It seems to me, or at least for me that getting heathly is the biggest roller coaster ride ever !!! Just when I think I am strong and doing things right, I slip up and
"Fall off the wagon." Some days I feel so strong and others I feel like a slave to these pills. I ask myself all the time, how can these pills be so controlling. I am trying to stay positive and remember that there will be a day soon that I will be back to my old pill free self. I have my wonderful husband by my side, and of course you all. I think that is a good reason why I keep pushing. I can't thank you all enough for be here for me it has made a big differnce :-)
Kayla
Kayla, don't feel like the lone ranger... even after 60 some days of being clean, I too still have those feelings. Great one day, deep down darks the next. But the up side is, the dark days are easier to take and don't happen as often as the good days. Not only are we addicts, we are human. For me, I now have to feel those feelings rather than medicate them..not liking that part so much.
Hang in there kiddo. I know you are trying and I know one day soon, you'll kick this in the butt.
Love,
Cowgirl
Hang in there kiddo. I know you are trying and I know one day soon, you'll kick this in the butt.
Love,
Cowgirl
Hi kalya hi cowgirl could not of put it better myself how you doing anyways jackie xxxxxxxxxx
Kayla - its hard i know - but we have to keep up the fight - wish you well in whatever way your trying to cut loose from them - but as cowgirl says dont ffeel your the lone ranger (sorry but i thought that was funny at the time). Keep in touch
Cowgirl - dont think i have gotton to speak to you yet - maybe you have read my posts and know that i am now getting onto the subutex - tapering wasnt working for me - and with the depression it would only have got worse and more dangerous - counceller told me i was doing the right thing coming to then with the state i was in - but i am so happy about getting onto the subutex - but know that is not the end of the battle (lone ranger - you are so funny ) talk to you later hope you are keeping well let me knowhow you are
lol outof - Rosy is my real name - think i will change my login is that possible to do
Cowgirl - dont think i have gotton to speak to you yet - maybe you have read my posts and know that i am now getting onto the subutex - tapering wasnt working for me - and with the depression it would only have got worse and more dangerous - counceller told me i was doing the right thing coming to then with the state i was in - but i am so happy about getting onto the subutex - but know that is not the end of the battle (lone ranger - you are so funny ) talk to you later hope you are keeping well let me knowhow you are
lol outof - Rosy is my real name - think i will change my login is that possible to do
