Thats all I have to say, the pull was too strong. I suck and I am mad and I suck.......Sorry my family sorry to my self and I am very sorry to my kids whom I love so much but they deserve so much more than I can ever be... I keep going to deep and I dont think I can get out this time. Who knows anymore.
Only you know the answer to that one Lixie. I had to find my bottom, Kat had to find hers, and so on and so on....at some point, you will either get it or die. It's that simple. Are you willing to go to any lengths to get clean and stay that way?
You don't get to beat yourself up but you do get to do something about it. Glad you're back...Cowgirl
You don't get to beat yourself up but you do get to do something about it. Glad you're back...Cowgirl
Lixie, this pill racket is sure a tough one. NOt impossible, but it definately gives us a run for our money.
How about trying sub? I relapsed so many times, even after rehab. Why not give it a shot?
I know it can be better without sub; it is another drug. but it gives you the chance to learn new skills and for your brain to heal.
Shame and guilt get us nowhere; you should be so proud of coming back.
Did you try AA or NA before? AA was crucial to my recovery in the beginning. There is no way I could have made it without that support and accountability.
Hang in there, okay?
How about trying sub? I relapsed so many times, even after rehab. Why not give it a shot?
I know it can be better without sub; it is another drug. but it gives you the chance to learn new skills and for your brain to heal.
Shame and guilt get us nowhere; you should be so proud of coming back.
Did you try AA or NA before? AA was crucial to my recovery in the beginning. There is no way I could have made it without that support and accountability.
Hang in there, okay?
Hey Lixie, just brush yourself off and jump back on the wagon. I know exactly how you feel tho, I have been there and done that more times than you can imagine, but that is the easy way out, not the right way, but the easy way. Stay strong, I am here for you if you ever want to talk. Dawn
Its my belief that with the education and support a good and I mean good Doctor we don't have to hit that proverbial "rock bottom". I think it is a myth.
You know your addict and if you buy into the disease aspect of it. You need to get yourself into treatment and get help. If you had cancer or diabetes or HIV you would seek help..because it would save your life.
Addiction is a disease! More of the medical community are treating it as such. Not so even 20 years ago. If you were an addict you were an immoral stupid person with no self control. Not so now. This is a disease that kills and if left untreated it will!
You know your addict and if you buy into the disease aspect of it. You need to get yourself into treatment and get help. If you had cancer or diabetes or HIV you would seek help..because it would save your life.
Addiction is a disease! More of the medical community are treating it as such. Not so even 20 years ago. If you were an addict you were an immoral stupid person with no self control. Not so now. This is a disease that kills and if left untreated it will!
Hey,
Don't be too hard on yourself. In my opinion, you didn't screw up. Thats what we do, we're addicts/alcoholics. Using is second nature to us. Staying clean/sober is a foreign way of living for us and it takes work. Saying no the the "pull" sometimes isn't as easy as "normal" people think it is. "Just Say No"
is a Bull**it quote. It simply isn't always that easy. I think it's all a matter of wether or not one truely has just had enough and the only one who knows that is the addict him/herself. For me, it just doesn't look appealing anymore and I simply don't miss any of it. So in my case, for today, saying no comes easy.
That doesn't mean I won't wake up tomorrow and suddenly have an obsession.
If I do, I hope I'd think of the consequences, and remember where I been, and pick up the phone and hit a meeting. I'll keep you in my prayers and pray the pain of using becomes greater than the pain of getting clean.
Take care,
Bob
Don't be too hard on yourself. In my opinion, you didn't screw up. Thats what we do, we're addicts/alcoholics. Using is second nature to us. Staying clean/sober is a foreign way of living for us and it takes work. Saying no the the "pull" sometimes isn't as easy as "normal" people think it is. "Just Say No"
is a Bull**it quote. It simply isn't always that easy. I think it's all a matter of wether or not one truely has just had enough and the only one who knows that is the addict him/herself. For me, it just doesn't look appealing anymore and I simply don't miss any of it. So in my case, for today, saying no comes easy.
That doesn't mean I won't wake up tomorrow and suddenly have an obsession.
If I do, I hope I'd think of the consequences, and remember where I been, and pick up the phone and hit a meeting. I'll keep you in my prayers and pray the pain of using becomes greater than the pain of getting clean.
Take care,
Bob
