It was a tough week-end but I stuck to my schedule 7 on Friday 6 on
both Sat and Sun. I have never taken less than 6 but my schedule calls
for 5 today. I'm scared. I took the day off work hoping the lack of stress
will help me through the day. One day at a time. I can and will suceed.
Dear lady WELCOME.I'm mollyjean & I should be on for a bit if you think you may like to talk.How do you feel so far????mj
Hi Lady Dor,
I have today off today as well. For me its a holiday. I'm in the same situation, although I don't know what you were taking. I am doing a taper from 8 10mg vicodins to 7, 5mg. Today is really the first day thats all I can take though because last week I had some of the 10's still stashed in the house and I would take them. I have non left so I'm stuck only taking the 5mg on the schedule. My husband holds them and only gives me then when its time. Since he's at work though, he had to leave me 5 pills to get me through until he gets home.
I feel like I'm dying, I don't even have enough energy to get up and take a shower. I guess I thank god I didn't have work today.
I know for me, reading everybody's situation and knowing I'm not alone helps.
So your not alone, I'm home with you and feel the same way!!!
Correggio
I have today off today as well. For me its a holiday. I'm in the same situation, although I don't know what you were taking. I am doing a taper from 8 10mg vicodins to 7, 5mg. Today is really the first day thats all I can take though because last week I had some of the 10's still stashed in the house and I would take them. I have non left so I'm stuck only taking the 5mg on the schedule. My husband holds them and only gives me then when its time. Since he's at work though, he had to leave me 5 pills to get me through until he gets home.
I feel like I'm dying, I don't even have enough energy to get up and take a shower. I guess I thank god I didn't have work today.
I know for me, reading everybody's situation and knowing I'm not alone helps.
So your not alone, I'm home with you and feel the same way!!!
Correggio
You are definitly not alone in your feelings here.My BF use to have to hold mine but I was so bad I would steal my own pills I would buy them I ended my habit at 15+Ultram a day.I stared suboxone (it will be 2 weeks tomarrow since I've been without ANY ULTRAM.A first in 3 years for me.How can I try & help you with these feelings right now.Please if I can do anything I'll be on for a bit.mj
Hi Lady dor, glad you made it through the weekend. Tapering is tough going, especially once you get below your "high" threshold -- it's almost like a slow tease. I tapered to 6/day then had to flush the remainder because I broke schedule. I had been taking 15-30 norco 10s a day, for 5-6 months straight. The withdrawal wasn't as bad as I had expected, but it was my first time (I've heard it gets harder with each one). It's been almost 8 months now, and I can't remember ever feeling better or more optimistic about the future. Hang in, you're so worth it.
Corregio,
Sounds like you're feeling the fatigue of physical withdrawal pretty strongly. I remember feeling like that almost every day at the end, because I'd try not to take any until after work. I didn't realize what was going on, only that the pills lifted the heaviness immediately. Glad you're getting the support of your husband. I read that you should stay at a particular dose for 4-5 days to let your body adjust to the reduced amount. Then reduce some more. If you're like me -- and most who get addicted to opiates -- it will be very hard to taper all the way down. At some point, you may just have to say enough is enough and go c/t. If it's your first time, you may find that it's not as bad you fear -- severe flu symptoms, restless legs, sleeplessness -- and it gets the physical w/d over with sooner. Have you considered a longterm plan to stay stopped -- i.e., to fight the mental part of your addiction? M.
Sounds like you're feeling the fatigue of physical withdrawal pretty strongly. I remember feeling like that almost every day at the end, because I'd try not to take any until after work. I didn't realize what was going on, only that the pills lifted the heaviness immediately. Glad you're getting the support of your husband. I read that you should stay at a particular dose for 4-5 days to let your body adjust to the reduced amount. Then reduce some more. If you're like me -- and most who get addicted to opiates -- it will be very hard to taper all the way down. At some point, you may just have to say enough is enough and go c/t. If it's your first time, you may find that it's not as bad you fear -- severe flu symptoms, restless legs, sleeplessness -- and it gets the physical w/d over with sooner. Have you considered a longterm plan to stay stopped -- i.e., to fight the mental part of your addiction? M.
None4Me,
My doctor gave us a schedule of 8 a day for week, then 7 for a week so on until I am down to 0. Now you said at some point you didn't think I would be able to keep the taper up. Why do you say that? What could happen?? This week the schedule is one every 3 1/2 hours, then next week it will be 1 every fours hour. Do you think there is a better way of doing it?? My doctor felt this could be the easiest since I have to be in work everyday? Do you get the same withdrawals when you do it this was vs c/t? I'm interested in what you have to say. Please get back to me.
I am going to be going to womens N/A meeting starting tomorrow for support to try and stay off them in the future.
I find myself not eating so that when I take that 1 pill every few hours, I may get that little high from it. Its only been 1 a week though, maybe I'm trying to rush it and make these feelings go away to quick. I know its gonna take time to not crave the pill.
Correggio
My doctor gave us a schedule of 8 a day for week, then 7 for a week so on until I am down to 0. Now you said at some point you didn't think I would be able to keep the taper up. Why do you say that? What could happen?? This week the schedule is one every 3 1/2 hours, then next week it will be 1 every fours hour. Do you think there is a better way of doing it?? My doctor felt this could be the easiest since I have to be in work everyday? Do you get the same withdrawals when you do it this was vs c/t? I'm interested in what you have to say. Please get back to me.
I am going to be going to womens N/A meeting starting tomorrow for support to try and stay off them in the future.
I find myself not eating so that when I take that 1 pill every few hours, I may get that little high from it. Its only been 1 a week though, maybe I'm trying to rush it and make these feelings go away to quick. I know its gonna take time to not crave the pill.
Correggio
Hi Corregio, didn't mean to sound pessimistic. It's just been my experience that once you're below the high threshold, it becomes very tough for an addict to control his/her intake to successfully complete a taper down to 1 pill or so. The mental part of this disease is tricky as he**. It whispers in our ear that a couple extra here and there won't hurt; that not eating will help maximize the high, etc. You know how it is, I think. But if someone else is controlling the pills, that should help a lot. Follow whatever you've worked out with your doctor. That's the smart way to go -- medically supevised. And I'm so glad to hear that you'll be checking out NA; it is a proven method to help with the mental addiction. That way you can stay stopped and never have to repeat what you've been through. Good luck, M.
