Danm alcohol. It got me again. I have been having a really hard time trying to decide on do I quit drinking all together, or do I try and moderate it? Well I've tried everything else besides AA. I mean I have tried AA, but I havent given it a fair chance. I'll go to a meeting a week or maybe 2, but then by the time the weekend comes, I have temporarily forgotten the reasons I decided I needed to quit. How can I keep it in my head and not let myself talk myself into thinking it's ok to drink once a week, or I can moderarte it or whatever my alcoholic mind is telling me that day? I just have to give AA a real chance, because I've tried everything but. I can't really go to a meeting every day because there isn't a whole lot of meetings in my area that don't conflict with my work schedule, but I can for sure make it to 3 a week, and some online ones on top of that. I wonder if that'd be enough. Right now, I just have to force myself to go.
It took treatment for me to quit drinking. I knew that I could not quit on my own. At treatment I rediscovered my higher power, God. Faith in a higher power and lots and lots of prayer will help you more than you'll ever know. Get to some AA meetings. When I was in treatment I had to go to meetings and now I love going to them. When you go to meetings, don't hold back. Say whatever your heart feels. Those people all want to help you as they want to help themselves. There are many more meetings in surrounding areas that will be able to help you out. Get a schedule book from a meeting that you can go to. Figure it out! You and your sobriety have to be #1, figure it out with work or whatever it takes to get to a meeting. You and your sobriety are more important than that job. I have been clean for 102 days and I feel better than I have in 12 years. Getting clean and sober is a great feeling, staying sober is even better. Take it one day at a time, one hour at a time, 10 minutes at a time if that is what you need to do. DON"T PICK UP! You can do it. Good Luck.
Lovin'Life
Lovin'Life
Welcome back MupMup, I think of you from time to time and wonder how you are doing...there is hope and there is a solution. I found both in the rooms of AA. It was suggested that I fully embrace the Program: get a sobriety date and keep it; get a Sponsor and use her; pick up the phone before I pick up a drink; go to 90 meetings in 90 days and pick a group as my home "group". So far it's been working for me. I'm working with a young gal who had 18 months of sobriety and thought she could start drinking casually, she stopped going to meetings. Drinking took her down a very dark path...she tried to end her life on Thursday...she's in the County hospital in the Psych ward...on a 14 day suicide watch ...Ive sat with her for the last three days for a couple of hours each day along with all the other patients in the room they share and it is not pleasant by any means. No one seems to get any visitors except her...the only visitors she is getting are from the Program. Her family wants nothing to do with her right now....but for the grace of God go I....good luck to MupMup, I really hope you've had enough....
Thanks for the encouragment. So far things are going well. I just have to stay strong and force myself to keep going to meetings. I went to one yesterday and I have another one tomorrow.
Mupmup, I've heard it said keep going to meetings until you like going to meetings...glad to hear you are hanging in there!
mupmup, glad to hear that you are staying strong. Hopefully the AA meetings are enough for you. Keep the faith!!! Pray a lot. Ask for help from God to remove the compulsion to drink. God will help you through the toughest times.
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