well im back on the drugs again and lost my family through it im so selfish lost my buitiful family i didnt keep going back to recovery through it and im thinking silly i wont to end my life had enough of hurting my family so if you guys dont hear from me ive dont it thanks for your support i just didnt listen mont
Do you need to talk with someone? I am worried.
Jer
Jer
Ozmont...............e-mail me or call me today.
Here is my e-mailtimlincoln@aol.com
7135019082
I doubt you can get through in Austrailia but there should be some help lines there.
I'm sorry about your family, man.It may not make much sense now but unfortunately that's one of the consequences of using.
My concern is for you right now.You are a young guy and this is not the end my brother.You still have your family, they just need to be away for awhile till you get it together.
Drug addiction is a disease.Even when you stop using a lot of the behaviors that prompted you are still there.If you don't go through treatment and follow up with some sort of twelve step program the success of staying clean is even more limited.Even being in a program is not a 100% guranteed you will stay clean so the logistics are stacked against you.It takes a lot of work.
You are not morally weak or a bad person.You f*cked up and made a bad choice but it in no way does that have to define the rest of your life.Your addiction will tell you to just give up right now but don't.I'm a lot older with probably a lot more f*ck ups and I just kept trying.It was humiliating at times but down inside I really wanted to live.I just didn't know how.
I'll research some numbers you can call in Austrailia.Keep it together and post today.I have to work but some other's can talk to you.
Jer is a great person to talk to.He has some recent experience with this so log on and chat with him.
Here is my e-mailtimlincoln@aol.com
7135019082
I doubt you can get through in Austrailia but there should be some help lines there.
I'm sorry about your family, man.It may not make much sense now but unfortunately that's one of the consequences of using.
My concern is for you right now.You are a young guy and this is not the end my brother.You still have your family, they just need to be away for awhile till you get it together.
Drug addiction is a disease.Even when you stop using a lot of the behaviors that prompted you are still there.If you don't go through treatment and follow up with some sort of twelve step program the success of staying clean is even more limited.Even being in a program is not a 100% guranteed you will stay clean so the logistics are stacked against you.It takes a lot of work.
You are not morally weak or a bad person.You f*cked up and made a bad choice but it in no way does that have to define the rest of your life.Your addiction will tell you to just give up right now but don't.I'm a lot older with probably a lot more f*ck ups and I just kept trying.It was humiliating at times but down inside I really wanted to live.I just didn't know how.
I'll research some numbers you can call in Austrailia.Keep it together and post today.I have to work but some other's can talk to you.
Jer is a great person to talk to.He has some recent experience with this so log on and chat with him.
ozmont
please do not take your life! it does get better the next day, things always get brighter after the darkness. i speak from experience with the same feelings that just occurred one week ago with me , so i really understand what your feeling,my situation is the opposite of yours, my family abandoned me not for using drugs, they abandoned me for stopping drugs!
they dont like the new julie who finally set the necessary boundaries i needed to set for me to recover from the disease of addiction.
so ozmont what happened is i started blaming myself, i told myself i am the problem so i will get out of their lives by dying is what i thought last week, the stress i am under added to these feelings and i was so overwhelmed that i beat myself up so bad one night last week, i cussed myself out and i really got dark and was contemplating a way to end it, but the Holy spirit wouldnt let me do it, at that very moment a thought occured and it went like this: Jesus said to me, so i guess i died on the cross for you in vain then....
at that very moment when that revelation occurred to me is when i knew that i couldn't do it and i just prayed that you will not do it either.
let your family see you recover, get up and try try again, keep going to meetings until they make sense.
its hard to see how precious the gift of life is when you are depressed, but believe me it will get better and you will feel differently when the fog lifts.
please check in and let us know you are ok.jewels
please do not take your life! it does get better the next day, things always get brighter after the darkness. i speak from experience with the same feelings that just occurred one week ago with me , so i really understand what your feeling,my situation is the opposite of yours, my family abandoned me not for using drugs, they abandoned me for stopping drugs!
they dont like the new julie who finally set the necessary boundaries i needed to set for me to recover from the disease of addiction.
so ozmont what happened is i started blaming myself, i told myself i am the problem so i will get out of their lives by dying is what i thought last week, the stress i am under added to these feelings and i was so overwhelmed that i beat myself up so bad one night last week, i cussed myself out and i really got dark and was contemplating a way to end it, but the Holy spirit wouldnt let me do it, at that very moment a thought occured and it went like this: Jesus said to me, so i guess i died on the cross for you in vain then....
at that very moment when that revelation occurred to me is when i knew that i couldn't do it and i just prayed that you will not do it either.
let your family see you recover, get up and try try again, keep going to meetings until they make sense.
its hard to see how precious the gift of life is when you are depressed, but believe me it will get better and you will feel differently when the fog lifts.
please check in and let us know you are ok.jewels
Greater Sydney Western Area Narcotics Anonymous
My Webpage
mobile: 0401552962
Call that mobile line and someone could meet you.Explain your deal and that person will direct you to a site where you can talk.
Try this one too....East Sydney area
My Webpage
My Webpage
mobile: 0401552962
Call that mobile line and someone could meet you.Explain your deal and that person will direct you to a site where you can talk.
Try this one too....East Sydney area
My Webpage
Mont, I and I am sure just about everyone here has felt exactly the way you are feeling right now. So many days/nights I just wanted to end it all. THAT IS NOT THE ANSWER. can you imagine how badly that would hurt your family? Instead get your self better and win back the family!!! I am in your shoes right now, I relapsed and I was honest with my family, My dad went nuts but I am working hard to get well and he came around. Good luck, I am home today and if you want to talk I will be around and here for you. Take good care of yourself. Ang
I'm home for lunch Oz.I see you haven't posted so I hope you get some help.I've been thinking about you this morning at work.I know that desperation.It will pass.Check in my friend.
My e-mail is tracey1963_4@msn.com I will be around for a couple more hours. I would like to help, don't give up things will get better I promise
ozmont,
You arent down until you dont pull yourself back up, please try to pull yourself up, dude. This is worth it, you are worth it. Call Tim, he's smart and can help you. Jer is great too. There are many nice people her, just post, try standing up and talking to us , we're listening....
Please post,
Take care, you are soooo worth it!
(((((((((( lucky)))))))))))))))))
You arent down until you dont pull yourself back up, please try to pull yourself up, dude. This is worth it, you are worth it. Call Tim, he's smart and can help you. Jer is great too. There are many nice people her, just post, try standing up and talking to us , we're listening....
Please post,
Take care, you are soooo worth it!
(((((((((( lucky)))))))))))))))))
Oz??????
ozmont
Ya know, people here care about you. It's really hard when you're going through what you're going through now. Don't let anything stop you from feeling better about your self.
No matter what happens, you deserve to be what you are, but just know, people think a lot of you. There are people that care!. I care about you.
Life does get better.
Hawk
Ya know, people here care about you. It's really hard when you're going through what you're going through now. Don't let anything stop you from feeling better about your self.
No matter what happens, you deserve to be what you are, but just know, people think a lot of you. There are people that care!. I care about you.
Life does get better.
Hawk
Oz-I wish you would just check in this morning.I don't have a # to call you but would like to hear from you.Thanks
HI JUST LETTING U KNOW IM HANDLING THINGS JUST MY WIFE IS SO HURT FOR WHAT IVE DONE AND IM THE ONE FEELING IT WHAT IVE DONE WE ARE SELLING THE HOUSE, I CANT LET GO OF HER OR MY KIDS , I LIED TO HER AND IM SUCH A FOOL FOR DOING IT AS WE ALL KNOW NO TRUST THERE ISNT ANYTHINK,PLEASE PEOPLE GET BACK TO ME I NEED IT LIKE IVE NEVER NEEDED HELP BEFORE,IM ONLY TAKING 20MG IN MORNING AND NIGHT SO NEED TO GET OF IT NOW IM A SAFETY OFFICER SO IVE GOT A LOT OF RESPONCIBLITY ON MY SHOULDERS WORK ALL THE TIME EVERY WEEKEND NON STOP NOT HANDLING IT I NEED SOME COMFORT AND SOME GOOD FEEDBACK GUYS MONT
G'day Mont I'm in Melbourne
If you need to talk you can call me on 0419 350 416 anytime
Hang in there mate
Sean
If you need to talk you can call me on 0419 350 416 anytime
Hang in there mate
Sean
Hey Oz.Call Sean,he's in your area.You can also leave me your # and I'll place the call so you don't have to.It's up to you.I left you some # above too.
40 mg. of OC a day is still a bit.How did you get off it last summer? You were doing a lot more as I recall so you can do this again.For right now I would put all my psychic energy into getting clean.Your family is still going to be there.
Maybe not in the same location.
Can you take a week off work?Are there any Rehabs in your area?
You might have to bite the bit and do this at home.Take a 3 or 4 day break from work,bunker down, get you some OTC meds and get prepared to be sick for a few days.I've done it on higher doses.
There are no quick fixes to this problem.You're going to have to do something different or you will be visiting this problem again.Action is required.Promises and pledges are a dime a dozen and your wife has heard all of them.
If you do nothing else today ask yourself this question.
Am I willing to go to any length to get clean?
You have a lot to live for so this is just a detour.You want to hit the good surf,eh?
40 mg. of OC a day is still a bit.How did you get off it last summer? You were doing a lot more as I recall so you can do this again.For right now I would put all my psychic energy into getting clean.Your family is still going to be there.
Maybe not in the same location.
Can you take a week off work?Are there any Rehabs in your area?
You might have to bite the bit and do this at home.Take a 3 or 4 day break from work,bunker down, get you some OTC meds and get prepared to be sick for a few days.I've done it on higher doses.
There are no quick fixes to this problem.You're going to have to do something different or you will be visiting this problem again.Action is required.Promises and pledges are a dime a dozen and your wife has heard all of them.
If you do nothing else today ask yourself this question.
Am I willing to go to any length to get clean?
You have a lot to live for so this is just a detour.You want to hit the good surf,eh?
Oz...we have all been ther...feeling the utter shame and futulity...but I know that those who kept trying did succeed....YOU are not bad....it the awful disease of addiction...Tim and Sean are quite knowledgeable in this arena....take their advice and I will pray for you. Best of luck Oz......Love, Sharonn
So..........what did you do Oz?
Inquiring minds want to know.
Inquiring minds want to know.
HELLO MY FRIENDS IM WORKING MY BUT OFF IM GOING TO GIVE SEAN A RING AFTER GETTING OF THIS DONT KNOW HOW TO GO ABOUT GETTING OF THIS AS IM IN THE MIDDLE OF STUDYING TO BE A SAFETY OFFICER IM STRESSING A BIT IVE TAKEN MORE THAN I SHOULD SO IM GOING TO TAPPER DOWN TODAY MEGAN AND KIDS ARE NOT HERE I SO MUCH WANT TO GET OFF THIS SO BAD AND HAVE MY LIFE BACK MONTS PLEASE REPLY GUYS I REALLY RELY ON YOUR THOUGHTS IT GETS ME THROUGH
Mont gave me a call today and we had a good chat. He is going to hook up with some local supports in an effort to getting his recovery on track.
Thanks Sean.That's excellent news.
Don't ever give up Mont.There is always a solution.
Don't ever give up Mont.There is always a solution.