Lilypad
why did you have to go to er? what happend when your brain went out of whack?
havinithard
i guess swizzle asked all the questions so we will be waiting for your reply...
:)
Havingithard
You've come to the right place for some good advice, but I think you should talk to a dr or at least try to "taper" yourself down. It depends on how much you were taking/etc. to determine if you could just stop cold turkey (I'm not a professional tho).
You have made the first step by asking for help. You will find alot of thoughtful, caring people here.
Keep posting and let us know how youre doing.
Take care of yourself.
Love,
Marie
You've come to the right place for some good advice, but I think you should talk to a dr or at least try to "taper" yourself down. It depends on how much you were taking/etc. to determine if you could just stop cold turkey (I'm not a professional tho).
You have made the first step by asking for help. You will find alot of thoughtful, caring people here.
Keep posting and let us know how youre doing.
Take care of yourself.
Love,
Marie
Having it Hard:
Methadone is a tough W/D. Do you have insurance? If yes can you go in for rehab?
Are you using any benzos with the Meth? If yes I suggest a in patient. If no insurance go to ER they have to take you.
http://www.buprenorphine.samhsa.gov/about.html
This site may be able to help you.
JMO but while your all f-edup on the drugs you should not be making any majot decisions.
Does your fiance support you? Does he use?
Hang in there and keep talking.
Jeff
Methadone is a tough W/D. Do you have insurance? If yes can you go in for rehab?
Are you using any benzos with the Meth? If yes I suggest a in patient. If no insurance go to ER they have to take you.
http://www.buprenorphine.samhsa.gov/about.html
This site may be able to help you.
JMO but while your all f-edup on the drugs you should not be making any majot decisions.
Does your fiance support you? Does he use?
Hang in there and keep talking.
Jeff
Dear Havingithard,
I hope you'll be able to get back online and share with everyone. I've heard that methodone detox is brutal. I know of some off the board that had a hard time with it.
I think Rae here could probably help you a great deal. She went through this very thing. I do know it's doable because she is here to tell the tale.
I wish you luck.
Keep talking, it helps.
Love, Kat
I hope you'll be able to get back online and share with everyone. I've heard that methodone detox is brutal. I know of some off the board that had a hard time with it.
I think Rae here could probably help you a great deal. She went through this very thing. I do know it's doable because she is here to tell the tale.
I wish you luck.
Keep talking, it helps.
Love, Kat
Hey... welcome to the board... you are not alone in this. Hang in there.... i know this is tough but it can be done. Love, Bri :)
Dear Firesign,
I thought I was doing ok. Used xanax to come thru worst w/d of vics. Aside from not sleeping for 4 nites I thought worst was over. My husband said I was behaving strange. Stuff I was saying I guess. I said"I am clean! You wanna have me tested, ok, just so u feel better take me to hosp." Long story short, my urine came up clean and they sent me home with a drug called respiradal (sp?) to help me sleep. So I took a dose and went to bed. Next thing I know I am having real paranoid thoughts, having auditory hallucinations and visual hall. too! I was so paranoid I called 911 myself. Cops and ambulance showed and away I went. The docs at hosp. were only interested in giving me meds to calm down. They did tests again and again...clean. They sedated me I slept 24hrs. and worked a short program and got out. Had some sort of psychotic break....Which I think in a way was good cuz I never want to do THAT again!
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I thought I was doing ok. Used xanax to come thru worst w/d of vics. Aside from not sleeping for 4 nites I thought worst was over. My husband said I was behaving strange. Stuff I was saying I guess. I said"I am clean! You wanna have me tested, ok, just so u feel better take me to hosp." Long story short, my urine came up clean and they sent me home with a drug called respiradal (sp?) to help me sleep. So I took a dose and went to bed. Next thing I know I am having real paranoid thoughts, having auditory hallucinations and visual hall. too! I was so paranoid I called 911 myself. Cops and ambulance showed and away I went. The docs at hosp. were only interested in giving me meds to calm down. They did tests again and again...clean. They sedated me I slept 24hrs. and worked a short program and got out. Had some sort of psychotic break....Which I think in a way was good cuz I never want to do THAT again!
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My name looks alittle different, but its me. I had to change things up alittle bit because of the computer, but its still me, this whole library thing stinks.
First i want to say thanks to all of you that have helped me today. It made a huge difference in a ruff time of need!!!!!
Second, i want to answer all the questions, but i cant remember all of them.
But let me try, ....to the one who asked if my fiancee used.....OH NO...and he never knew that i used eaither. He was and im sure is still a great man, however, he would leave me in a min. if he new any of this.
I told him that i was pregnant and he told me that he dosnt want any kids and i told him that i would get rid of it and at the last min. i decided not to and keep it. He told me to eaither say goodbye to the baby or say goodbye to him. His parents showed up at my house while he was at work and they yelled at me to tell them what was going on. I feel its none of there buisines what happens in my life so i told them no and i had to call the police to get them to leave my house. I called my fiancee to tell him what happened and he refused to stand up to his parents for me. So i left that day. I moved all my stuff and all my kids things in a matter of hours to my parents and i have been there since. My parents used to know that i had a problom with the Vic's but i could never tell them about this. So here i am ready to fall off the earth because i feel like i have nothing of my own anymore. Does that make any sence at all?????
Sorry i went on like that , but i realy needed to get it out!!!! Thanks for listening and takeing the time.
Haveinithard.
First i want to say thanks to all of you that have helped me today. It made a huge difference in a ruff time of need!!!!!
Second, i want to answer all the questions, but i cant remember all of them.
But let me try, ....to the one who asked if my fiancee used.....OH NO...and he never knew that i used eaither. He was and im sure is still a great man, however, he would leave me in a min. if he new any of this.
I told him that i was pregnant and he told me that he dosnt want any kids and i told him that i would get rid of it and at the last min. i decided not to and keep it. He told me to eaither say goodbye to the baby or say goodbye to him. His parents showed up at my house while he was at work and they yelled at me to tell them what was going on. I feel its none of there buisines what happens in my life so i told them no and i had to call the police to get them to leave my house. I called my fiancee to tell him what happened and he refused to stand up to his parents for me. So i left that day. I moved all my stuff and all my kids things in a matter of hours to my parents and i have been there since. My parents used to know that i had a problom with the Vic's but i could never tell them about this. So here i am ready to fall off the earth because i feel like i have nothing of my own anymore. Does that make any sence at all?????
Sorry i went on like that , but i realy needed to get it out!!!! Thanks for listening and takeing the time.
Haveinithard.
Please, somebody post to me soon.....the library is going to close in a few and i realy need alittle typeing conversation!!! I have nobody to talk to outside of this and i realy need to hear from at least one person!!!!
Have it Hard
Have it Hard
Hey HavinItHard...
Glad u came back. Wow, lots of heavy s**t happening to you. Hard to handle clean or no..... However you need to take great care of yourself. Do you have anyone to help you right now? Family? Friends? I seriously think you need to run, not walk,.....run to get help, Somewhere (Hospital) to detox you or help you over the worst spots. You sound as if you want the help and you have a son and a new child on the way. I wish you the best, you can kick it if you want it bad enough.
Glad u came back. Wow, lots of heavy s**t happening to you. Hard to handle clean or no..... However you need to take great care of yourself. Do you have anyone to help you right now? Family? Friends? I seriously think you need to run, not walk,.....run to get help, Somewhere (Hospital) to detox you or help you over the worst spots. You sound as if you want the help and you have a son and a new child on the way. I wish you the best, you can kick it if you want it bad enough.
Would your parents keep the kids for you to go into rehab? Or maybe even a short time to detox?
It might make this easier for you.
Love, Kat
It might make this easier for you.
Love, Kat
You know i do understand that emotions are a huge part of this and im sure that in time there will be light at the end of the tunnel. Im just not sure im that great of a person right now and i dont decerve that light to look forward to.
LILYPAD, , , One little corection....i guess if i tell alittle i should tell it all, i have 2 boys at home(one at the library right now) and another on the way(well, hopeing its a boy anyway.)
And NO i realy dont have anyone. I have one friend that i told about being pregnant, but i havent told anyone because i thought that i was going to stop the pregnancy, however, now i changed my mind! My fiancee is the type of man that wants to work and make money and come home and watch T.V. and then get sleep. We never realy hung out with friends and i have known him my whole life.
Im truley not lieing about haveing nobody right now.!!!!!!!!!!
Any body up for a new friend????
Any one live in Michigan??
LILYPAD, , , One little corection....i guess if i tell alittle i should tell it all, i have 2 boys at home(one at the library right now) and another on the way(well, hopeing its a boy anyway.)
And NO i realy dont have anyone. I have one friend that i told about being pregnant, but i havent told anyone because i thought that i was going to stop the pregnancy, however, now i changed my mind! My fiancee is the type of man that wants to work and make money and come home and watch T.V. and then get sleep. We never realy hung out with friends and i have known him my whole life.
Im truley not lieing about haveing nobody right now.!!!!!!!!!!
Any body up for a new friend????
Any one live in Michigan??
There are a lot of Michiganders here....myself included. Where are you?
Redd
Hey HaveinItHard:
Michigan? I am on East Coast. Kat256(?) I think suggested maybe ur parents can keep an eye on the kids? How do you feel about detox????
Michigan? I am on East Coast. Kat256(?) I think suggested maybe ur parents can keep an eye on the kids? How do you feel about detox????
HEY, Redd.....Canton area. Ever herd of it? Right around Plymouth, AnnArbor, Dearborn, Westland.....That help at all????
To the other question.....like i said before, my parents helped me alot in keeping the secret of my Vic problom from my fiancee and they never told him that i went in to detox....they kept my kids and i told him that i was takeing amuch needed vacation alone. Funny thing is that he never questioned it one time. NEVER!!! However, my parents told me that they would never go through something like that again with me. They told me that it was harder on them that it was on me. My mother still to this day calls me if i take her car and askes me what im doing and where im at and who i have with me and she will never let me borrow her car now unless i have my 10 year old with me. She knows i wont go looking for things with him !!!!!!
Am i sad or what???
Haveinithard
To the other question.....like i said before, my parents helped me alot in keeping the secret of my Vic problom from my fiancee and they never told him that i went in to detox....they kept my kids and i told him that i was takeing amuch needed vacation alone. Funny thing is that he never questioned it one time. NEVER!!! However, my parents told me that they would never go through something like that again with me. They told me that it was harder on them that it was on me. My mother still to this day calls me if i take her car and askes me what im doing and where im at and who i have with me and she will never let me borrow her car now unless i have my 10 year old with me. She knows i wont go looking for things with him !!!!!!
Am i sad or what???
Haveinithard
Redd, i love the picture of the dog by the way. I had to leave my dog behind when i left my fiancee. He wouldnt let me take her!!! Funny huh, men make no sence to me.....he dosnt want a baby, but he will kill me if i take the dog away.
AHHHHHHH
haveinithard
AHHHHHHH
haveinithard
so sorry Have, be right back...important phone call.
redd
Hey, no ur not sad. Or maybe we're all sad lol. How are the w/d symptoms? In my exp. during the worst of time i could never have sat at a computer and typed!!! Hang in there and keep reaching out. An answer will come
No problom, but the lady just came over the speaker and told me that the library is gonna close in 5 min, and they will disconnect what im on. If for some reason i cant get back to all of you tonight., , , i hopefully can come back up to the library tommorow.
Once again, i want to thank all of you that took the time to write back and forth with me today, i realy needed it and i thank you from the bottom of my heart.
There are a few VERY IMPORTANT details that i have left out of this for right now, but i will let you in on them soon!!!! Im not being funny , but i used to come to this board before with my vicodin problom and im just embarest to talk about all that righ now and the fact that i got into thigs that were worse than what i took before.
haveinithard
Once again, i want to thank all of you that took the time to write back and forth with me today, i realy needed it and i thank you from the bottom of my heart.
There are a few VERY IMPORTANT details that i have left out of this for right now, but i will let you in on them soon!!!! Im not being funny , but i used to come to this board before with my vicodin problom and im just embarest to talk about all that righ now and the fact that i got into thigs that were worse than what i took before.
haveinithard
Goodnight everyone.....i have to leave the library now.
And thanks again, !!!!
Redd, i woukld love to hear from you again and where your from.
Lilypad, thanks for all the words.
And to all the others that posted to me......THANK YOU sooooo much.
Haveinithard.
And thanks again, !!!!
Redd, i woukld love to hear from you again and where your from.
Lilypad, thanks for all the words.
And to all the others that posted to me......THANK YOU sooooo much.
Haveinithard.
Im not sure on this but I think this is Kristina aka Niblet.It sure sounds like her.I hope she gets back in touch with us...
No matter who this is I can see that they feel pretty alone.Please I hope you come back.There is no shame in asking for help really.You say you were here before & I just have this feeling I know you.Try not to feel so bad about going onto something stronger.That is one of the hardest things with drugs,you build a tolerence & 1 or 2 always lead to more.you did a great thing by reaching out for help.it may be harder to stop the meth but it can be done honest.Are you working at all?Like I said I feel as if I know you so I hope you come back soon.You know how great this board can be for support & it sounds as if you need our love & support more now than ever,,,,,mj
No matter who this is I can see that they feel pretty alone.Please I hope you come back.There is no shame in asking for help really.You say you were here before & I just have this feeling I know you.Try not to feel so bad about going onto something stronger.That is one of the hardest things with drugs,you build a tolerence & 1 or 2 always lead to more.you did a great thing by reaching out for help.it may be harder to stop the meth but it can be done honest.Are you working at all?Like I said I feel as if I know you so I hope you come back soon.You know how great this board can be for support & it sounds as if you need our love & support more now than ever,,,,,mj
