hi. i am 15 and i am suicidal. i have been in mental hospitals because of trying to kill myself. so what should i do. i get all stressed out over e verything and nothing helps me except slitting my wrists.. what should i do?
Have someone find you a really good psychiatrist that you really like even if it means trying many first.Depression is a very treatable temporary illness.
Please don't give up and keep in touch.
Good luck,
Lucia
Please don't give up and keep in touch.
Good luck,
Lucia
I hope you are still with us. Suicide is certainly too much of a permanent solution to a temporary problem, no matter what that may be. Counselors, pastors, coaches, they are all good to talk to about this stuff. You have not committed anything bad enough that warrants a death penalty. Please don't find yourself guilty of that yet. Wait a few days, weeks, months...this too shall pass. Prayin for ya.
Know that somehow you are loved. Perhaps things will get better and someoneelse is waiting for you. Think of that person. Give yourself permission to dream.You are young like I once was. There is time and tomorrow there may be a fineday for you - just for you. Walk a lot. Please stay for there is a reason for youto be here. You have a right to be here and your own person even if you weredeeply hurt. It is not your fault - you may be able to forgive the hurt later in lifebut now you are just being able to see. Your post is evidence of that. Life hasboth joy and pain. For some reason many go through much pain. Do not askwhy quite yet. Be with others as you are able.
People who are suicidal think only of how to fix their problems, they do not think about how much pain the people left behind feel nor the gilt they feel even if it's not there fault. My father shot himself in out home 2 days before his 41st b-day, untill now I never knew you could miss someone so much!!!!!!! I think about my father every day and it makes me sad but, the real pain comes from seeing everyone else (like my mother and sister) that is also hurt, and the feeling of what did I do wrong????? undefined
Please post a note for us and tell us how you are. Try to find the hope that
waits for you here. After all, why would anyone respond to you without that.
What makes you feel the world would be better off without you? What is it
that triggers these thoughts - opens that dark box for you? Is there a light
in the room of your suffering - dim as it may be at times? I can imagine the
kind of pit you were in because I was there although at an older age and
likely for a different reason. So I am not making all this up. Do you know
that you can tell a Teddy Bear anything? I talked to one and I was thirty years
old at the time. Get a Teddy bear. And most of all try not to fear yourself
or others too much if they are trying their best. If you are being abused in
any way you are to tell an adult someone you can trust. Such a person like
a Doctor or Social Worker may be able to do more than just give advice.
waits for you here. After all, why would anyone respond to you without that.
What makes you feel the world would be better off without you? What is it
that triggers these thoughts - opens that dark box for you? Is there a light
in the room of your suffering - dim as it may be at times? I can imagine the
kind of pit you were in because I was there although at an older age and
likely for a different reason. So I am not making all this up. Do you know
that you can tell a Teddy Bear anything? I talked to one and I was thirty years
old at the time. Get a Teddy bear. And most of all try not to fear yourself
or others too much if they are trying their best. If you are being abused in
any way you are to tell an adult someone you can trust. Such a person like
a Doctor or Social Worker may be able to do more than just give advice.
Hello, (hugs you tightly)...My name is Cassie. I'm 19, and a freshman in college. Plz don't think suicide is your only answer, okay? My honest advice is to get involved on this site. There are soo many people who would love to talk to you and help you that it's just incredible (myself included) I'd love to chat w/ you..and it doesnt' have to just be about how you feel, we can talk about school, sports, anything you want! I lost one of my best friends to suicide and it was the worst thing in the world, and although I don't know you, I don't want to lose you either! Plz keep in touch w/ me and reply back to me soon..I'm usually on the Pill board, b/c I'm dealing w/ some stuff about my parents, but if you don't find me I'll try to get in touch w/ you too, okay?
Plz, plz plz plz plz don't kill yourself, okay?
Good night and I hope to talk to you again soon.
- Cassie-
Plz, plz plz plz plz don't kill yourself, okay?
Good night and I hope to talk to you again soon.
- Cassie-
i am very suicile..to but psychitrist dont work no mattewr what people say they just get you more angrey and more depressed..wut you need is to find a stranger ona site like this your age... and that does hings like you.... and feelis like you.. and you should talk to her/him... maybe that will help...
ive contemplated suicide HUNDREDS of times...
attempted around 4...
almost succeeded ONCE...
actually wanted to die NEVER!
if you havnt actually killed yourself yet, you're doing VERY good! i wuz damn close to it 2 times, and one time, my uncle came into tha bathroom cuz the water from tha tub wuz runnin out into tha kitchen, i had layed in tha tub, put 7 cinderblocks stacked up on my chest, so even if i WANTED to get up, i COULDNT... my uncle saw tha water, came in, and started tossing them off me like they were 17 pieces of paper, i wuz unconcious for this though, my aunt told me about it. she said he had never moved so fast in his life. anyway, tha doc said that if my uncle had taken 3-5 minutes longer to get me out of that water, i would have died.
i KNOW that in tha back of my mind, there wuz alwayz SOMETHING that kept me from doing it, there wuz one time, i had a .45 to my temple... now, anyone who knows anything about guns can assure you, if i pulled that trigger, it wulda been over before i heard tha blast... that bullet wulda blew a hole in tha OPPOSITE side of my head ATLEAST tha size of a half dollar. BUT, something kept me from doing it. iono wut it wuz, iono how it came to me, but for some reason i just put tha gun down, and called my mom and told her to come pick me up.
i really think that chu are just going through alot of hard times, and dealing with alot of things, but you really DONT wanna die, it jus seems liek that is tha ONLY way to get yourself out of tha mess you were born into...
see, i look at it like this, you said you're 15... jus think, 3 yrs, and all that stress will be GONE!... i jus turned 18 in february, and around 85-90% of tha stress i had wuz lifted right off my shoulders. i wuznt suicidal at that time though, i havn't actually been suicidal since around 14-15, which is how old you are now. that cinderblock incident wuz tha most recent, and it wuz tha last one, that wuz when i REALLY realised i didnt wanna die.
if you need someone to talk to about your problems or anything at all... you can email me at... siCCzZ@netscape.net or even give me your AIM s/n if you have one, and i can talk to you there. im good at helping all my friends with issues they are having, i would be glad to help you out as well.
just consider tha ppl who care about chu. you wuld drive them to tha point you are at now. ive seen it happen. i have a few friends who have actually killed themselves. one of my friends went to work withj his father, he owned a sporting good store, he said he said he wuz going in tha back to play bball, he didnt come back for a half an hour, so his father went out to check on him, he hung himself from tha rim of tha net.
here is a quote that i live by... cuz it does apply to me...
"i once contemplated suicide...
and woulda tried...
but when i held that nine...
all i culd see wuz my mama's eyes..."
~ 2pac
i remade it and put it in a song i wrote...
"thoughta suicide many times...
many tries...
held a fourty-five...
but culdnt lose tha sight of my mother's eyes..."
just think of how you would feel if someone you loved, did it, and how you'd react to it.
attempted around 4...
almost succeeded ONCE...
actually wanted to die NEVER!
if you havnt actually killed yourself yet, you're doing VERY good! i wuz damn close to it 2 times, and one time, my uncle came into tha bathroom cuz the water from tha tub wuz runnin out into tha kitchen, i had layed in tha tub, put 7 cinderblocks stacked up on my chest, so even if i WANTED to get up, i COULDNT... my uncle saw tha water, came in, and started tossing them off me like they were 17 pieces of paper, i wuz unconcious for this though, my aunt told me about it. she said he had never moved so fast in his life. anyway, tha doc said that if my uncle had taken 3-5 minutes longer to get me out of that water, i would have died.
i KNOW that in tha back of my mind, there wuz alwayz SOMETHING that kept me from doing it, there wuz one time, i had a .45 to my temple... now, anyone who knows anything about guns can assure you, if i pulled that trigger, it wulda been over before i heard tha blast... that bullet wulda blew a hole in tha OPPOSITE side of my head ATLEAST tha size of a half dollar. BUT, something kept me from doing it. iono wut it wuz, iono how it came to me, but for some reason i just put tha gun down, and called my mom and told her to come pick me up.
i really think that chu are just going through alot of hard times, and dealing with alot of things, but you really DONT wanna die, it jus seems liek that is tha ONLY way to get yourself out of tha mess you were born into...
see, i look at it like this, you said you're 15... jus think, 3 yrs, and all that stress will be GONE!... i jus turned 18 in february, and around 85-90% of tha stress i had wuz lifted right off my shoulders. i wuznt suicidal at that time though, i havn't actually been suicidal since around 14-15, which is how old you are now. that cinderblock incident wuz tha most recent, and it wuz tha last one, that wuz when i REALLY realised i didnt wanna die.
if you need someone to talk to about your problems or anything at all... you can email me at... siCCzZ@netscape.net or even give me your AIM s/n if you have one, and i can talk to you there. im good at helping all my friends with issues they are having, i would be glad to help you out as well.
just consider tha ppl who care about chu. you wuld drive them to tha point you are at now. ive seen it happen. i have a few friends who have actually killed themselves. one of my friends went to work withj his father, he owned a sporting good store, he said he said he wuz going in tha back to play bball, he didnt come back for a half an hour, so his father went out to check on him, he hung himself from tha rim of tha net.
here is a quote that i live by... cuz it does apply to me...
"i once contemplated suicide...
and woulda tried...
but when i held that nine...
all i culd see wuz my mama's eyes..."
~ 2pac
i remade it and put it in a song i wrote...
"thoughta suicide many times...
many tries...
held a fourty-five...
but culdnt lose tha sight of my mother's eyes..."
just think of how you would feel if someone you loved, did it, and how you'd react to it.
hi i used to cut myself all the time and i ended up in a group home cause of it... its not easy to deal with the crap in your life and talking to people alot of the times dont help... try writting in a journal or something if you get the urge to cut try cutting a stuffed animal at first to get your anger out... that helped me....
i am also suicidal and am thinking of doin it tonight
Don't do it!!!! You have more to live for than you know! Find someone that you can talk to...get help for yourself... and years from now youwill look back at this difficult time and be glad that you found help.
Live today for me...a complete stranger who thinks the world of you.
Live today for me...a complete stranger who thinks the world of you.
deadgurl and spinning,
Are you still with us???
Hope you can share how you are doing it!
Hope
Are you still with us???
Hope you can share how you are doing it!
Hope
Wanted to share that I know the feeling and hang on, the suicidal feeling lasts for awhile but it subsides. Found a helpful book in the library "Teen Torment" by Patricia Evans, it is helpful for stuff going on at home and school. So far I have learned that my addiction and hopelessness come from an abuse. The more I research it the better and have found there are alot of us out there. At this time I am looking for a support group. Also getting off of sugar and eating mostly protein, water, veggies, and running seems to be helping. To me it feels like I am sinking in quicksand and digging out of the quagmire. I wish the pain that is inside would be more visiable (like a broken arm or something). The only way we show our pain is through our addictions. Keep trying and know that you are not alone in that quicksand. A girl that hears your pain, Deborah
DeadGirl and Spinning,
I hope that you found someone to talk to. I wish I could reach out and help both of you. I have felt the same way that you are feeling right now but suicide will not fix your problems. You need to not worry and go one day at a time. I hope that you are not hurting yourselves or anything. I will be willing to talk to either of you if it will help you. If I told you my life, you would think I was making it up. You may not think there are people out there who care about you but I am sure that there is, you found me a complete stranger. I am sending both of you a hug and please hang on. If you want to chat later just let me know, I am willing to help you. Lisa
I hope that you found someone to talk to. I wish I could reach out and help both of you. I have felt the same way that you are feeling right now but suicide will not fix your problems. You need to not worry and go one day at a time. I hope that you are not hurting yourselves or anything. I will be willing to talk to either of you if it will help you. If I told you my life, you would think I was making it up. You may not think there are people out there who care about you but I am sure that there is, you found me a complete stranger. I am sending both of you a hug and please hang on. If you want to chat later just let me know, I am willing to help you. Lisa
Those suicidal don't do it!!! As terrible as your experience on this planet may be, it will pass and you will become a more enlightened soul!! I honestly believe, if we do something has haneous as this to our souls, we come back to this planet only to live it all over again - do you really want that?? I certainly don't!! I was suicidal when I was a teen and it was mainly because I was crying for some attention. Just someone to love me, even though I was surrounded by loved ones, it was the inner love for myself that I lacked. If you have any spiritual inclinations, USE THEM!!! A very good phrase to use when you are down is to repeat over and over "I am God and I love myself". We are all part of a bigger thing, this reality we are living, is only just part of the experience.
Good luck and love yourself!!
Good luck and love yourself!!
I have been in that dark place following recovery from my first bout with depression i wrote a book WOUNDED BODY_HEALING SPIRIT you'll find the reviews at brundagepublishing.com I know the book will help you God Bless John T Senka
i get suicidal also, but i have two kids that keep me from carrying it through. it seems to be a very selfish thing to do, but i understand the pain of living everyday. you need another obsession. do you like to paint? anything outdoors?
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