look at things, choose to handle what is happening , and knowing the future is in the decisions we make today. Addiction isnt as simple as saying "they are bad, dont do them" , I guess what I am trying to say is dont condemn your mom for the past, show her your love for her now, and for her trying to deal with her problem .From this moment on, you have the ability to dwell in the hurt of the past, or the the relationship with your mom you always wanted. Your mom will always have a desire to use meth, your support and love and also faith in her will do lots to help her stay away from it . It probably wont make sense to you to say that by constantly bringing up the past and bitching at her for what has already happened ,...will only make matters worse. Just trust me , I've been there enough times to know . The pain and low self esteem an addict feels by their using , ends up making us use more because we use to escape. There is no wrongdoing , there is no hurt , or pain if we can make our minds go faster than what we feel , No it isnt right to do that , the sad part is , that is what we do , even when we know it is wrong. Meth has that kind of control . what is stronger ?? Love, compassion , in their pure strong form . Which means when your mom is staying clean you love her like there is no tomorrow, there was no yesterday . Yet if she continues to use , you have to be tough enough to let her know you will not accept it . Please dont take her using , personal . It isnt that she loves meth more than you , meth has a way of taking over us . I've read some of your posts before , I can see the pain in what you write , read this site so you have a better understanding of meth and how it affects us. http://www.kci.org/meth_info/sites/...meth_psycho.htm with love and respect
Kristin, This is mom...........I love you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You are a remarkable young lady and you are so very strong. You never cease to amaze me with the words you write. I am so very proud of you and as we have talked before you know that I can only pray that my experences with addiction can serve you in a way that you have the understanding and never ever touch drugs. If that is the case none of my past has been in vain........I love you baby ............I hope soon i can be home with you for good. God blesses us in so many ways..........you by far are my greatest blessing.................
