Today I got up and told myself I need to get out of the house and find a distraction to this misery, but the truth is I can't do anything yet physically. You guys promise this isn't taking to long? My bowels are still twisted up and I have to make myself eat, I almost gag on food. I have the blues and a bad case of self pity. This is not my usual style, honest. I would be telling my kids to suck it up and have a positive attitude. I think I am to old for this sh**. I guess I just need to let it out to someone.. Oh when will I feel better?
Hi im sorry your suffering right now but it will get better, when? depends on indivuals, the one thing i do know is it wont get better before it gets worse, and certainly wont get better for you if you take a step back. Not a lot of comfort i know but its true. hang in there jaxxxxxxxxxxx
llh,
In the first 8 weeks after I quit I had houseguests and then two "pleasure trips" to Australia. I thought I was going to lose my mind, but in fact having to do these things got me out of myself and probably made the whole process pass more quickly. It was later, when things slowed down that I start obsessing about how fatigued and depressed I was.
I think it's a hopeful sign that you know you will feel better and are impatient for it to happen. I thought I was going to feel that bad forever and was thinking about ways to off myself -- until I found this board and discovered I had a disease.
You will improve over time. Be patient. Congratulations on making it this far. I know you don't want to do this, but tomorrow, if you can, just leave the house for a little while and go for a walk in the sun.
Practice those breathing exericises. Try to clear your mind and find the silence between the thoughts. You're doing great.
Love,
Gina.
In the first 8 weeks after I quit I had houseguests and then two "pleasure trips" to Australia. I thought I was going to lose my mind, but in fact having to do these things got me out of myself and probably made the whole process pass more quickly. It was later, when things slowed down that I start obsessing about how fatigued and depressed I was.
I think it's a hopeful sign that you know you will feel better and are impatient for it to happen. I thought I was going to feel that bad forever and was thinking about ways to off myself -- until I found this board and discovered I had a disease.
You will improve over time. Be patient. Congratulations on making it this far. I know you don't want to do this, but tomorrow, if you can, just leave the house for a little while and go for a walk in the sun.
Practice those breathing exericises. Try to clear your mind and find the silence between the thoughts. You're doing great.
Love,
Gina.
llh, I remember when I first joined this board a year ago and feeling like you and people here saying it will get better. Some people would say a week some people would say a month or longer. I didn't believe it because I felt like s*** but I hung in there and thank god I did because everyone was right. It took me a little longer than some people to feel up to par but eventually it did happen. I still have my bad days but there is nothing stopping me now. Hang in there you will get there in time maybe not as fast as you would like but it will happen. Shantel
Gina, She's gotta find some sun to walk in cause there sure isn't any in Ct. Shantel
Thanks guys. I just feel so discouraged, there is no sun around here either. So the fatigue and depression does leave eventually, right? I to would rather off myself then live like this forever, ha! Tell me how good you feel now!
llh, I am not gonna lie to you it is a long journey but one worth traveling. Just hang in there. Shantel
llh,
You're not going to hit a threshold and suddenly feel wonderful all the time. That's an impossibility. But maybe as soon as tomorrow morning, you could have a moment of sublime joy that lasts just five minutes. Those moments will come more and more frequently and the grey periods will recede.
Please don't off yourself before the miracle happens. It will. Trust me. I've been where you are and I wouldn't have believed it at the time, but you'll feel yourself again, and even better than you ever remembered yourself to be.
Love,
Gina
You're not going to hit a threshold and suddenly feel wonderful all the time. That's an impossibility. But maybe as soon as tomorrow morning, you could have a moment of sublime joy that lasts just five minutes. Those moments will come more and more frequently and the grey periods will recede.
Please don't off yourself before the miracle happens. It will. Trust me. I've been where you are and I wouldn't have believed it at the time, but you'll feel yourself again, and even better than you ever remembered yourself to be.
Love,
Gina
Thank god for you Gina. I have to believe that I will feel better then this. Today was a really bad day, my stomach hurt all day and I just threw up my dinner. Some one freaked me out when they said It will get worse before it gets better. Is that true? I thought it would get at least a little better each day. I know no one can say for sure how this will go for me, but I need to have faith that I will eventually feel good without that crap in my body. Gina you said just what I wanted to hear, thank you so much. I had no idea how hard this would be, you all who have done it or are trying have all my respect. I am hoping for that 5 minutes of joy soon.
Llh,
You know what? I really hate that youre doing this alone. Can you not find a meeting or a therapist, some form of support F2F?
When I was in early recovery, I was on the far side of the world and cut off from my support net. Kat256 actually sat in IM with me and breathed with me through my anxiety. The interchange went like this:
Kat: Breathe
2
3
4
Relax your stomach muscles
Gina: (What? Now? Okay, Im relaxing them)
Kat: Inhale
2
3
4, etc.
LOL, She was a life saver.
If I can help in any way, please feel free to email me at: ke_gina@hotmail.com
Look on the bright side, todays almost over. Tomorrow you might just find the joy. You've got hope and a lot of the folks who come here don't even have that.
Sorry you lost your dinner. Hang in there.
Love,
Gina
You know what? I really hate that youre doing this alone. Can you not find a meeting or a therapist, some form of support F2F?
When I was in early recovery, I was on the far side of the world and cut off from my support net. Kat256 actually sat in IM with me and breathed with me through my anxiety. The interchange went like this:
Kat: Breathe
2
3
4
Relax your stomach muscles
Gina: (What? Now? Okay, Im relaxing them)
Kat: Inhale
2
3
4, etc.
LOL, She was a life saver.
If I can help in any way, please feel free to email me at: ke_gina@hotmail.com
Look on the bright side, todays almost over. Tomorrow you might just find the joy. You've got hope and a lot of the folks who come here don't even have that.
Sorry you lost your dinner. Hang in there.
Love,
Gina
I don't know what wouldhave happened to me if it wasn't for this web site. I had no idea what I was getting myself into. I still don't know what to expect next, I am just trying to have faith that I will make it through. And I am resolved to never touch the stuff again. Thanks again everyone and Gina I don't have access to e-mail right now,but I hope I will catch you on here when I need you and thanks so much for offering.
You are going to be ok. I am so proud of you! Look how far you have come...there is NO turning back now! I know you think that this will never end....it might serve a purpose as to remind that the lure of those of pills is NOT all its cracked up to be!
Stay warm....try some herbal tea...praying have a good sleep!
Stay warm....try some herbal tea...praying have a good sleep!
