i will not get high today because...
i am deserving, and i am worth it. i want to feel and be happy, not chemical induced happiness. and most of all i won't get high today because i want to be free.
what is your reason??
rae
OOPS...Wrong board! I meant to post on the pp board. Rae, I'm already confused enough...I don't need any help!
Have a great night...
Callie
Have a great night...
Callie
freedom (and family and friends) is PRICELESS!
LIFE. I LIKE BREATHING. COFFINS ARE TOO CONFINING.
Besides, GYAC agreed to kick the s*** out of me if I ever picked up again!
Besides, GYAC agreed to kick the s*** out of me if I ever picked up again!
because all the s*** that i would be using as an excuse to get high while running out the back door...will still be there a knockin' at my front door!!!!
MARY
MARY
life is so much better on this side!!
LMAO @ Todd
LMAO @ Todd
i will not get high today because:
i want to feel the sun and enjoy the birds chirping, and kids playing, laughing and living life.
raerae
i want to feel the sun and enjoy the birds chirping, and kids playing, laughing and living life.
raerae
I will not get high today because...
If I did, I would be sitting here for 3 hours instead of just 2 watching G's new avatar.
Callie
If I did, I would be sitting here for 3 hours instead of just 2 watching G's new avatar.
Callie
:~)
I can't stand the headaches and the puking sessions when i come down so why go up in the first place!
Hey what's that nice smell...
oh yeah...sobriety
MARY
Hey what's that nice smell...
oh yeah...sobriety
MARY
I wake up in the morning happy..... i don't want to die today.
because i'm tired of being my own enemy and my biggest downfall, and the product of all my defets. i'm tired of starting over and over and over.
Im worth SO much more!
because im bigger and stronger than temptation. my partner deserves nothing less, my kids deserve nothing less and i deserve nothin less than me at my best
....that was then.....this is NOW!
Hello, I will not get high today because, my sons are in prison, My sister is terminally ill with cancer. If im clean I will be given the stength to stay present.
I am having to much fun in life (the beautiful struggle that it is)!
Because I'm in recovery.
Before there was no reason not to get high. Just what mood I was in determined if I was about to start another physical addiction to opiates. Once I did, there was no question if I'd get high the next day. The only question was where I'd get the dope.
That went on till I got fed up and hated myself so bad that I'd kick it. A month, six months, whatever.
Then back to the question, "Will I get high today?" Usually not for a while... until the hell of withdrawals faded in my memory.
Of course, that's because I wasn't counting alcohol in the equation! I've only just learned that you have to count alcohol.
So, counting alcohol, I haven't been clean and sober for forty years. Sounds kinda bad, huh?
No wonder I feel different now, after picking up my sixty day chip last week.
Every day dawns differently now. Cobwebs are clearing. A new outlook.
I sat in a new seat today in the AA mtg. Across the room next to John. A big step for me!
Met everybody on that side of the room! We laughed and joked about dentists and I don't know what all. They were genuinely glad to make my acquaintance and I was glad to meet them!
Imagine that!
And I was sober as a judge! Who'd a thunk it? Turns out, I have a sense of humor even when sober. It was just hiding.
Here I was sober and meeting strangers and didn't feel less-than and fearful!
Amazing stuff, this recovery.
M.
Before there was no reason not to get high. Just what mood I was in determined if I was about to start another physical addiction to opiates. Once I did, there was no question if I'd get high the next day. The only question was where I'd get the dope.
That went on till I got fed up and hated myself so bad that I'd kick it. A month, six months, whatever.
Then back to the question, "Will I get high today?" Usually not for a while... until the hell of withdrawals faded in my memory.
Of course, that's because I wasn't counting alcohol in the equation! I've only just learned that you have to count alcohol.
So, counting alcohol, I haven't been clean and sober for forty years. Sounds kinda bad, huh?
No wonder I feel different now, after picking up my sixty day chip last week.
Every day dawns differently now. Cobwebs are clearing. A new outlook.
I sat in a new seat today in the AA mtg. Across the room next to John. A big step for me!
Met everybody on that side of the room! We laughed and joked about dentists and I don't know what all. They were genuinely glad to make my acquaintance and I was glad to meet them!
Imagine that!
And I was sober as a judge! Who'd a thunk it? Turns out, I have a sense of humor even when sober. It was just hiding.
Here I was sober and meeting strangers and didn't feel less-than and fearful!
Amazing stuff, this recovery.
M.
i would not handle all the s*** that goes with it......
I came into this world with a life and i intend to live it !!!!!!! I have one chance to live or be stoned? i choose life :)
