CONGRATULATIONS!!!
A great, if a little early, christmas present!!!
Thanks a million everyone for your replies....they really mean a lot.....and thanks Lacey for thinking of me today.All went well as first days go.....the place is run by one guy with 5 others 6 now with me.....and these guys as Diff said are really true craftsmen....you wanna see what they can do with a piece of metal.....pure art...some of it.Its the type of place where everyone mucks in together and all seem like sound fellas....il be doin a lot of on the job training as what they do is so varied....but thats the best way i think.....rather than staring at similar drawings day after day as in my last job.Another bonus is if all goes well after the first 3mnths...i get a raise which make my wage respectable......so the only way is up!!!.
Again thanks all.....i havnt been this positive bout anything like this for a long,long time.....all the best to you all.........Davey
Again thanks all.....i havnt been this positive bout anything like this for a long,long time.....all the best to you all.........Davey
Hey, nice one!! It sounds good. Great for you to feel positive about something too. It will boost your self esteem no end. Big well done to ya!!
Thanks ....Lacey ...yeah i kinda do feel 10ft. tall at the moment....but im realistic and have to stick with it ....there will be the usual ups&downs but thats life obviously.Im also coming up to my 2nd xmas without heroin or benzos....although im still on a l/t methadone script.....and to be truefull the old chesnut of one lil treat has entered my head....but with the job and my 8yr.old girl....i think i can manage another festive season without doin drugs.
Take care and thanks for the input .............Davey
Take care and thanks for the input .............Davey
Davey, it's funny what happens around xmas. It is my second sober christmas too, but just as last year the idea keeps popping into my head of a drink or a drug. I walked past a man in the street today and he had a can of special brew. I realised I was looking longingly at the flippin thing! Special brew was my lover almost, oh that feeling of half a can of that straight down your neck in one. Crazy. But I think the whole energy surrounding xmas creates pressure and we pick up on the party vibe with the natural reaction of a little 'treat'. Sad sods that we are can't do it though!! Ha ha!!
How much methadone are you on? Flippin amazin that you ain't done the smack or benzos for this long though. BIG well done, and I hope you can get through xmas without drugs. You deserve it because you have come this far.
How much methadone are you on? Flippin amazin that you ain't done the smack or benzos for this long though. BIG well done, and I hope you can get through xmas without drugs. You deserve it because you have come this far.
Hey, you just made me realise it's my 3rd clean Xmas. Personally, Xmas provides all the justification I need to stay clean. Xmas on gear? Such a horrible experience - try scoring on Xmas day! Sitting in the dark and cold with nothing but a cold can of beans for company, coz I just didn't have the cash to top up the meter. The minutes seem like hours, just waiting for it all to be over, hoping against hope that one of my dealers is feeling full of festive spirit, and will a) answer his b****** phone, and b) give me a lay on. Seeing all the happy people, on the other side of the glass, enjoying their dinner, playing charades, opening presents, in warm, brightly lit houses. Hey, now I got my own xmas lights up, and my gas and electric get paid by direct debit, so I don't have to watch the meter like a nervous bird. And instead of ringing the switched off phones of local dealers, I'll be calling my family, wishing them happy xmas, thanking them for their cards. And to Hell with it, I'm gonna go to M&S, and buy some fancy mince pies, and I can't decide between a goose or a pork crackling joint, so I'll cook both. And get some smelly cheese and crackers. No, my dilemmas are so much nicer now I ain't on gear.
And if it's just me and my little girl (I've got righteous anger flowing in my veins, because that stupid man is being a prick again, and at the moment, I couldn't care less where he decides to spend xmas), she's all the family I need, and after I've put the roast in the oven, I'll spend the whole day playing with her, and I'll think of all those parents who can't be with their kids, for whatever reason, and be grateful for every second.
love
Diff xxx
And if it's just me and my little girl (I've got righteous anger flowing in my veins, because that stupid man is being a prick again, and at the moment, I couldn't care less where he decides to spend xmas), she's all the family I need, and after I've put the roast in the oven, I'll spend the whole day playing with her, and I'll think of all those parents who can't be with their kids, for whatever reason, and be grateful for every second.
love
Diff xxx
Alrite....Lacey im on 70ml.a day ....also im in the lucky position that i pick up my methadone twice monthly........reason being in my last job i worked alternate shifts....but now that my hrs.are more steady i dont think il rock the boat and just collect every 13days ads usual...and also ive been on it over 7yrs..Long time ....i know but i feel its a safety net for me.....ive got i think a very addictive personality....so i just get along fine with the legal drug the clinic dispenses..
Qustion time Lacey....i presume yer in the U.K....wherabouts???and what was yer drug of choice apart from shotgunning cans of Brew?Get back to us and it was nice to chat to ya.Take care.........Davey
Qustion time Lacey....i presume yer in the U.K....wherabouts???and what was yer drug of choice apart from shotgunning cans of Brew?Get back to us and it was nice to chat to ya.Take care.........Davey
Diff,
You can think of my son and his dad who wont spend christmas together cause he is in a rehab clinic. I hope, for my son's sake it is worth every minute he is there!
Much love to you all and continued blessings,
C
You can think of my son and his dad who wont spend christmas together cause he is in a rehab clinic. I hope, for my son's sake it is worth every minute he is there!
Much love to you all and continued blessings,
C
Hi Davey! Yep, I am in the UK, Birmingham to be precise. I guess you are in the UK too, where are ya?
With the script, you've gotta do what you've gotta do. Don't think it matters how long you are on it, you sound like you are doing well, what with the job and all.
Well, my drugs were special brew, brandy, and weed in the final days. That was after sixteen years of alcohol and drug abuse - speed, ecstacy, crack, LSD, mushrooms and other stuff I tried.
Been sober now for twenty two months this Friday!! Tried AA and Aquarius but they didn't really work for me. I wanted to work the program and do the steps to achieve full recovery though. Guess what, I went to NA tonight and I felt like I had come home, it was absolutley fantastic! I loved it, I am hooked. Got my NA welcome keyring and am gonna go to all the meetings I can.
Do you go to NA?
With the script, you've gotta do what you've gotta do. Don't think it matters how long you are on it, you sound like you are doing well, what with the job and all.
Well, my drugs were special brew, brandy, and weed in the final days. That was after sixteen years of alcohol and drug abuse - speed, ecstacy, crack, LSD, mushrooms and other stuff I tried.
Been sober now for twenty two months this Friday!! Tried AA and Aquarius but they didn't really work for me. I wanted to work the program and do the steps to achieve full recovery though. Guess what, I went to NA tonight and I felt like I had come home, it was absolutley fantastic! I loved it, I am hooked. Got my NA welcome keyring and am gonna go to all the meetings I can.
Do you go to NA?
I need an ornate gate and a handrail..........Victorian style......like our Diff does ya know............what's a girl gotta do to get a gate and a Bratz Mansion I ask?
Man, I wish I was psychic and could have read how awesome the new job turned out for ya, Davey..........no more worrying about conking one of them creeps over the head with a blow torch...........I'm so happy for ya.
Yo, Diff...........I wish I could come for a roast.............Tres too........I'm about ready to ship her over to the UK so she can have a peaceful life.......miss ya like I'd miss a Tattybyes! How's the high chair?
Hi Lacey, sorry to butt in..........I'm just me, Bryn being a whackadoodle.
Man, I wish I was psychic and could have read how awesome the new job turned out for ya, Davey..........no more worrying about conking one of them creeps over the head with a blow torch...........I'm so happy for ya.
Yo, Diff...........I wish I could come for a roast.............Tres too........I'm about ready to ship her over to the UK so she can have a peaceful life.......miss ya like I'd miss a Tattybyes! How's the high chair?
Hi Lacey, sorry to butt in..........I'm just me, Bryn being a whackadoodle.
Bryn, they say pride comes before a fall, but I hate the freakin' high chair!! For a start it's massive - it takes up half the kitchen. It weighs a tonne, and it's hard to lug it about, especially as Row is going through a "clinging to everything" stage, and if she's not wrapped around my leg, she's stuck to the legs of the chair like an octupus. Then it's got buttons for everything, pedals and switches. All I want to do is plonk her in a chair to feed her her dinner, and it takes me 10 mins to set it up and another ten mins to put it away again. I saw an old fashioned wooden one in the pawn shop for 10, and I was so tempted to sell him my posh one for 50 (it's brand new, and retails at 100, so I reckon that's a fair price) and buy the old wooden one, and spend the remaining 40 on something else. That pawn shop is like an aladdins cave, especially if you get to go "upstairs" where he sells all the stuff that he ain't supposed to. If you can get up the stairs for falling over junkies selling the contents of their next door neighbours house! LOL!
Take care Brynamundo, whackadoodledooooo!
love
Diff x
PS. I've tried about 10 times to post you a message under your latest thread, but every time I get half way through my computer just gives up and dies... I think it's got a nervous disposition. It's being completely unreasonable lately, and keeps pretending to be asleep. when I know damn well it's peeking through one eye whenever it thinks I've left the room... I've had this damned machine for about 5 years now. I've had it rebuilt twice, and we're like an old married couple who act like they hate each other, but in reality couldn't live without the other.
tattybyebyes xxxxxxxx
Take care Brynamundo, whackadoodledooooo!
love
Diff x
PS. I've tried about 10 times to post you a message under your latest thread, but every time I get half way through my computer just gives up and dies... I think it's got a nervous disposition. It's being completely unreasonable lately, and keeps pretending to be asleep. when I know damn well it's peeking through one eye whenever it thinks I've left the room... I've had this damned machine for about 5 years now. I've had it rebuilt twice, and we're like an old married couple who act like they hate each other, but in reality couldn't live without the other.
tattybyebyes xxxxxxxx
I'm so happy you are enjoying your job Davey. Most of us have to work, and if we can find something we enjoy, or at least find satisfying, it's a real blessing. 90 days will fly by, and you'll get your raise. No one deseres it more.
Well done Lacey on your clean time. I always enjoy your posts.
Beck
Well done Lacey on your clean time. I always enjoy your posts.
Beck
Bryn... it was excellent to see you butting in!! So glad you are around again and being Bryn!!
Alrite...all......thanks ...Bryn&Becks......the job is going great...got a half day today as were finished for the holidays today and not back till the 2nd.so its a nice lil break also got an extra 50 euros in my wage packet so that was cool.....and am goin out with a couple of the lads for a drink tonite....i have to take it easy ...being on the methadone etc.....but am looking forward to it as they are not the type to talk shop all night.
Lacey......im a born and breed Londoner but have lived the last 8yrs.in Ireland....i moved back when my ex became pregnant with my daughter.....i now live in a house with my ma and 8yr.old girl who i have full custody of......so ive got a nice little family setup....welll most of the time.My ex.is still on the gear which is the reason i have my lil girl.....it can be tough sometimes being a single parent but my ma helps out enormously so im blessed in that way.Anyway take care and chat soon................Davey
Lacey......im a born and breed Londoner but have lived the last 8yrs.in Ireland....i moved back when my ex became pregnant with my daughter.....i now live in a house with my ma and 8yr.old girl who i have full custody of......so ive got a nice little family setup....welll most of the time.My ex.is still on the gear which is the reason i have my lil girl.....it can be tough sometimes being a single parent but my ma helps out enormously so im blessed in that way.Anyway take care and chat soon................Davey
Proud of you mate... all the best for 08 , Kev
Diff I think you've summed things up so well...I think you're amazing :o)
