Kat, I give you alot of credit...that must be hard, or you are just totally done.
But, doesn't that bother you? I know everyone is different, but I guess I am asking why would you be around that? I know, it isn't easy to leave a marriage...even in the ugliest circumstances, so I am not judging. I guess I just don't get it....if it is none of my business, then I apologize.
Kerry
Hi Kerry, I don't mind you asking at all. Answering is kind of hard, lol. It's a combination of things, I think.
I'm trying my best to answer this honestly but who knows how much we kidd ourselves when it comes down to it?
We've been together a long time. We have children together. He supports us. We own our home and all this land that I do not want to sell. And something in me just understands.
I progressed more quickly in my addiction than he did. He still does not yet use to the degree that I did when I quit. I've hoped that he would seek recovery, that I could set an example....something.....anything.
I think a part of me is afraid. Where do I go with two children and seven dogs? There is nowhere to go.
Another part of me really is done too. Add it all up and I'm kind of in limbo....not sure of what to do next.
I don't know that I have another starting over in me, at least not yet. Maybe I'm just the world's worst procrastinator, lol.
For now, I take it one day at a time, work on myself, and just hope.
Take care, love, Kat
I'm trying my best to answer this honestly but who knows how much we kidd ourselves when it comes down to it?
We've been together a long time. We have children together. He supports us. We own our home and all this land that I do not want to sell. And something in me just understands.
I progressed more quickly in my addiction than he did. He still does not yet use to the degree that I did when I quit. I've hoped that he would seek recovery, that I could set an example....something.....anything.
I think a part of me is afraid. Where do I go with two children and seven dogs? There is nowhere to go.
Another part of me really is done too. Add it all up and I'm kind of in limbo....not sure of what to do next.
I don't know that I have another starting over in me, at least not yet. Maybe I'm just the world's worst procrastinator, lol.
For now, I take it one day at a time, work on myself, and just hope.
Take care, love, Kat
MJ...whatever the problem,you know I am always here for you...you have supportive and sweet ever since I came on the board..Take care my fellow New Yorker....Love, Sharonn(e-mail me mylash1@yahoo.com if you wish)
Dear Molly,
Its OK to open up here...know that you are loved here.
xx
Redd
MJ and Sharon,where in NY?Im upstate,10 minutes from Lake George.MJ are you in the buffalo area?I thought i asked you once before,but cant remember.~KIM
AHHH you got me.It seems like whenever I try to sign off I find a post I want to answer.Kim I live in Ulster County NY.Near Saugerties NY (woodstock 1994).Ive been up in your area & I love it up there.OK gotta go put a face on before mom shows up Take care my friends,,,,,you guys are so sweet to me....mj
Hey Kat,
That was a very nice offer but....I'm stuck in NY for awhile. Not allowed to move my kids out of state. Not that I would have the money to move anyway. But thanks..
I got tested today at the program. I'm hoping that half of methadone doesn't show up. I somehow doubt it will. Doubt they are even testing for methadone. If they were I will hear about it tomorrow I'm sure.
Hey Jackie,
Good to see you're back.
That was a very nice offer but....I'm stuck in NY for awhile. Not allowed to move my kids out of state. Not that I would have the money to move anyway. But thanks..
I got tested today at the program. I'm hoping that half of methadone doesn't show up. I somehow doubt it will. Doubt they are even testing for methadone. If they were I will hear about it tomorrow I'm sure.
Hey Jackie,
Good to see you're back.
Hey although i havent posted or been around ina while you never far from my thoughts hun (((((((((hugs)))))))))) we have both been through a lot together nows the time to address it all and get smarter lol jaxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
MJ,i know a family from Saugerties,my boys used to race dirt track with the family.The father and both daughters all raced motorcycles with us.Their last name is Edwards,i wont name first names,but do you know an Edwards family with 2 blonde daughters?~KIM
Hi Liz,ive never posted to you before,i dont think,and honestly i havent read much about you and your personsal situation.But,Im sorry to hear you're having a rough time.I hope the test comes out alirght for you,i would hate to see you in any kind of trouble.Having to be tested must really be hard.I wish you the best,and i hope things get better soon.~KIM
Dear MJ:
So many have said such thoughtful things and had wonderful ideas.
I just want to say that I hope for you happiness and to feel much better.
I get mad at myself when I feel sorry for myself but I alwys try so hard to make others feel better when they feel bad.
This board has taught me to just accect the help it gives.
A good thread, if you read over all of the peope who care about you, I think that will help.
Feel better.
Love, Jean
So many have said such thoughtful things and had wonderful ideas.
I just want to say that I hope for you happiness and to feel much better.
I get mad at myself when I feel sorry for myself but I alwys try so hard to make others feel better when they feel bad.
This board has taught me to just accect the help it gives.
A good thread, if you read over all of the peope who care about you, I think that will help.
Feel better.
Love, Jean
Hi Kim,
Thanks for writing me. I know it's a matter of time I'm going back into detox and a rehab. I received a letter from the iop wanting me to discuss with them giving me a referral to a detox and rehab now. They sent the letter not expecting me back, I went back yesterday and got the letter today. So...I don't know what I'm going to do.
Thanks for writing me. I know it's a matter of time I'm going back into detox and a rehab. I received a letter from the iop wanting me to discuss with them giving me a referral to a detox and rehab now. They sent the letter not expecting me back, I went back yesterday and got the letter today. So...I don't know what I'm going to do.
Hey MJ..I didnt get to read your post before it was deleted but I wanted you to know that I am here to support you.Please dont put yourself down.You dont have to be strong for anyone but yourself and please know..deep in your heart..that even strong people fall from time to time. You have been a great help to many here..including myself..and you are a great person and THAT needs to stay in the forefront of your mind.
As I said..I dont know the details but I am here to listen or I can be a shoulder to lean on..dont be afraid to reach out!
As I said..I dont know the details but I am here to listen or I can be a shoulder to lean on..dont be afraid to reach out!
(((MJ)))),
I only have a few moments, but I wanted to say we love ya...... Hang in there, this too shall pass. I am out for the night. Have a great night. Take care, Best Wishes
I only have a few moments, but I wanted to say we love ya...... Hang in there, this too shall pass. I am out for the night. Have a great night. Take care, Best Wishes
