Hi all: I haven't posted recently becuase I've been somewhere...I took 60 1 mg.Clonopin to try to kill myself.I spent, for the first time in my life, a couple of days in a psych ward.
I dn't even understand it myself, because I have been a pretty balanced person in my life, successful and all of that. However, and not to make excuses, all of the changes, and living with someone who is Bipolar, has driven me to this excess. I wish that I were flexible, but I'm not. Hurricane Katrina has disrupted my whole life.
I am now committed to taking my antidepressant, and understanding the full need to do this. I also am weaning myself off of the Klonopin with the help of a psychiatrist.
My husband does not understand why I need to talk to all of you, but I know that YOU KNOW.
Hi Connie. As someone who has overdosed multiple times I am glad you only did it the once and got help right away... Not one time did I get admitted anywhere even though I had taken a large dose of warfarin slashed my wrists and had a developing drink problem. They got me arrested instead for breach of the peace...
I have BPD so have some understanding of what it's like to live with a 'mental' illness although I am of the belief BPD's just altered thought patterns...
Anyway. Keep on with the meds... I tried anti depressants and went mad. Totally not the right thing for me but if they do you good... keep on.
We all support you.
Izzy X
I have BPD so have some understanding of what it's like to live with a 'mental' illness although I am of the belief BPD's just altered thought patterns...
Anyway. Keep on with the meds... I tried anti depressants and went mad. Totally not the right thing for me but if they do you good... keep on.
We all support you.
Izzy X
Connie, I hope you will start taking care of yourself, remember the most important person for you to take care of is you. I understand depression and stress very well (I have certainly been there, plus my mom was plagued by chronic depression), but when you feel that, please seek help rather than take matters in your own hands in that way. There's always someone out there who cares, you've always got your friends in cyberland. I'm very glad you weren't successful in your attempt...
Izzy you too girl, we need you to stick around... the world would be a little less special without you in it. Remember how much you have to give, both of you... stay in touch and post when you can.
Izzy you too girl, we need you to stick around... the world would be a little less special without you in it. Remember how much you have to give, both of you... stay in touch and post when you can.
Connie, Cunning, baffling and powerful this addiction to alcoholism, isn't it. I know when I was on antii-depressants I was advised not to drink. I did anyway...I eventually went "out of my box", didn't end up in an institution though, however I got sober ~ I know alcohol is a depressant, and for me once I stopped drinking the depression lifted. All the best to you.
Izzy, I'm sponsoring a young gal who has been diagnosed with BPD and she has tried to commit suicide off and on since she was 9 years old. Can you describe what BPD is like and are there any suggestions you might have?
Izzy, I'm sponsoring a young gal who has been diagnosed with BPD and she has tried to commit suicide off and on since she was 9 years old. Can you describe what BPD is like and are there any suggestions you might have?
Hey everyone i know for me suicide was always an option fed by fear and fuelled by alcohol. I had one serious go at 18 and when it didn't work i was so surprised i thought fu*k i can't even do that right. Every other time it entered my head it was due to fear and it usually came on in a rush effect during drinking, but once you are dead thats it. I had every reason in the world to die in my mind and numerous people to blame. But at the end of the day i liked attention good or bad and ok at the funeral i would of got heaps but thats all.
It just shows how powerful the disease of alcoholism or addiction was in me when death was the easier option to getting sober. I want to be alive and sober so i can die trying to be a positive person in this world instead of suiciding because my mind, addiction and fear won.
Cunning, Baffling and Powerful the bstard.
Light and love Zac
It just shows how powerful the disease of alcoholism or addiction was in me when death was the easier option to getting sober. I want to be alive and sober so i can die trying to be a positive person in this world instead of suiciding because my mind, addiction and fear won.
Cunning, Baffling and Powerful the bstard.
Light and love Zac
Thank God I never succeeded at my "half-hearted" suicide attempts, surely, I now know I would've been killing the wrong person....today is so different, in fact, I actually like myself and those around me too!
(((Connie)))
I was thinking about you the other day and was going to post but got sidetracked with work. Honey, my arms are so scarred up from numerous suicide attempts when I was drinking. That was before I started trying to kill myself with pills. You aren't alone with the suicide attemts by any means. Since I got sober, suicide has never even crossed my mind. My depression is gone. Give it a try. Sobriety is a wonderful thing. Did you find any meetings near you?
I was thinking about you the other day and was going to post but got sidetracked with work. Honey, my arms are so scarred up from numerous suicide attempts when I was drinking. That was before I started trying to kill myself with pills. You aren't alone with the suicide attemts by any means. Since I got sober, suicide has never even crossed my mind. My depression is gone. Give it a try. Sobriety is a wonderful thing. Did you find any meetings near you?
