I'm So Lost, Please Help

I am 34 yrs old. I have been drinking most of my life. I am starting to realize I have a problem and I don't know how to stop. I have never said it out loud, but I drink at least 14-20 beers everyday, and on most days that is mixed with some wine.
My family always had alcohol around when I was growing up, but now my father is in jail for driving on a suspended license after 3 DUIs. It's unbeleivable to me.
My greatest fear is what I am doing to my 18 month old daughter. I want to protect her, and be the best mother possible.
What now? I realize I have a problem. I am not religious, and I don't think I would relate to AA.
Help?
Hi,
I used to think that AA is not for me, because I am not 'relegious'.
It isn't about religion though, it is your concept of whatever it is that is behind this physical existence if you like. Life force. There is no denying that; we can be alive one minute, lifeless the next. What was the life and where did it go?

I am reading the big book of AA and it is actually really good. It also seems to help a lot of people so there must be something in it. Why not give it a go? At least find out a bit more about it before you disregard it as a means of help.

Good luck
Love Lacey
Hello Kae, I am new to the board but can relate to your situation. I am 37 yrs. old and just realized I guess last weekend at my bday party that I maybe/maybe not have a drinking problem. I got drunk fell down and hurt my leg but dont remember none of it until the next day when i asked my friend what happened and i dont remember going to bed or probably the fool i made out of myself. None of my friends think i have a problem maybe its because they do too!! I like being around people that drink for instance in a bar, i have made alot of friends over the years at a local bar and when ever i would get off work sometimes stop in to say hi and drink 2-3 beers and leave, it wasnt an everyday thing usually just on fridays. But for the past 7 yrs I guess I would have the habit of stopping by a local store on the way home and buy a six pack or twelve pack and not stop drinking them until they were gone and wished i had just one more in the frigerator. Now this sometimes was an everyday thing, mostly the six pack and b/c it was ONLY A SIX PACK i felt like i didnt have a problem drinking but now maybe it has become just that. As of Jan. 21, 2007 I have not drank anything.... I didnt really think about beer at the beginning of the week but now that it is the weekend i would really like to have one!!! I dont think AA meetings are for me either.... so I am trying it on my own with the help of being able to talk on this board... Good luck to you and hang in there i know it is going to be a long journey for us all, but we can do it, we can do it, we can do it.....

Luv
ChattyCat
By the way Kae, there are other organisations also, not just AA. I went to one called Aquarius a few years ago for counselling - nothing to do with religion or spirituality.