Hi all, just a short message to let that Kevin took his own life this morning. I never thought that it would come to this and I am absultely distraught.
He beat me up Saturday morning, so I ended it. I left my home and went to stay with my friend. He begged me and begged me to stay with him but I couldnt....for my daughters sake. She had seen and been through enough and I thought it the right decision to walk away. He called and called me last night begging and he also called round to her house. I told him I would talk to him tomorrow...being today. I spoke to him at 10:00pm last night and agreed to meet up, just to calm him down because he was threatening me with his life. He said without me, life was nothing. He couldnt live without me etc. I went home at 10:00am this morning and I found him hanging from my loft.
Thats all I can say other than could you all please leave a tribute to him, although you didnt know him, the devil took over him and took his life. Took him away from me and his daughter. I am gutted...this man was perfect till this ilness took over him. He was my life and I was looking forward to posting my own happy ending on here but unfortunately not.
Anyway am going to go. Thanks for reading and maybe speak soon. I will continue using this site and keep intouch with all you guys.
Love nd hugs Lynds xxx
Oh Bunny, dear Bunny........there are no words.
Bunny...........
Bunny...........
Oh bunny , I am so so so sorry.............as bryn said.....there r no words.......as someone who tried unsuccessfully to take my own life.........I know it was the drugs, nothing to do with anyof your decisions............it is the devil like you stated.........please email me @ <treshann@comcast.net> if you need anyone to talk to..............I wil keep you bothin myprayers today...........please try and stay strong, i am so so so so sorry :(
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bunny ill keep you in my thoughts im so so sorry to hear this tragic news my deepest sympathy goes out to you guys xxxxxxxx emma
I am so sorry Bunny, so truly sorry
I read your words three times hoping for a different ending, wishing that it wasnt like this to begin with for you.
Make sure you understand that none of this was because of you, or about you. This was his choice for his reasons.
Will keep you all in my prayers
Big hugs,
Love,
Tina
I read your words three times hoping for a different ending, wishing that it wasnt like this to begin with for you.
Make sure you understand that none of this was because of you, or about you. This was his choice for his reasons.
Will keep you all in my prayers
Big hugs,
Love,
Tina
Bunny,
So very sorry for your loss and struggle. Kevin's life was not in vain...nor was his struggle. You did what you could do...said all the words you thought you had to and was their for him the best you could be so as hard as it will be to do now you can rest with some ease knowing that you did all you could. The fitting tribute to Kevin can be summed up in one word....BUNNYROCKER! To care enough to go out of your way to get help for both himself and you speaks volumes to the heart you hold so paying tribute to him would have to include you so on behalf of him and the pain he delt with on a daily basis THANK YOU for caring and doing what you could and though I(Kevin)did not make it cross the line I made it close with your love........the best to you always!
So very sorry for your loss and struggle. Kevin's life was not in vain...nor was his struggle. You did what you could do...said all the words you thought you had to and was their for him the best you could be so as hard as it will be to do now you can rest with some ease knowing that you did all you could. The fitting tribute to Kevin can be summed up in one word....BUNNYROCKER! To care enough to go out of your way to get help for both himself and you speaks volumes to the heart you hold so paying tribute to him would have to include you so on behalf of him and the pain he delt with on a daily basis THANK YOU for caring and doing what you could and though I(Kevin)did not make it cross the line I made it close with your love........the best to you always!
Dear Bunny,
I did nt have the heart to read your email three times, but I have written and rewritten mine at least 3 times, and as Bryn sais there are simply no words.
I will say a prayer for you, and for Kevin whom I hope has found the peace he must have yearned for.
I did nt have the heart to read your email three times, but I have written and rewritten mine at least 3 times, and as Bryn sais there are simply no words.
I will say a prayer for you, and for Kevin whom I hope has found the peace he must have yearned for.
Dear Bunny
I am so sorry for your loss. Please keep posting and let us know how you are. I am so sorry he lost the battle. Please know it had nothing to do with you. It was the drugs You know that. I am so so sorry.
I am so sorry for your loss. Please keep posting and let us know how you are. I am so sorry he lost the battle. Please know it had nothing to do with you. It was the drugs You know that. I am so so sorry.
Oh Lynds, it is hard to find the words to respond to your post. You have been so brave and made moments of his illness bareable...you know how much he appreciated and loved you. His life was truly not in vain and you have your beautiful daughter as a reminder of all that was good in him...a reminder of the real him.
I am so sorry you had to find him, that must have been terrible. I hope you have a support network or would consider counselling.
I send up my prayers that he has found the peace that eluded him in this life. And prayers that you and your little girl will find a way through to the happiness you both deserve so much.
You are in my thoughts.
Maddy x x x
I am so sorry you had to find him, that must have been terrible. I hope you have a support network or would consider counselling.
I send up my prayers that he has found the peace that eluded him in this life. And prayers that you and your little girl will find a way through to the happiness you both deserve so much.
You are in my thoughts.
Maddy x x x
Dear Lynds,
I have never written to you before, but I have read most of your posts. I just want to offer my sincere condolences to you and to your daughter. Kevin may have been plagued by the demon that is heroin, but we must never forget that above all of that, Kevin was a man.
What you have gone through is so terrible and something that nobody should ever have to endure. Please know that in addition to your "real life" family and friends, you also have your friends and family here on the board. I can't even begin to imagine the despair you must be feeling right now, and I don't really know what else to say.
The truth is, with addiction we can sometimes forget about the person trapped inside. Let us all remember who Kevin was as a person and cherish his memory and his life. Please don't blame yourself for this.
Love and thinking of you,
Marla
I have never written to you before, but I have read most of your posts. I just want to offer my sincere condolences to you and to your daughter. Kevin may have been plagued by the demon that is heroin, but we must never forget that above all of that, Kevin was a man.
What you have gone through is so terrible and something that nobody should ever have to endure. Please know that in addition to your "real life" family and friends, you also have your friends and family here on the board. I can't even begin to imagine the despair you must be feeling right now, and I don't really know what else to say.
The truth is, with addiction we can sometimes forget about the person trapped inside. Let us all remember who Kevin was as a person and cherish his memory and his life. Please don't blame yourself for this.
Love and thinking of you,
Marla
Dear Bunny,
My hearfelt condolences to you, your daughter and all those affected by Kevin's passing...May God look over you and give you whatever strength you need as you continue on in your journey called life...Just know what a beautiful spirit you have and I always enjoyed reading your words...I hope you and your daughter hold on to each other through this tragedy and I pray Kevin is at peace.
God bless,
Stacey
My hearfelt condolences to you, your daughter and all those affected by Kevin's passing...May God look over you and give you whatever strength you need as you continue on in your journey called life...Just know what a beautiful spirit you have and I always enjoyed reading your words...I hope you and your daughter hold on to each other through this tragedy and I pray Kevin is at peace.
God bless,
Stacey
Lynds, I'm so sorry, for you, your little one and for all his family. There are no words...
All I can say is don't go down the path of blaming yourself. Ultimately, we are all responsible for our actions. I would urge you to get some counselling, because it must be such a terrible thing to come to terms with.
I'm sending you so much love, and healing.
Diff XXXXXOXXXXX
Take care sweetheart.
All I can say is don't go down the path of blaming yourself. Ultimately, we are all responsible for our actions. I would urge you to get some counselling, because it must be such a terrible thing to come to terms with.
I'm sending you so much love, and healing.
Diff XXXXXOXXXXX
Take care sweetheart.
Bunny, I don't know if we have ever posted to each other, but after reading this I want to tell you how sad and sorry I am that this happened. You and your daughter and family are in my prayers. May God and the Angels watch over you, comfort you and keep you safe. God Bless!
Lyndsy, i don't think i have posted to you before, but i always read your posts and followed you and your little girls story. No words to make it better other than i am so so so sorry that this has happened. and i cannot even begin to imagine how you are feeling right now. Please stay strong. Get professional help, this is way to big a thing to cope with by yourself. once again i am so sorry. xxxx
Dear Bunny...though I do Not know you I do know the heartache of loosing a loved one.For me the hardest thing right now is trying to find some kind of words of comfort as I feel your pain is so deep words just cannot touch it.
Dear Bunny...though it may be hard to believe TIME & Time only can & will be the ONLY thing that can help ease that pain.
Dear Lord please give this sweet woman some comfort in one of the hardest times in her life.send her your love so that the pain will pass & she will have only good memories & not bad painful ones
Amen
dear Bunny...Please try to take care & know you can post your hurt here & hopefully somehow it will help
Sent with so much caring
Mj/Sabrina
Dear Bunny...though it may be hard to believe TIME & Time only can & will be the ONLY thing that can help ease that pain.
Dear Lord please give this sweet woman some comfort in one of the hardest times in her life.send her your love so that the pain will pass & she will have only good memories & not bad painful ones
Amen
dear Bunny...Please try to take care & know you can post your hurt here & hopefully somehow it will help
Sent with so much caring
Mj/Sabrina
Lynds no words can convey the pain yer goin thru right now....i know how ya feel having lost my bro......hopefully they are having a laugh somwhere together.Take care girl ............Davey
Wow -just a heartbreaking story. As everyone said -words just dont work at a time like this. I also would heed Diffs advise & get some counseling-
may you somehow find peace thru the heartache- keep your love-light on
jack
may you somehow find peace thru the heartache- keep your love-light on
jack
Dear Bunny / Lynds ~
I had so hoped for your happy ending, too. Poor Kevin, swallowed by his demon, my heart just breaks for his torment and for your loss. Honey, you did what you could do - he just couldn't take the pain of his illness anymore. So very, very sorry. Please do check back when you are up to it. Prayers going up for you, for your little one, and for Kevin.
Friends~below is a photo of Kevin and his daughter. Bunny posted it over the summer. That sweet child is the best tribute a man could want.
Serenity, Clarity, and Peace~MomNMore
I had so hoped for your happy ending, too. Poor Kevin, swallowed by his demon, my heart just breaks for his torment and for your loss. Honey, you did what you could do - he just couldn't take the pain of his illness anymore. So very, very sorry. Please do check back when you are up to it. Prayers going up for you, for your little one, and for Kevin.
Friends~below is a photo of Kevin and his daughter. Bunny posted it over the summer. That sweet child is the best tribute a man could want.
Serenity, Clarity, and Peace~MomNMore
Momnmore, thanks for posting that picture. That little girl has daddy shining through her.
Lynds, I am really so sorry about this. I wish I could give you a hug. You and your little girl are in my prayers.
Lynds, I am really so sorry about this. I wish I could give you a hug. You and your little girl are in my prayers.
Bunnyrocker,
I am usually over on the pain pills forum, I have not read your story, just this post.
I am sincerely sorry for you, and for your little girl, and for Kevin who fell victim to this terrible and in this case fatal disease.
You and your loved ones are in my thoughts and prayers.
With sincere sympathy!
Grace
I am usually over on the pain pills forum, I have not read your story, just this post.
I am sincerely sorry for you, and for your little girl, and for Kevin who fell victim to this terrible and in this case fatal disease.
You and your loved ones are in my thoughts and prayers.
With sincere sympathy!
Grace
