i have been looking at your site for three day i have been in w/d's for three days
i am very messed up i need help. i keep telling myself it is going to be o.k.
but i don't know. fell like i'm dying, inside and out. been on methadone for a while now rx is for 80mg's daily but i keep running out early. have been on everything for pain. i am now taking meth. for pain mgt. how do i get off and stay off everything? thinking about just riding out the storm and staying off
which is esier said than done. will have pills from dr. on tues. do i just wait?
do i taper off? or do i just say quit and die? HELP
well i guess i have to reply to my own post is anyone out there?
do ya care? i am really in some discomfort right now with
aching, muscle spasms, stomach cramps,and nausea. will someone
talk to me
do ya care? i am really in some discomfort right now with
aching, muscle spasms, stomach cramps,and nausea. will someone
talk to me
Hey Atoz,
My husband has to take pain pills for the extreme pain he is always in. He has no other choice. If you have to take them, don't be hard on yourself. If you are abusing them, well then there is help for you.
I'm learning to go to meetings. They help me. Just may be something you might want to check into. Is there any NA meetings where you are?
Liz
My husband has to take pain pills for the extreme pain he is always in. He has no other choice. If you have to take them, don't be hard on yourself. If you are abusing them, well then there is help for you.
I'm learning to go to meetings. They help me. Just may be something you might want to check into. Is there any NA meetings where you are?
Liz
oh yeah,
Please understand that nobody is ignoring you. Just been so much going on here in the past couple of days. Things will calm down. Hang in there. Others will be around to help you out.
Liz
Please understand that nobody is ignoring you. Just been so much going on here in the past couple of days. Things will calm down. Hang in there. Others will be around to help you out.
Liz
Atoz, it sounds like you are already under a medical care for your addiction andpain problems, with the methadone program and all? If so, all I can offer as a suggestion is to come clean with your pain mgt. doc, tell him you're abusing the meth, or at least that you want to get off it, then follow medical advice as to the safest way to detox. Peace, M.
First let me say I do not take Drugs of any kind.......But I am watching my husband withdrawl cold turkey from percocet. If today is day three and you can't get more till tuesday then the answer is clear STOP. Get on the phone and find the nearest na metting and go NOW. Now having said all that.....Is it time for you. Is today really the day that you have had enough. If so then you should be all set to go so pick up that phone now and make the call.
Good Luck to you and Stay Strong
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Good Luck to you and Stay Strong
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Hi AtoZ,
I know that Methadone is HIGHLY addictive. However, it helped me immensely when I stopped abusing the percocet and was going through withdrawls. The dr. put me on a "taper" using methadone - I wasnt started out at a very high doseage since I was already tapering off the percs - He started me at 20mg in a.m. and 20mg at p.m. and tapered down from there. I'm feeling fine - very tired, a little nauseated, but WAY better than C/T.
If you cant get any pills until Tues (4 days) - and you say you have already been going through w/d's for 3 days - by then you would have already gone through the worst part of withdrawls. Did you just stop cold turkey, did you taper down before this? See, I'm not a Dr. and if you have any underlying problems - heart - HBP, etc. We cant give you advice to "just stop" - some people need help - some can do it on their own. Everybody is different. You really should check with your dr. and confide in him/her. I had to. They understand. It took me SO LONG to finally make that last step and "fess" up to the DRs. (Some days I used to kick myself in the a$$ for it LOL) but if you already have 3 days - more power to you- thats great- you are just about over the worse part of WDs. Let us know what you decide to do. Remember, we are not drs. just trying to advise from our own experiences. Keep posting.
Love,
Marie
I know that Methadone is HIGHLY addictive. However, it helped me immensely when I stopped abusing the percocet and was going through withdrawls. The dr. put me on a "taper" using methadone - I wasnt started out at a very high doseage since I was already tapering off the percs - He started me at 20mg in a.m. and 20mg at p.m. and tapered down from there. I'm feeling fine - very tired, a little nauseated, but WAY better than C/T.
If you cant get any pills until Tues (4 days) - and you say you have already been going through w/d's for 3 days - by then you would have already gone through the worst part of withdrawls. Did you just stop cold turkey, did you taper down before this? See, I'm not a Dr. and if you have any underlying problems - heart - HBP, etc. We cant give you advice to "just stop" - some people need help - some can do it on their own. Everybody is different. You really should check with your dr. and confide in him/her. I had to. They understand. It took me SO LONG to finally make that last step and "fess" up to the DRs. (Some days I used to kick myself in the a$$ for it LOL) but if you already have 3 days - more power to you- thats great- you are just about over the worse part of WDs. Let us know what you decide to do. Remember, we are not drs. just trying to advise from our own experiences. Keep posting.
Love,
Marie
AtoZ... I'm so sorry that you're feeling so bad. Do you ever want to go through that again? Like Marie said, you've already gone through the worst of it and with 4 days to go, you should be feeling so much better by Tues. Why would you want to do that again? Actually I know the answer to that question, but maybe you're stronger than me and you can do something about this BEFORE you get another script. Call your Doc. Tell him you need to see him ASAP. Come clean and ask for help. Your pain is real but so is your addiction and he can help you. I'm not sure about Methadone but isn't that one of the meds that you shouldn't cold turkey from because of seizures? If that's the case, you really do need to call the doc and tell him. Your life may depend on it.
I know what you're feeling and it really sucks. The only thing I can say now is to take lots of hot baths, immodium and advil. Get some rest even if you can't sleep. Be gentle with yourself, you're sick.
Cowgirl
I know what you're feeling and it really sucks. The only thing I can say now is to take lots of hot baths, immodium and advil. Get some rest even if you can't sleep. Be gentle with yourself, you're sick.
Cowgirl
hello people,
i appreciate the posts i have seen in reply to my post on friday. i was on day three of c/t w/d's now am on day 6 have finished 5 full days am doing a lot better
than i was. had a kinda rough night last night but am back at work and doing much better. have given up on going to dr. on tues. that has been cancelled.
am looking forward to this day and all it has in store for me. my eyes are kinda blurried but i feel i'm gonna be o.k. thank you for the support on this board. one thing i am sure of is i am not going back to using. went back to church yesterday and it felt wonderful just to feel God in my life again. not saying he left but just saying it has been along time since i felt him.
thank you all
johnny
i appreciate the posts i have seen in reply to my post on friday. i was on day three of c/t w/d's now am on day 6 have finished 5 full days am doing a lot better
than i was. had a kinda rough night last night but am back at work and doing much better. have given up on going to dr. on tues. that has been cancelled.
am looking forward to this day and all it has in store for me. my eyes are kinda blurried but i feel i'm gonna be o.k. thank you for the support on this board. one thing i am sure of is i am not going back to using. went back to church yesterday and it felt wonderful just to feel God in my life again. not saying he left but just saying it has been along time since i felt him.
thank you all
johnny
Johnny, it DOES get better..... I didn't start feeling normal again for 3 weeks, but after Day 5 or 6, it just kept getting better and better.
The worst part is the fatigue and the insomnia. All I could think was "If this is life without pills, I'd rather be hooked on Vics than live like this." I was sooooo exhausted all the time..... but I pulled through. I got put back on Ambien (which is addictive as well and I guess I AM addicted to it b/c I've needed it to sleep for 2 1/2 years) and that made a world of difference b/c it allowed me to sleep.....
I used this board a lot for mental support - and still do.... If someone doesn't post an answer to your question right away, don't get discouraged.... we are all in different time zones - there are people on here from the US, Australia, NZ, Europe, etc..... but you WILL get an answer eventually and you WILL find the support you need on here.
Good luck
The worst part is the fatigue and the insomnia. All I could think was "If this is life without pills, I'd rather be hooked on Vics than live like this." I was sooooo exhausted all the time..... but I pulled through. I got put back on Ambien (which is addictive as well and I guess I AM addicted to it b/c I've needed it to sleep for 2 1/2 years) and that made a world of difference b/c it allowed me to sleep.....
I used this board a lot for mental support - and still do.... If someone doesn't post an answer to your question right away, don't get discouraged.... we are all in different time zones - there are people on here from the US, Australia, NZ, Europe, etc..... but you WILL get an answer eventually and you WILL find the support you need on here.
Good luck
You did it, atoz! Imho...please don't go to the dr on tues...just ride it out. You made it this far. I have never taken oxys...but I think those are so much harder to detox from.
Hang in there and I will send you some prayers...
kerry
Hang in there and I will send you some prayers...
kerry
Hi Johnny,
Keep up the good work. You are already past the worst of it. I agree with Kerry, I would not go and get a refill at the Drs. You have come this far without them. I know you can do it!!!!! All my best to you. I will keep you in my prayers.
Love,
Marie
Keep up the good work. You are already past the worst of it. I agree with Kerry, I would not go and get a refill at the Drs. You have come this far without them. I know you can do it!!!!! All my best to you. I will keep you in my prayers.
Love,
Marie
ATOZ,
I am on day 4 . . . not taking anything but Phenergan for the nausea. I was on toilet since Sunday. Horrible flu symptoms. I am glad to read that after a week it starts to go away and you can see a light at the end of the tunnel. I am at work right now suffering,,,,can't do my job, etc. Everyone keeps asking me what is wrong. Worst off, my husband does not know and I have two kids to take care of when I get off work. I just want to climb under a rock. I hate the feeling of the blurry eyes. Can't focus right. So weird.
Be careful with methadone. Valium.....Xanax....really bad stuff.
P.S. - I was on about 10 Norcos a day....or more.
Keep trying.
I am on day 4 . . . not taking anything but Phenergan for the nausea. I was on toilet since Sunday. Horrible flu symptoms. I am glad to read that after a week it starts to go away and you can see a light at the end of the tunnel. I am at work right now suffering,,,,can't do my job, etc. Everyone keeps asking me what is wrong. Worst off, my husband does not know and I have two kids to take care of when I get off work. I just want to climb under a rock. I hate the feeling of the blurry eyes. Can't focus right. So weird.
Be careful with methadone. Valium.....Xanax....really bad stuff.
P.S. - I was on about 10 Norcos a day....or more.
Keep trying.
ATOZ -
Hang in there. It has been day 7 for me. You can do it. We are here for you! You can beat it. Just take it one day at a time for now. Please don't slip up. Think about the thing you love the most to keep you strong.
EDDIE
Hang in there. It has been day 7 for me. You can do it. We are here for you! You can beat it. Just take it one day at a time for now. Please don't slip up. Think about the thing you love the most to keep you strong.
EDDIE
atoz,
i was on methadone 10 years. don't just quit cold turkey. detox slowly, and i mean as slowly as you can. it takes awhile for that stuff to come out of your bones. the doctors told me that it didn't get into your bones. but i don't believe them. i was on 60 milligrams for 7 years maintenance, and 3 years to detox. but i took along time, because when i was forced to detox in a month, i went back to using. the slow detox, i was able to finally stay clean. good luck.
i was on methadone 10 years. don't just quit cold turkey. detox slowly, and i mean as slowly as you can. it takes awhile for that stuff to come out of your bones. the doctors told me that it didn't get into your bones. but i don't believe them. i was on 60 milligrams for 7 years maintenance, and 3 years to detox. but i took along time, because when i was forced to detox in a month, i went back to using. the slow detox, i was able to finally stay clean. good luck.
ATOZ- How are things going? I hope you are doing well. God bless. Stay stong!
dear blessed,
hey there who are you and where are you from. your name just seems like it rings a bell for me. just wondering, by the way i am doing o.k. post to me again please. i can tell you are a christian and probably an on fire one.
johnny
hey there who are you and where are you from. your name just seems like it rings a bell for me. just wondering, by the way i am doing o.k. post to me again please. i can tell you are a christian and probably an on fire one.
johnny
Hey Atoz- I'm a newbie. Surfing the web for help with addiction to Vicoden and found this site. I love it.
Yes, I am a Christian and I can truley say the grace of God is the ONLY thing that is keeping me now. I struggle EVERY DAY with wanting VIC...I'm on day 1 and a hlaf of no pills. I really want to kick it this time.
This site has been real encouraging. Some real caring people here. Nice to be here.
Blessed
If you don't mind me asking...where do you live? I'm on the West Coast. Sunny California...
Yes, I am a Christian and I can truley say the grace of God is the ONLY thing that is keeping me now. I struggle EVERY DAY with wanting VIC...I'm on day 1 and a hlaf of no pills. I really want to kick it this time.
This site has been real encouraging. Some real caring people here. Nice to be here.
Blessed
If you don't mind me asking...where do you live? I'm on the West Coast. Sunny California...
Hi, guys and girls, I"m here from time to time because my husband is a pain pill addict and when it's not painpills, it's alcohol. Since he became involved with the pills, our life has never been the same.. Everything about our life is a life... and now I can never trust anything... I'm in deep depression because my marriage as I knew it before the drugs is over. When you guys are going through all this, do you have people in your lives that you know you are killing inch by inch... and does that make you think twice about continuing to do the drugs or is the need just too great??
Incentive,
I have someone who loves me very much and was watching me kill myself slowly. And yes, everytime I got a new bottle of pills I felt guilty because of him (among other things). But I was addicted.My body craved and craved the pills, and that craving was stronger than my guilt. My husband owns a business, oversees the care of his mom with ALZ and doesn't have much spare time on his hands. So he really didn't see how deep I was in until I quit and came clean with him. He has been so sweet and supportive since I quit that, yes, I can now say that I will not go back to the pills because I do not want to let him down. My main reason for staying clean will be for me. But he comes in a very close 2nd.
I am so very sorry for what you are going through with your husband. Double addiction is bad. Is he ready to quit? Does he admit he has a problem? Is there anyway he will get help? Either way, you can get help here or at NA meetings. I think it's called Alnon, or something, for loved ones of addicts.
Just know that it doesn't mean he doesn't love you. THis very evil thing has a deep grip on him and he isn't fighting it, he's giving in to it. Just like we all did.
I will pray for you and him.
I have someone who loves me very much and was watching me kill myself slowly. And yes, everytime I got a new bottle of pills I felt guilty because of him (among other things). But I was addicted.My body craved and craved the pills, and that craving was stronger than my guilt. My husband owns a business, oversees the care of his mom with ALZ and doesn't have much spare time on his hands. So he really didn't see how deep I was in until I quit and came clean with him. He has been so sweet and supportive since I quit that, yes, I can now say that I will not go back to the pills because I do not want to let him down. My main reason for staying clean will be for me. But he comes in a very close 2nd.
I am so very sorry for what you are going through with your husband. Double addiction is bad. Is he ready to quit? Does he admit he has a problem? Is there anyway he will get help? Either way, you can get help here or at NA meetings. I think it's called Alnon, or something, for loved ones of addicts.
Just know that it doesn't mean he doesn't love you. THis very evil thing has a deep grip on him and he isn't fighting it, he's giving in to it. Just like we all did.
I will pray for you and him.
