Amy,
I am so sorry you are hurting. You know you are doing the right thing by reaching out. Let your friends talk to you, hit that meeting, tell on yourself to your husband and flush those pills. You know that bottle is not enough pills. I completely understand wanting band-aid. But Amy, pills are not a band aid, they are more like an infection, adding salt to the wound. With all you are going through, you do not want to add pills to the list of things to try and deal with. I'm sure you remember how awful the merry-go-round was before when you got clean. It's only going to be 1000 times worse.
You are a very wise person, and I know I'm not telling you anything you don't already know. But, I know how logic goes right out the window when those pills are under our noses.
Getting through is a b****, but unfortunately it is the only way out. You will get through, you just have to keep doing the next right thing. It may feel like an eternity, but you will get through. It may not seem like it, but you are and you will get through.
Please pick up the phone and let someone help.
I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers tonight.
Much love,
Atlas
Amy...
I hope you read this board...I know you aren't answering the phone and I know there is nobody that can stop you from using, if that's what you want to do, then you will do it....but, when you are finally done and want help, you are going to have to be the one to reach out and accept all the hands that are extended your way....
The only way through is through, and maybe it does hurt too much but sometimes we have to face that hurt in order to keep living....there are a lot of people that care about you but they cannot do it for you....
You are in my prayers, Amy...it is the only thing that I am capable of doing for you and that is praying so that is what I will do.....
Take care,
Stacey
I hope you read this board...I know you aren't answering the phone and I know there is nobody that can stop you from using, if that's what you want to do, then you will do it....but, when you are finally done and want help, you are going to have to be the one to reach out and accept all the hands that are extended your way....
The only way through is through, and maybe it does hurt too much but sometimes we have to face that hurt in order to keep living....there are a lot of people that care about you but they cannot do it for you....
You are in my prayers, Amy...it is the only thing that I am capable of doing for you and that is praying so that is what I will do.....
Take care,
Stacey
amy, the will of God will never take you to where the grace of God will not keep you.
if you would care to talk with me i'll send you my number via email dsam2u@comcast.net.
namaste' dear one ~
sammy
if you would care to talk with me i'll send you my number via email dsam2u@comcast.net.
namaste' dear one ~
sammy
oh sammy.
that is just so precious...the will of God will not take you where the grace of God cannot keep you....
that is a tremendous statement...i know it was written for Amy, but I sure needed to hear it too....thank you so much. i am tucking that one away in my heart for everyday use!
sarah
that is just so precious...the will of God will not take you where the grace of God cannot keep you....
that is a tremendous statement...i know it was written for Amy, but I sure needed to hear it too....thank you so much. i am tucking that one away in my heart for everyday use!
sarah
Amy;
I just got off the phone with Jim Leyland and he's gonna come over and kick you a**..
Just kidding obviously. Life just sux sometimes. And yet somehow we pull thru,,,a day at a time. I'm amazed at your honesty and your desire to push ahead a day at a time. Keep posting...it helps yourself, and others as well.
Jim
I just got off the phone with Jim Leyland and he's gonna come over and kick you a**..
Just kidding obviously. Life just sux sometimes. And yet somehow we pull thru,,,a day at a time. I'm amazed at your honesty and your desire to push ahead a day at a time. Keep posting...it helps yourself, and others as well.
Jim
((((((((((((((((((Amy))))))))))))))))))))
i am so sorry your feeling like this..........
i am so glad that you posted to get this off your chest..........
your really blessed to have the loving friends that you have here..........
they really really love you, amy...........i hope that you pisck up the phone and talk to your freinds..........
i do understand no wanting to talk, but sometimes weh we just open up and grab the hand that is reaching out to us.........our hearts get lighter.
God Bless you and AVA and i must correct you amy.........
God gave an angel to another angel...........YOU.
so that you two angels would have each other........
i love you
God Bless you honey..........
ps..............your a very pretty lady.
thumper
i am so sorry your feeling like this..........
i am so glad that you posted to get this off your chest..........
your really blessed to have the loving friends that you have here..........
they really really love you, amy...........i hope that you pisck up the phone and talk to your freinds..........
i do understand no wanting to talk, but sometimes weh we just open up and grab the hand that is reaching out to us.........our hearts get lighter.
God Bless you and AVA and i must correct you amy.........
God gave an angel to another angel...........YOU.
so that you two angels would have each other........
i love you
God Bless you honey..........
ps..............your a very pretty lady.
thumper
Amy,
I sent you an e-mail yesturday, I hope you got it. Just wanted you to know that I am here for you. If you ever need to talk you have my #.
Take care Redd.
Rae
I sent you an e-mail yesturday, I hope you got it. Just wanted you to know that I am here for you. If you ever need to talk you have my #.
Take care Redd.
Rae
Redd:
You are in my heart, always.
Love,
~Rachel
You are in my heart, always.
Love,
~Rachel
I got your email Amy...please, no regrets, k? You put it out here because people here love you and you know you are safe here. You deserve that. Let the people of this board hold you up just as you have held others in the past.
I'm going to be fine. You know how damn tough I am.
I love you dear girl and we'll chat soon.
Talk to you on the other side.
Lisa
I'm going to be fine. You know how damn tough I am.
I love you dear girl and we'll chat soon.
Talk to you on the other side.
Lisa
Redd,
They say that time heals all wounds. I sure hope so. I can only imagine how hard it continues to be for you. The entire month of November was pure torment for me. I spent most of it crying. I would like to get to the point of where I celebrate my Sister's life instead of grieving for her but I'm not quite there yet.
I wish you only the best Redd and I continue to hold you and your family in my prayers.
God bless,
Sharon
They say that time heals all wounds. I sure hope so. I can only imagine how hard it continues to be for you. The entire month of November was pure torment for me. I spent most of it crying. I would like to get to the point of where I celebrate my Sister's life instead of grieving for her but I'm not quite there yet.
I wish you only the best Redd and I continue to hold you and your family in my prayers.
God bless,
Sharon
