Hey people
I haven't been posting much lately ,I see a lot of new names - that is a good thing.
Things over here have been kind of depressing. Still no steady work. I work with my brother a bit in the air conditioning business. He only does commercial buildings , no residential so he does very well. Big companies usually have contracts ,and pay well, as opposed to peoples houses. That usually is a harder job ,tight places,and people want a break for everything..'
I guess as the summer gets closer he will need me more. I have to tell ya, -except for getting the cable cut and getting the kits together for the assemblers, and a bit of shipping- - I sat at a desk for 13 years talking with vendors, and customers, and sales people.. My body wasnt ready for climbing ladders and the strenuous work of this kind. Man , lots of respect for these guys, Im sore everyday from using muscles that I haven't used in many years.
As far as the drug cravings - well even though I don't act on them, I can see where not being busy at work everyday ,and having an unemployment check come in for $1050.00 every 2 weeks can make you think about getting high. I think if I wasnt on mdone, I already would have tried . However, I know that being on a dose like mine it would be like throwing my money into the wind.
Its really boredom and the lack of drive to search the net or the papers and get out there every day and start seriously looking. My insurance runs out today and I must switch to cobra. That is good for 9 months,and Obama has given us unemployed a 60% discount - so that will cost me 40 bucks a week(out of my enemp check)
I went to a doctor (as some of you might know) and he prescribed Cymbalta for stress and depression- I guess it helps a bit. But to be honest I started with another doctor who is writing me up xanax. This is bad. I tell myself I need them to relax and rest my mind so I can sleep.--but I know thats bullshet- Its just the little high they give me. This is a bad thing, I will not go back to this wacky doctor again, as he couldn't care less about me or anyone else- - he is one of these guys who just will write what you ask for as long as you are on assistance,or have cash- - no insurance, because then he would be investigated.
Anyway, hope all you guys (new and old) are doing well- - the next time I post I'm sure I will have pulled out of this funk- - but in the mean time - I'm going to start trying harder to get my sh@T together.
love&respect
jack
Hey Jack...good to see you. Glad you've got some work, even if it is difficult. Sounds like you know what the right thing is and are ready to get to it. Being depressed makes it so difficult to take any action at all never mind the right action. Weather's turning and you're doing something, so that's good...and I'll bet that the work is going to make you feel great in the long run, even if it's beating you up at the moment.
Keep checking in...did you see, Davey's in loooove =)
Peace~M&M
Keep checking in...did you see, Davey's in loooove =)
Peace~M&M
Alrite Jack LOL@MnM......shes a right gasser eh!! yep mate its official cynical ol smartypants me is on a pure love vibe....like a lil puppy lol...read my demise into romantic bananlity on the other posts..il mail ya with the details,save these poor folks on here.
Im laughing at ya poor old aching muscles,when i was doing really tough industrial steelwork years ago....i had a birds eye view into some office blocks across the street an used ta see the deskers and wish i could be were they were,so it works both ways.Mate sorry to hear ya feelin blue....but i kinda knew it would come,think you did too......its good ya keepin clean thats no.1.....and the anti D is a good one i hear......but bwoy u know me and Mr.Benzo are old enemies so jus use what ya got and dont go back to that writing arm you know it.I write ya soon my friend...p.s read Hubert Selby Jnrs Requim for a Dream.....seen the movie but the book is more based in the 70s NY drug culture....i thought of you my friend reading some of the stuff in it,yer war stories are so comparable to the book its uncanny anyway later respect and of course love to you............Davey
Im laughing at ya poor old aching muscles,when i was doing really tough industrial steelwork years ago....i had a birds eye view into some office blocks across the street an used ta see the deskers and wish i could be were they were,so it works both ways.Mate sorry to hear ya feelin blue....but i kinda knew it would come,think you did too......its good ya keepin clean thats no.1.....and the anti D is a good one i hear......but bwoy u know me and Mr.Benzo are old enemies so jus use what ya got and dont go back to that writing arm you know it.I write ya soon my friend...p.s read Hubert Selby Jnrs Requim for a Dream.....seen the movie but the book is more based in the 70s NY drug culture....i thought of you my friend reading some of the stuff in it,yer war stories are so comparable to the book its uncanny anyway later respect and of course love to you............Davey
Hey jack, good to hear from you. I got paid off last year too and my mind was all over the place...the cravings the boredom were increasing cause i had nothing to focus my mind on..
I know you will stick at it, and soon you will get something to suit you again.
Yeah, be careful with that doc. I went to see my key worker on thur and she was on about putting me on anti d's. I told her no as i dont think i need them. But, i do know if i got on them i would ask for other things, and other things.....and that would most prob get me into trouble........
Keep posting jack. Take it easy, Kev
I know you will stick at it, and soon you will get something to suit you again.
Yeah, be careful with that doc. I went to see my key worker on thur and she was on about putting me on anti d's. I told her no as i dont think i need them. But, i do know if i got on them i would ask for other things, and other things.....and that would most prob get me into trouble........
Keep posting jack. Take it easy, Kev
