Well, I took up drinking agiain....what a mistake. I am quitting again. i guess I though sine I quit for a month and that it wasnt that hard, that I must not really be an alcoholic. I convinced myself that I could drink within control. I cannot. I guess I reminded myself of that. I hope that I can start fresh with a good attitude. I need to get to a meeting.
mup, it's very good to hear from you. thanks for checking in here. a relapse isn't the end of the world. in fact, for you, it may just be a necessary step in the process of recovery. the fact that is occurred can help to break through the denial (which is a very powerful obstacle to recovery) for alcoholics, addicts and those close to alcoholics and addicts (in dealing with our own issues). Take comfort -- God is with you and is working with you. It's obvious you want something better.
hey, mup. i'm sure you are a little baffled right now. may i suggest, and it's only a suggestion, that you take a look at the stories starting at page 34 of the Big Book. Part of if involves milk of all things. If you don't have a copy available, here's a website and search engine for the Big Book: http://www.healingresource.org/book...Display_Welcome
thanks bob, i'm at work right now but i definatly will do that! thankyou again
no need for thanks to me, but you are welcome. don't beat yourself up -- it may have been necessary.
mup, let us know what's happening.
Hi Bob! I am doing pretty good. I went to a party with my girls last night, and didnt drink. It was good. I had the most fun I've had in a long time and that's important for me to learn that I still can have a GREAT time without alcohol. That was part of the reason I relapsed is because I didnt know I could have a great time at a party without booze. Now I know it's totally possible.
Your right tho, I really have to take it one day at a time.
How long have you been sober bob?
Your right tho, I really have to take it one day at a time.
How long have you been sober bob?
Hi my name is Debbie and I am an alcoholic I have been going to AA now for 1year it does work if you follow the program unfurtunatley for me I had a drink last night , I don't feel very good about it and can't understand why I keep doing it as the out come is always the same s***.
my life has improved 10 fold when I decided to do something about my drinking but why do I want to keep on trying to giver it another go? it baffles me can anyone help or give me advise please.
my life has improved 10 fold when I decided to do something about my drinking but why do I want to keep on trying to giver it another go? it baffles me can anyone help or give me advise please.
Hi Debbie
What goes through our minds when we decide to have a drink? For me, i temporarily fool myself into thinking I can handle to have a drink like a normal person, which is not true. I know it's not true but I lie to myself just long enough to give in.
What goes through our minds when we decide to have a drink? For me, i temporarily fool myself into thinking I can handle to have a drink like a normal person, which is not true. I know it's not true but I lie to myself just long enough to give in.
I think that if you pick up again in a moment of weakness after a period of abstinance you shouldnt be too hard on yourselves slips can and do happen.....
I picked up again after being off the sauce for 5 years, because over a period of weeks i convinced myself i couldnt possibly be an alcoholic cos i aint had a drink for 5 years,so i eventually picked it up only to discover after a short period of time i was worse than ever, drinkin around the clock 24/7.
These days i attend regular aa meetings and when i feel like picking up a drink i pick up the phone instead and ring another member of the fellowship, i'm now sober 10 months again one day at a time..
remember ...."7 days withouut an AA meeting,makes one weak"
I picked up again after being off the sauce for 5 years, because over a period of weeks i convinced myself i couldnt possibly be an alcoholic cos i aint had a drink for 5 years,so i eventually picked it up only to discover after a short period of time i was worse than ever, drinkin around the clock 24/7.
These days i attend regular aa meetings and when i feel like picking up a drink i pick up the phone instead and ring another member of the fellowship, i'm now sober 10 months again one day at a time..
remember ...."7 days withouut an AA meeting,makes one weak"
I had been to a meeting the day before but I had had it in my head that I wanted to have a drink how foolish when it is never any good and makes me feel lousy.
Went to a meeting last night which was really good, I do love AA and have made some good friends.
I am starting fresh again just for today.
Went to a meeting last night which was really good, I do love AA and have made some good friends.
I am starting fresh again just for today.
Hi All,
I know my relapse was necessary for me. I had 2 years clean and sober, but I never truley surrendered...I never really accepted the fact that I'm an addict/alcoholic. It took my relapse for me to truly surrender and to accept the fact that I'm an alcoholic/addict. I can't drink like other people. I don't know when to stop. I wasn't a daily drinker either. But when I drank I never stopped....it was never enough. I always made an a** out of myself. I always woke up and my first thought was...OMG what did I do/say last night. Cause sometimes I didn't remember. Black outs were the worst! I know that when I picked up after those 2 years my disease didn't stop during that time. I needed more than I did previously...more drinks...more pills...etc..etc..I finally surrendered truly surrendered. Now I have alittle over a year clean and sober. I have never been happier in my whole entire life as I am right now. Financially things have been really bad.....my home life was a wreck....my husband and I fought all the time. See were both addicts/alcoholics. Now were recovering together. We stay out of each others program....and it works for us. My sponsor always tells me call her before I pick up not after.....cause she cant help me if im drunk or high. For me it is easier to stay clean and sober than to go through that hell of getting clean and sober. I never want to forget where I came from....it keeps me sober. Ok I rambled on long enough here ..lol take care all....
God bless
gina :)
I know my relapse was necessary for me. I had 2 years clean and sober, but I never truley surrendered...I never really accepted the fact that I'm an addict/alcoholic. It took my relapse for me to truly surrender and to accept the fact that I'm an alcoholic/addict. I can't drink like other people. I don't know when to stop. I wasn't a daily drinker either. But when I drank I never stopped....it was never enough. I always made an a** out of myself. I always woke up and my first thought was...OMG what did I do/say last night. Cause sometimes I didn't remember. Black outs were the worst! I know that when I picked up after those 2 years my disease didn't stop during that time. I needed more than I did previously...more drinks...more pills...etc..etc..I finally surrendered truly surrendered. Now I have alittle over a year clean and sober. I have never been happier in my whole entire life as I am right now. Financially things have been really bad.....my home life was a wreck....my husband and I fought all the time. See were both addicts/alcoholics. Now were recovering together. We stay out of each others program....and it works for us. My sponsor always tells me call her before I pick up not after.....cause she cant help me if im drunk or high. For me it is easier to stay clean and sober than to go through that hell of getting clean and sober. I never want to forget where I came from....it keeps me sober. Ok I rambled on long enough here ..lol take care all....
God bless
gina :)
Mup and Deborah....how are you 2 today? Check in let us know how your doing ok? take care of yourselves....
God bless
gina :)
God bless
gina :)
Hi Gina
feeling a lot better each day, didn't go to a meeting last night but am going tonight.
Hope you are doing ok. Debsx
feeling a lot better each day, didn't go to a meeting last night but am going tonight.
Hope you are doing ok. Debsx
Hi deb,
good to hear from you ...sorry took so long to get back to you. how did the meeting go?
God bless
gina
good to hear from you ...sorry took so long to get back to you. how did the meeting go?
God bless
gina
mup,
Welcome back. Good post, I spent 25 years telling myself, "This time I can control it". The only time I'm in control is when I'm sober, soon as I put that first drink or drug in me "it" controlls me. I've learned if I'm not in arms reach I can't pick up, I need a meeting too, my sponsor told me there are only two times I need to go to a meeting, When I feel like it, and when I don't. Meetings are my medecine, good luck to ya', I'll keep you in my prayers..
Take care......................................God bless....................................Bob
Welcome back. Good post, I spent 25 years telling myself, "This time I can control it". The only time I'm in control is when I'm sober, soon as I put that first drink or drug in me "it" controlls me. I've learned if I'm not in arms reach I can't pick up, I need a meeting too, my sponsor told me there are only two times I need to go to a meeting, When I feel like it, and when I don't. Meetings are my medecine, good luck to ya', I'll keep you in my prayers..
Take care......................................God bless....................................Bob
