Hi guys I could really use some friendship right now.Now don't get me wrong because all who know me know how deeply I care for my B/F but right now hes just miffing me off real BAD.OK as you know I have started the sub at 8:30am.Well I called my MD at 9am, well his office said he would page me.Well I'm not in agont but even after the 2mg my legs were still cramping which I'm sure some of you know how that feels and I started to get those rolling type of tummy cramps.(I hope I explained that OK)Anyways I knew my MD would tell me to take at least 1 more but I CHOOSE not to take anything till I talk to him.I'm not a MD and I really want to get me back on track so I'm playing this one very careful.A Addict I may be but stupid is not what I am so of course I'm gonna wait for my MD.Well the cut & dry is he called.He said to take 1 more than if I need more to take another in 2 hrs.He also said that I can have up to 6 as long as I keep them spaced Q2.Now my Bf is a real great guy I can't picture me without him,but ya know sometimes I just wannta hit him with a egg or something.I get off the phone and explain to Mr DAHHHH what my doc said.Well right away he starts....well just take the whole bottle dadada you know your gonna take the 6 today cause he said YA KNOW I really think men get WALTER CAUSE DAM!!!!!anyways I said flat out to him I'm jumping on the board cause I need support he just can't give.Now I don't blame him for thinking like that I mean hello addict I have ALWAYS abused stuff my goodness if baby vitamin could get me high I probaly would of done that 2.No I totally understand his thinking but it just seems like ever since I started to really want to get a grip he says little things that I just don't need to hear right now.I understand him thinking that way but it hurts i feel i need the + right now not -.As I said most of you who know me know how I feel for him & the girls but right now he really can't understand what I'm going through,Sorry I just needed to sound off...mj
Hey MJ..........sorry he's acting like that. Like, you said, they just don't understand. Just do what YOU know you need to do and do not tell him.
Right now, more than ever you need his support, patience, understanding and love. Tell him that. He has to see that you are really trying to do the right thing here! It is my understanding that you can not get high off of the BUP. Right? Does he realize that? Tell him that, too. Tell him in the beginning, you have to play around with the dosage to know what is right for you.
Like you said, he may have Walter today! LOL Too bad for you, though, because today's the day you need him to be kind. I'll be around if you want to talk.
Hey tee mom actually I let him read what I wrote and then I talked to him.Hes the type if I didn't love him I'd hate him.No we are doing ok.Me & him fight maybe??????1-2 times every 5 mths or so.I just needed to vent men are such weiners sometimes.So how are you today.It looks pretty nice outside here in NY.I'll probaly go for a drive sometime today.My house isn't too messy so I won't feel too guilty.I'll probaly be on here till noon than get in a hot shower than take him out for a ride(him driving of course)theres some waterfalls not far from here maybe we'll go there and hang out.But as I said I'll be here for a bit...so whatcha doing????mj
Good that you let him read it. Hope it helped.
Just got a shower and now I have to play Monopoly with my son. He is addicted to it. Gonna be a real estate tycoon someday, hopefully. It is a gorgeous day here and he wants to stay inside. Ugghh!!!!
I am not having a great day. Anxious, I guess. We have no neighbors, so I have to go and get a kid, or take him to one in order to have a playmate. When that doesn't workout, it's hard to keep him happy alone. I know he's spoiled.
Anyway, sorry, but I have to go. He's really being a pill today. Did I say pill? I mean, a stinker.
Enjoy your ride. Take care and I hope your day goes good. Hang in there.You are going to make it!
ok mom I hope you enjoy your day I hope it gets better for ya.I'll let my thoughts drift to you when I'm by the waterfalls.Close your eyes you may even feel it....mj
Molly ~
The very 1 st time I saw my Detox Dr. he was knida mean and start forward.
The 2nd time he was a lot nicer. My husband said that maybe the reason is to
show you that he is not going to be played. Also to show just how serious this was. If that is true I got the message loud and clear!
The very 1 st time I saw my Detox Dr. he was knida mean and start forward.
The 2nd time he was a lot nicer. My husband said that maybe the reason is to
show you that he is not going to be played. Also to show just how serious this was. If that is true I got the message loud and clear!
